hey everyone...went to watch DEATH NOTE II with chua, kai ling and grace. though the ending is rather tragic and left grace traumatised for nearly 1/2 hr after the show ended, i think its overall a fab show. u guys shud watch it EVEN IF YOU HAVE NO TIME. get it? *thumbs up*
went family shopping after tt and my dad bought my mum and me a pair of adidas shoes each. haha. guess i will be wearing that next yr. and since my mum and i have ALMOST the same size of feet, i guess i can alt. the shoes as and when i like!! yippee...afterall, she hardly wears sports shoe.
tml will be going for OG outing. nopes. not the O2 OG but the O1 OG. dunno how many pple are actually turning up. afterall, its been quite a while since we guys bonded. so yea...will see tml.
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
the weather is cold outside. and so am i inside. this place is becoming more and more eccentric and of large degree unfamiliar to me. no. its not me that is changing. i feel it in myself that i havent. its you. this used to be the place where i seek shelter and warmth from a difficult world out there. yet when i try to seek help from you, you said i have wasted your time. do you noe how deeply that word slashed into me? i wonder if i am altogether a waste as well?
now, i can only meekly hide myself in one dark pocket of this place. a place where strangers sees it as lovely, cute and sweet. it has to try to be. coz little do they noe that this is the only place i have left. where i can call my own. where i can be myself. but somehow, i feel you all will sooner or later intrude upon this sacred privacy of mine and leave me with nowhere to call my own.
i try really hard to achieve what you want me to be. but i cannot. i hold too many roles in a simple life to be what you want me to be. there is only one of me. yet two or more chores are always waiting impatiently for me to fulfill them. if i choose to do everything i am told by you two, i would be left, being called irresponsible by partners, being sniggered useless by strangers and being despised upon by myself.
have you ever wondered, if i were to ask you two to sacrifice your jobs to listen to what i want you two to do, would you ever? does that mean you are not good enough to be called as my own? does that mean i have the right to be nasty, to give a black face, a dirty look, or even threaten to call upon your bosses to complain and interrogate what is going on at your workplaces that you have to do OT every night?
if the ans is no, then please treat me as a human being. dun do this to me. its stifling and its suffocating.
however, should the ans be otherwise, i can simply say that i am not fit to be called your own. perhaps a waste you would say. leave me in pretence that i have alr. returned my life back to nature, and if possible, find someone that you deem fit to call your own.
now, i can only meekly hide myself in one dark pocket of this place. a place where strangers sees it as lovely, cute and sweet. it has to try to be. coz little do they noe that this is the only place i have left. where i can call my own. where i can be myself. but somehow, i feel you all will sooner or later intrude upon this sacred privacy of mine and leave me with nowhere to call my own.
i try really hard to achieve what you want me to be. but i cannot. i hold too many roles in a simple life to be what you want me to be. there is only one of me. yet two or more chores are always waiting impatiently for me to fulfill them. if i choose to do everything i am told by you two, i would be left, being called irresponsible by partners, being sniggered useless by strangers and being despised upon by myself.
have you ever wondered, if i were to ask you two to sacrifice your jobs to listen to what i want you two to do, would you ever? does that mean you are not good enough to be called as my own? does that mean i have the right to be nasty, to give a black face, a dirty look, or even threaten to call upon your bosses to complain and interrogate what is going on at your workplaces that you have to do OT every night?
if the ans is no, then please treat me as a human being. dun do this to me. its stifling and its suffocating.
however, should the ans be otherwise, i can simply say that i am not fit to be called your own. perhaps a waste you would say. leave me in pretence that i have alr. returned my life back to nature, and if possible, find someone that you deem fit to call your own.
Sunday, December 24, 2006
Christmas is coming in a few hours time. Ho ho ho. The house is now bustling with slightly higher energy than usual in preparation for the annual Christmas party my family usually have with frenz and relative. Okays. Maybe only relatives. Really feeling kinda sad that my mom has decided to not go for the midnight mass this year and instead, go for the session earlier. Hmmm...was asking my mom last night if we cud juz stick to going for the midnight mass and she said that she purposely changed it to the earlier session so that I can come home in time to watch LOVE ACTUALLY. Haha. Hope she wasn't serious. Shows can always be taped down and watched some other time. But midnight masses cannot be taped.
Sigh. But even after I reasoned with her with the above, she still did not wanna go for the midnight mass. So I suppose she didn't change it for me after all. Haha. I reckon that she wants my grandma to attend the mass as well with the rest of the family but is afraid that if its too late, my grandma wud not be able to take it. Thus she decided to attend the earlier mass.
I think one of the things I look forward to on Christmas is actually the midnight mass. Cos when the mass ends, and the priest actually wishes u merry Christmas, its juz right at the stroke of twelve on Christmas day. I like it betta than being wished like 3 hrs earlier before Christmas. Oh wells. Oh! And the walk back home, is so peaceful cos its past midnight so the streets are rather silent. Its really fun and you'd prob wun really get it till u experience it.
Alrighty. I suppose I shall end off here. My mom has been screeching at me for the past 2 hrs to clean up my pig sty aka my room so that it was look hypocritically clean for my relative to mess up again tml. I really don't see her point. But then again, I never do. All I noe is that if I still dun turn off the comp, I prob get thrashed up and then tml Christmas party can jolly well change its venue from my house to the general hospital.
Ta-da!
Sigh. But even after I reasoned with her with the above, she still did not wanna go for the midnight mass. So I suppose she didn't change it for me after all. Haha. I reckon that she wants my grandma to attend the mass as well with the rest of the family but is afraid that if its too late, my grandma wud not be able to take it. Thus she decided to attend the earlier mass.
I think one of the things I look forward to on Christmas is actually the midnight mass. Cos when the mass ends, and the priest actually wishes u merry Christmas, its juz right at the stroke of twelve on Christmas day. I like it betta than being wished like 3 hrs earlier before Christmas. Oh wells. Oh! And the walk back home, is so peaceful cos its past midnight so the streets are rather silent. Its really fun and you'd prob wun really get it till u experience it.
Alrighty. I suppose I shall end off here. My mom has been screeching at me for the past 2 hrs to clean up my pig sty aka my room so that it was look hypocritically clean for my relative to mess up again tml. I really don't see her point. But then again, I never do. All I noe is that if I still dun turn off the comp, I prob get thrashed up and then tml Christmas party can jolly well change its venue from my house to the general hospital.
Ta-da!
A little bird juz flew by and told me my blog seriously needed to be updated 'cos it's a little just too waaaaayyyyyy behind all the things goin on arnd me.
Hmmm...actually tot of updating a few events that have happened to me like going for the job thingy at swiss hotel with chua, shopping with chua, east coast park with sec. Skool frenz, etc etc etc. but...i didn't noe how to put them in words on the blog I guess. So I didn't update my blog, with the excuse that I have nothing to write. Haha...oh yea...the other main reason is 'cos I was lazy. Haha. You knew that that excuse was gonna turn up sooner or later.
Anyways, I juz came back from my darling class 0626 chalet. We had quite a lot of fun together esp on the second night. Though, I wun exactly say that I feel revitalized from the fun we experienced there since I have been deprived of sleep. Haha. But then again, a chalet with ur class is always the coolest. Somehow, I feel that we had more fun in the night than in the day. Dun get me wrong. It was good clean fun. Lol.
Oh yea! And on the first night, we played a game whereby we use poker cards, and the person who gets the card KING, gets to decide wad kind of forfeit he or she wants for others. But of coz the KING wud be calling like "I want no. 2 and 4 to hold hands" and not literally the person's name but rather the no. on the card which they are holding.
Anw, these are a few of the photos of the forfeits we had.
Cally and Samuel were suppose to take a picture together. Apparently Samuel was too dark to be seen so I had to do some editing on the photo. Haha
apparently ren jie and yee jin met with the same fate. But nothing too unfortunate I think.
Haha..here was zuo sheng and Cynthia holding hands to take a photo.
How sweet that it was actually so coincidental to have them do forfeit together. Haha.
Oh wait, and there is this other photo of our class golden couple.
TADA! A picture that says it all.
Okays. I prob shudnt broadcast the rest on the blog. Yepz. Dun think its right. Haha. So if you guys (as in 0626) want the photos, let me noe online ya?
So we head on for our BBQ the next night.
girls getting busy with the preparation of BBQ food
Had some pretty good shots of everyone…
zuo sheng helping us set up the fire with the assistance of p.t.
mel and Gerald came in the midst of our BBQ.
we played,
had fun,
and laughed.
one happy family. With some others downstairs and other parts of the world.
Hmmm...actually tot of updating a few events that have happened to me like going for the job thingy at swiss hotel with chua, shopping with chua, east coast park with sec. Skool frenz, etc etc etc. but...i didn't noe how to put them in words on the blog I guess. So I didn't update my blog, with the excuse that I have nothing to write. Haha...oh yea...the other main reason is 'cos I was lazy. Haha. You knew that that excuse was gonna turn up sooner or later.
Anyways, I juz came back from my darling class 0626 chalet. We had quite a lot of fun together esp on the second night. Though, I wun exactly say that I feel revitalized from the fun we experienced there since I have been deprived of sleep. Haha. But then again, a chalet with ur class is always the coolest. Somehow, I feel that we had more fun in the night than in the day. Dun get me wrong. It was good clean fun. Lol.
Oh yea! And on the first night, we played a game whereby we use poker cards, and the person who gets the card KING, gets to decide wad kind of forfeit he or she wants for others. But of coz the KING wud be calling like "I want no. 2 and 4 to hold hands" and not literally the person's name but rather the no. on the card which they are holding.
Anw, these are a few of the photos of the forfeits we had.
Cally and Samuel were suppose to take a picture together. Apparently Samuel was too dark to be seen so I had to do some editing on the photo. Haha apparently ren jie and yee jin met with the same fate. But nothing too unfortunate I think.Haha..here was zuo sheng and Cynthia holding hands to take a photo.
How sweet that it was actually so coincidental to have them do forfeit together. Haha.Oh wait, and there is this other photo of our class golden couple.
TADA! A picture that says it all.Okays. I prob shudnt broadcast the rest on the blog. Yepz. Dun think its right. Haha. So if you guys (as in 0626) want the photos, let me noe online ya?
So we head on for our BBQ the next night.
girls getting busy with the preparation of BBQ foodHad some pretty good shots of everyone…
zuo sheng helping us set up the fire with the assistance of p.t.mel and Gerald came in the midst of our BBQ. we played, had fun,and laughed.one happy family. With some others downstairs and other parts of the world.
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
Before another event threatens to overwrite the unforgettable event - "Singapore Rock!", I shall blog about it now.
This event is specially organized for the old folks to reminisce their good ole days when they were still in their early 20s and 30s. yepz..the era which we refer to now as the A-GO-GO period. Come to think of it, I dun even noe when did that fashion started or cameabt. We had to dress up in retro outfits to sorta fit into the theme and seriously, it gave me a headache as to what to wear.
Hours before the event, grace popped over to my house to give each other fashion advice on which one looks more retro...actually to be honest, we were like "hmm..i think that one look more ah-ma-ish on you lei" or "ya ya...that one look more outdated". In the end, after much hassle, grace went with a super long black skirt and white top and me, basically reeking with pink. Okays. Perhaps only the top part. But definitely not my usual kind of self.
Apparently, the two pple who got pretty excited over my wear were my darling folks - daddy and mummy. They seem only too glad that I was wearing that outfit and even wanted me to take a photo before I go out. sigh. At least I know I am wearing retro enough. And the horrifying thing is that they wanted me to wear that for one of the days we go Chinese New Year visiting! (-_-") haha..Talk about being dramatic.
Well, looking on the bright side of things, I dun have to wear that for the first two days because it is a tradition (still available in my family customs) that you wear new outfits for the first two days. So I will probably wear that when my parents bring me go visiting some unknown place. Good idea.
Anyways, as usual, I brought my camera along despite my ghastly looking self. These are some of the pictures we took.
I actually had wanted to take a picture of the old folks, while they were dancing as well as during their make-up, but ALAS! I was too busy with applying the make-up for the old folks myself that I hadn't had the time to even whip out my camera to snap some shots till the whole event is over. BOO...Too bad.
But at least I manage to capture the moment with all my frenz in it. –smilez-
TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN
YVONNE - sorry darling...i think you must have talked to my dad instead coz i haven been on MSN for the past few days. haha...you are still so full of nonsense. lol. tc and i still love you loads okays? dun be angry *hugs*
LYNETTE - (-_-") you wud find that dish yummy if you werent the one getting splashed..haha..dun worry abt the barbaric moments yea? its only becoz fawwaz is more experienced tts why he handled the dish with less hassle...i guess. lol and if you really wanna noe how barbaric you looked, i suppose you can always get the footage from lewis since jin sheng took the honour of not only taking photos but also filmed down your whole eating process. cant be too bad ba...anw, love you!
CHUA - whoa...you actually read blogs de ar? you really are a "xi ke" manz. haha...i tot of putting tag board sia but guestbook allow others to read the past few msg left by my frenz lei. (or maybe only i am the only one reading those msgs again and again la) haha... okays...will put if i not lazy ya? the gaylovers blog does bring back some nostalgia hor...are you feeling angsty again? haha...sometime i will oso go and view the blog despite the fact that no-one has updated that blog eons ago. :( anw, cya tml ya? tc and hope you rmb how i taught you to cycle ya? hmm?
GRACE - oh manz! really?! haha...i didnt noe sia.. seldom see him hanging abt ur grp, or izit becoz i seldom see your grp? haha...or maybe its becoz he's arnd wei jun all the time. oOpS! haha...yea...the prata is nice but dun be deceived...its SUPER ex la! haha.
This event is specially organized for the old folks to reminisce their good ole days when they were still in their early 20s and 30s. yepz..the era which we refer to now as the A-GO-GO period. Come to think of it, I dun even noe when did that fashion started or cameabt. We had to dress up in retro outfits to sorta fit into the theme and seriously, it gave me a headache as to what to wear.
Hours before the event, grace popped over to my house to give each other fashion advice on which one looks more retro...actually to be honest, we were like "hmm..i think that one look more ah-ma-ish on you lei" or "ya ya...that one look more outdated". In the end, after much hassle, grace went with a super long black skirt and white top and me, basically reeking with pink. Okays. Perhaps only the top part. But definitely not my usual kind of self.
Apparently, the two pple who got pretty excited over my wear were my darling folks - daddy and mummy. They seem only too glad that I was wearing that outfit and even wanted me to take a photo before I go out. sigh. At least I know I am wearing retro enough. And the horrifying thing is that they wanted me to wear that for one of the days we go Chinese New Year visiting! (-_-") haha..Talk about being dramatic.
Well, looking on the bright side of things, I dun have to wear that for the first two days because it is a tradition (still available in my family customs) that you wear new outfits for the first two days. So I will probably wear that when my parents bring me go visiting some unknown place. Good idea.
Anyways, as usual, I brought my camera along despite my ghastly looking self. These are some of the pictures we took.
I actually had wanted to take a picture of the old folks, while they were dancing as well as during their make-up, but ALAS! I was too busy with applying the make-up for the old folks myself that I hadn't had the time to even whip out my camera to snap some shots till the whole event is over. BOO...Too bad.
But at least I manage to capture the moment with all my frenz in it. –smilez-
TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN
YVONNE - sorry darling...i think you must have talked to my dad instead coz i haven been on MSN for the past few days. haha...you are still so full of nonsense. lol. tc and i still love you loads okays? dun be angry *hugs*
LYNETTE - (-_-") you wud find that dish yummy if you werent the one getting splashed..haha..dun worry abt the barbaric moments yea? its only becoz fawwaz is more experienced tts why he handled the dish with less hassle...i guess. lol and if you really wanna noe how barbaric you looked, i suppose you can always get the footage from lewis since jin sheng took the honour of not only taking photos but also filmed down your whole eating process. cant be too bad ba...anw, love you!
CHUA - whoa...you actually read blogs de ar? you really are a "xi ke" manz. haha...i tot of putting tag board sia but guestbook allow others to read the past few msg left by my frenz lei. (or maybe only i am the only one reading those msgs again and again la) haha... okays...will put if i not lazy ya? the gaylovers blog does bring back some nostalgia hor...are you feeling angsty again? haha...sometime i will oso go and view the blog despite the fact that no-one has updated that blog eons ago. :( anw, cya tml ya? tc and hope you rmb how i taught you to cycle ya? hmm?
GRACE - oh manz! really?! haha...i didnt noe sia.. seldom see him hanging abt ur grp, or izit becoz i seldom see your grp? haha...or maybe its becoz he's arnd wei jun all the time. oOpS! haha...yea...the prata is nice but dun be deceived...its SUPER ex la! haha.
Before another event threatens to overwrite the unforgettable event - "Singapore Rock!", I shall blog about it now.
This event is specially organized for the old folks to reminisce their good ole days when they were still in their early 20s and 30s. yepz..the era which we refer to now as the A-GO-GO period. Come to think of it, I dun even noe when did that fashion started or cameabt. We had to dress up in retro outfits to sorta fit into the theme and seriously, it gave me a headache as to what to wear.
Hours before the event, grace popped over to my house to give each other fashion advice on which one looks more retro...actually to be honest, we were like "hmm..i think that one look more ah-ma-ish on you lei" or "ya ya...that one look more outdated". In the end, after much hassle, grace went with a super long black skirt and white top and me, basically reeking with pink. Okays. Perhaps only the top part. But definitely not my usual kind of self.
Apparently, the two pple who got pretty excited over my wear were my darling folks - daddy and mummy. They seem only too glad that I was wearing that outfit and even wanted me to take a photo before I go out. sigh. At least I know I am wearing retro enough. And the horrifying thing is that they wanted me to wear that for one of the days we go Chinese New Year visiting! (-_-") haha..Talk about being dramatic.
Well, looking on the bright side of things, I dun have to wear that for the first two days because it is a tradition (still available in my family customs) that you wear new outfits for the first two days. So I will probably wear that when my parents bring me go visiting some unknown place. Good idea.
Anyways, as usual, I brought my camera along despite my ghastly looking self. These are some of the pictures we took.
I actually had wanted to take a picture of the old folks, while they were dancing as well as during their make-up, but ALAS! I was too busy with applying the make-up for the old folks myself that I hadn't had the time to even whip out my camera to snap some shots till the whole event is over. BOO...Too bad.
But at least I manage to capture the moment with all my frenz in it. –smilez-
TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN
YVONNE - sorry darling...i think you must have talked to my dad instead coz i haven been on MSN for the past few days. haha...you are still so full of nonsense. lol. tc and i still love you loads okays? dun be angry *hugs*
LYNETTE - (-_-") you wud find that dish yummy if you werent the one getting splashed..haha..dun worry abt the barbaric moments yea? its only becoz fawwaz is more experienced tts why he handled the dish with less hassle...i guess. lol and if you really wanna noe how barbaric you looked, i suppose you can always get the footage from lewis since jin sheng took the honour of not only taking photos but also filmed down your whole eating process. cant be too bad ba...anw, love you!
CHUA - whoa...you actually read blogs de ar? you really are a "xi ke" manz. haha...i tot of putting tag board sia but guestbook allow others to read the past few msg left by my frenz lei. (or maybe only i am the only one reading those msgs again and again la) haha... okays...will put if i not lazy ya? the gaylovers blog does bring back some nostalgia hor...are you feeling angsty again? haha...sometime i will oso go and view the blog despite the fact that no-one has updated that blog eons ago. :( anw, cya tml ya? tc and hope you rmb how i taught you to cycle ya? hmm?
This event is specially organized for the old folks to reminisce their good ole days when they were still in their early 20s and 30s. yepz..the era which we refer to now as the A-GO-GO period. Come to think of it, I dun even noe when did that fashion started or cameabt. We had to dress up in retro outfits to sorta fit into the theme and seriously, it gave me a headache as to what to wear.
Hours before the event, grace popped over to my house to give each other fashion advice on which one looks more retro...actually to be honest, we were like "hmm..i think that one look more ah-ma-ish on you lei" or "ya ya...that one look more outdated". In the end, after much hassle, grace went with a super long black skirt and white top and me, basically reeking with pink. Okays. Perhaps only the top part. But definitely not my usual kind of self.
Apparently, the two pple who got pretty excited over my wear were my darling folks - daddy and mummy. They seem only too glad that I was wearing that outfit and even wanted me to take a photo before I go out. sigh. At least I know I am wearing retro enough. And the horrifying thing is that they wanted me to wear that for one of the days we go Chinese New Year visiting! (-_-") haha..Talk about being dramatic.
Well, looking on the bright side of things, I dun have to wear that for the first two days because it is a tradition (still available in my family customs) that you wear new outfits for the first two days. So I will probably wear that when my parents bring me go visiting some unknown place. Good idea.
Anyways, as usual, I brought my camera along despite my ghastly looking self. These are some of the pictures we took.
I actually had wanted to take a picture of the old folks, while they were dancing as well as during their make-up, but ALAS! I was too busy with applying the make-up for the old folks myself that I hadn't had the time to even whip out my camera to snap some shots till the whole event is over. BOO...Too bad.
But at least I manage to capture the moment with all my frenz in it. –smilez-
TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN
YVONNE - sorry darling...i think you must have talked to my dad instead coz i haven been on MSN for the past few days. haha...you are still so full of nonsense. lol. tc and i still love you loads okays? dun be angry *hugs*
LYNETTE - (-_-") you wud find that dish yummy if you werent the one getting splashed..haha..dun worry abt the barbaric moments yea? its only becoz fawwaz is more experienced tts why he handled the dish with less hassle...i guess. lol and if you really wanna noe how barbaric you looked, i suppose you can always get the footage from lewis since jin sheng took the honour of not only taking photos but also filmed down your whole eating process. cant be too bad ba...anw, love you!
CHUA - whoa...you actually read blogs de ar? you really are a "xi ke" manz. haha...i tot of putting tag board sia but guestbook allow others to read the past few msg left by my frenz lei. (or maybe only i am the only one reading those msgs again and again la) haha... okays...will put if i not lazy ya? the gaylovers blog does bring back some nostalgia hor...are you feeling angsty again? haha...sometime i will oso go and view the blog despite the fact that no-one has updated that blog eons ago. :( anw, cya tml ya? tc and hope you rmb how i taught you to cycle ya? hmm?
Saturday, December 02, 2006
hey everyone...was too tired after coming home from the supper outing with Sir Lionell ytd so i didnt exactly blog as much as i wanted to in my previous entry. anw, shall give it justice and tok abt it in this entry. after all, its one of my proudest grp i ever take pride to be in *beams* 
we went to have prata at Jalan Kayu (is that how you spell it??) man, that is like the furthest i have been to juz to eat supper la and the prate, is by far the most expensive prata i have ever eaten. however, somehow, when all ur frenz seem to be complaining over the same issue, the pinch of forking out the extra cash somehow seems to be less painful...still painful, but less painful. anyways, the girls decided to share our pratas and this was wad each of us ate. 
the slice on the top left hand corner is the bom prata ordered by eunice the slice on the top right hand corner is the banana prata ordered by chin ping the slice on the bottom left hand corner is the chocolate prata ordered by ME! the slice on the bottom right hand corner is the honey prata ordered by lynette it was yummy. too bad valerie hadnt come earlier to join us, if not, there wud have been an extra slice taken in this photo. haha...forgot to mention that the food is sinful too...ooo...de honey prata dat lynette ordered was super sweet la...like the honey taste is really thick. thank goodness we shared our food if not, my chocolate prata wud have been too sweet for me to handle as well.
the boys were super horrid la...said that my prata was like mouldy bread. ugh. haha...but we enjoyed ourselves nonetheless.
oh, we were introduced by lynette to some intriguing food as well called the TULANG, if i got the spelling correct.
she had a barbaric moment trying to knock some stuff out of the bone. and in the midst splashing curry sauce everywhere within 1m range from her. guess wad, i was splashed with curry sauce too...coz she accidentally dropped one whole chunk of the meat into the sauce and i happened to be sitting directly across her. sigh. guess i wudnt be forgetting this ominious dish anytime soon. bleaugh.
oh den we took a few more photos in the midst of eating. the one below with me is eunice, and the other is of lynette and chin ping.
wei jun brought her darling along as well, so i cudnt pass the chance to get the two sweeties to take a photo together.
THERE!
Before we left, we took one more shot.
Man, the prata man must be thinking we love his shop loads. Haha.
Had loadsa fun and a crazy time. Chin ping, lynette, Valerie, Eunice and me shared a single cab home and ended up traveling across the island coz Eunice stayed at bedok, Valerie in upper paya lebar, I in toa payoh and chin ping and lynette stayed in bishan. But we had fun gossiping on the way home as well. So had a fab night overall.
Yays!
we went to have prata at Jalan Kayu (is that how you spell it??) man, that is like the furthest i have been to juz to eat supper la and the prate, is by far the most expensive prata i have ever eaten. however, somehow, when all ur frenz seem to be complaining over the same issue, the pinch of forking out the extra cash somehow seems to be less painful...still painful, but less painful. anyways, the girls decided to share our pratas and this was wad each of us ate. the slice on the top left hand corner is the bom prata ordered by eunice the slice on the top right hand corner is the banana prata ordered by chin ping the slice on the bottom left hand corner is the chocolate prata ordered by ME! the slice on the bottom right hand corner is the honey prata ordered by lynette it was yummy. too bad valerie hadnt come earlier to join us, if not, there wud have been an extra slice taken in this photo. haha...forgot to mention that the food is sinful too...ooo...de honey prata dat lynette ordered was super sweet la...like the honey taste is really thick. thank goodness we shared our food if not, my chocolate prata wud have been too sweet for me to handle as well.the boys were super horrid la...said that my prata was like mouldy bread. ugh. haha...but we enjoyed ourselves nonetheless.
oh, we were introduced by lynette to some intriguing food as well called the TULANG, if i got the spelling correct.
she had a barbaric moment trying to knock some stuff out of the bone. and in the midst splashing curry sauce everywhere within 1m range from her. guess wad, i was splashed with curry sauce too...coz she accidentally dropped one whole chunk of the meat into the sauce and i happened to be sitting directly across her. sigh. guess i wudnt be forgetting this ominious dish anytime soon. bleaugh.
oh den we took a few more photos in the midst of eating. the one below with me is eunice, and the other is of lynette and chin ping.
wei jun brought her darling along as well, so i cudnt pass the chance to get the two sweeties to take a photo together.
THERE!Before we left, we took one more shot.
Man, the prata man must be thinking we love his shop loads. Haha.
Had loadsa fun and a crazy time. Chin ping, lynette, Valerie, Eunice and me shared a single cab home and ended up traveling across the island coz Eunice stayed at bedok, Valerie in upper paya lebar, I in toa payoh and chin ping and lynette stayed in bishan. But we had fun gossiping on the way home as well. So had a fab night overall.
Yays!
Today I missed my job attachment coz of my fever. Felt quite bad coz I didn't inform the teacher IC before hand. Little Bao was very nice to take the trouble to inform me of what happened at the center today and telling me what to expect next meeting. Thought it was very sweet of her.
Anyways, at around 11am, the fever sorta subsided so I tot I go down to skool and collect the make-up and stuff I promised chin ping. Feeling super sian...like the fever bug is starting to attack me again..but alr. agree to meet henry to go collect the stuff together so argh..drag myself there. Actually I ran there...trying to feel hyper I guess.
Was on my way for lunch when I saw Cynthia, Xiu Xuan, Carine and Adeline. Apparently they were going to study in skool or have alr. studied in skool. Apparently I didn't know anything abt it. its okie, I guess. I hardly know anything that goes on anyway.
Saw Grace later at the bus stop. Apparently she knew abt the study meeting too.
~*~
anw, i juz came back from my supper with Sir Lionell. -woots- had loadsa loadsa fun. its one of those outings that y'know u juz dun wanna go back home and u juz wanna sit and tok and tok and tok till the prata man comes and chases us off with a broomstick. yea? u know? those kinda outings? haha...its cool. i love my grp. cos i feel that i belong.
Anyways, at around 11am, the fever sorta subsided so I tot I go down to skool and collect the make-up and stuff I promised chin ping. Feeling super sian...like the fever bug is starting to attack me again..but alr. agree to meet henry to go collect the stuff together so argh..drag myself there. Actually I ran there...trying to feel hyper I guess.
Was on my way for lunch when I saw Cynthia, Xiu Xuan, Carine and Adeline. Apparently they were going to study in skool or have alr. studied in skool. Apparently I didn't know anything abt it. its okie, I guess. I hardly know anything that goes on anyway.
Saw Grace later at the bus stop. Apparently she knew abt the study meeting too.
~*~
anw, i juz came back from my supper with Sir Lionell. -woots- had loadsa loadsa fun. its one of those outings that y'know u juz dun wanna go back home and u juz wanna sit and tok and tok and tok till the prata man comes and chases us off with a broomstick. yea? u know? those kinda outings? haha...its cool. i love my grp. cos i feel that i belong.
Thursday, November 23, 2006
hey everyone...will be leaving for LTC tml le. haha. hardly started packing anything yet. wasnt too keen on going for it at first, esp with the tot that i have to miss my god bro's wedding. but have decided to keep the spirits on the high end and will still participate in anything that is within my limit, except for anythin too high. i have a fear for high element stunts...well at least for some. haha...besides, with chin ping arnd, there will be havoc and loads of bickering left for me to do...can oredy imagine her criticising on the amt of calories the camp is giving us for every meal. haha.
think it is so cool to have her in the same grp as me. she is gonna bring toilet roll and clothes peg for me and i will be bringing medication and writing materials for her. that way, we can save on the bulk of our luggage.
juz broke the news to my deary god bro regarding my absence for his wedding. can tell he is seriously upset but i dun think it is fair that i absent myself for that period of time when the grp is practising for the play, which will be helf the very next day... however, neither is it fair that i absent myself for something that is once in a lifetime for my god bro.
commitment vs kinship? which one am i to choose?
if i hadnt been in the shoes i am in now, i wud seriously have told whoever that is asking this qn to go with kinship, coz work and stuff wun be there when u are in deep trouble - kinship will. but right now, it seems hard to choose either coz this time, with commitment comes friendship. my frenz will be practising for the play and i wun be there with them.
yet, my bro is getting married and i wun be with him.
life is disgusting.
but it seems that i have alr made the decision.
LTC, here i come.
think it is so cool to have her in the same grp as me. she is gonna bring toilet roll and clothes peg for me and i will be bringing medication and writing materials for her. that way, we can save on the bulk of our luggage.
juz broke the news to my deary god bro regarding my absence for his wedding. can tell he is seriously upset but i dun think it is fair that i absent myself for that period of time when the grp is practising for the play, which will be helf the very next day... however, neither is it fair that i absent myself for something that is once in a lifetime for my god bro.
commitment vs kinship? which one am i to choose?
if i hadnt been in the shoes i am in now, i wud seriously have told whoever that is asking this qn to go with kinship, coz work and stuff wun be there when u are in deep trouble - kinship will. but right now, it seems hard to choose either coz this time, with commitment comes friendship. my frenz will be practising for the play and i wun be there with them.
yet, my bro is getting married and i wun be with him.
life is disgusting.
but it seems that i have alr made the decision.
LTC, here i come.
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
this entry was suppose to be written on the 15th Nov. 2006. however, because the gruesome nature of the evidence left at 'crime' scene i have unfortunately chanced upon outside the school, i haven been able to give my two cents worth regarding the incident i am about to narrate to you because the thought of that dead carcass juz irks me so much. it all happened like this... that day, adeline, carine, cynthia, grace, xiu xuan and me were about to leave the school after our run through the back gate. as we were about to cross the zebra-crossing, we gasped at the sight of a lifeless black body, lying in the middle of the driving lane. a thick pool of blood had been collected on the road, near victim's mouth, which has apparently been the source of the blood. it is an obvious hit-and-run accident and that reckless driver had apparently driven off without the least bit of remorse. shame on that being. approx. 5 mins later, 2 sweepers came over and cruelly sweep that poor corpse into the bin. i felt so helpless there and then. judging from the size of the body, i doubt it was even a cat yet...only a kitten. and its life ended in such a trauma. cruelty is thy word.
~*~
if you have juz breath a sigh of relief when you realise that the victim had been a kitten instead of a human being, i sincerely implore you to stop that thinking immediately. why is it that human being lives must be taken so seriously when an animal's life, no doubt still a life, can be so slighted by us, the selfish ones?
if the victim in the above scenario had not been an animal, will the driver ever stop to see if he had accidentally killed someone? perhaps not. but the probability is definitely higher than him killing a cat. however, would it have taken so long for someone to come and remove the victim from the road, if the victim had been a human? i believe not. in fact, i even believe that the main reason why it had been removed, is to prevent blockage, for us, the ever almighty humans to walk without anything in our path. and it is to the extent, abhorring for me to entertain the thought that perhaps that lonely carcass had been run over not once, but over and over again, repeatedly by various cars of shapes and sizes and brands. i noe that nothing can be done to help these poor animals because the focus we place ourselves in is too strong for anyone else to intervene and share with us. thats the sad thing abt human beings. sad but true.
~*~
if you have juz breath a sigh of relief when you realise that the victim had been a kitten instead of a human being, i sincerely implore you to stop that thinking immediately. why is it that human being lives must be taken so seriously when an animal's life, no doubt still a life, can be so slighted by us, the selfish ones?
if the victim in the above scenario had not been an animal, will the driver ever stop to see if he had accidentally killed someone? perhaps not. but the probability is definitely higher than him killing a cat. however, would it have taken so long for someone to come and remove the victim from the road, if the victim had been a human? i believe not. in fact, i even believe that the main reason why it had been removed, is to prevent blockage, for us, the ever almighty humans to walk without anything in our path. and it is to the extent, abhorring for me to entertain the thought that perhaps that lonely carcass had been run over not once, but over and over again, repeatedly by various cars of shapes and sizes and brands. i noe that nothing can be done to help these poor animals because the focus we place ourselves in is too strong for anyone else to intervene and share with us. thats the sad thing abt human beings. sad but true.
Monday, November 13, 2006
Responsibility Before ________ (think of a word that means fun, but rhymes with reponsibility...lol. cant think of any)
"sometimes in life, some things you have juz gotta give." heard of that phrase before? yea and in this case, its about giving up some thing, not because you want to, but rather, because you have to.
who would rather choose to be caught in some mammoth task when they can hang out with their frenz ? who would rather be stuck doing tiresome activities instead of having fun? who? i am certainly not one of them. but in life, some things you juz gotta give and today is one of the few times i am giving.
the feeling certainly aint great. but at least i noe i am doing the right thing. and i dun think i wud regret as much for going for responsibility rather than fun.
maybe next time, fun will come knocking on my door again.
perhaps.
perhaps.
"sometimes in life, some things you have juz gotta give." heard of that phrase before? yea and in this case, its about giving up some thing, not because you want to, but rather, because you have to.
who would rather choose to be caught in some mammoth task when they can hang out with their frenz ? who would rather be stuck doing tiresome activities instead of having fun? who? i am certainly not one of them. but in life, some things you juz gotta give and today is one of the few times i am giving.
the feeling certainly aint great. but at least i noe i am doing the right thing. and i dun think i wud regret as much for going for responsibility rather than fun.
maybe next time, fun will come knocking on my door again.
perhaps.
perhaps.
Sunday, November 12, 2006
Although it has only been 5 days since I last updated an entry on my blog, as I type in this entry, it feels as if I have been away from my computer way too long - so much so that the pace of typing has decreased rather dramatically and the sight of the blog layout, where you post your entry, seems all too unfamiliar.
But now, OP has finally ended. So has our immense torture of waking up early in the morning, only to drag ourselves to school and rehearse for OP. and FREEDOM is within our range of grasp once again!! CHEERS! Haha
Surprisingly, contrary to what I have written before the OP ended, when I reached home the very day after the OP, I didn't burn the PW file and throw it down the window like I said I would (I was really serious then.) Rather, I had taken great pains to file the rest of the PW documents I had left out, back into the file and found a neat spot in my room to place it. call me crazy if you want to but that was really what I did. I guess, I sorta missed PW after all.
Ugh. I cant believe I am actually sayin this. Someone pls shoot me.
But looking on the bright side of everything, without this PW crap, perhaps the bonds between friendships wouldn’t have strengthened as much as it did under normal circumstances and stress would probably never felt better when you know for a fact that there is 3 or 4 other people out there who is probably just as anxious as you are.
I know carine is waiting for me to send out "Thank you" msgs to my PW grp, or more specifically her I presume. But I have decided to let my "Thank you" msgs take in the form of a blog entry rather than sms I guess, because there would be too much to say, and too little space to type it all in…and too little money to spend.
TO MY FUDGE DEARIES:
Thank you so much for all the encouragement and support you all have given me. Even to the final hour before the OP, I rmb I was still clutching onto carine's hand for support! Haha. I know I have been overly-stressed up at times and gotten on everyone's nerves with my over-picky attitude on non-perfect things, but thanks for bearing with me. haha. Will never forget the hours of girl-talk with wing yan. It was really awesome. Will remember all the advise you have given me =)
And carine, thanks for standing up for me, and being my pillar of strength esp. THOSE TIMES. Get it? *winks* or had there been too many times you stood up for me until you do not know which time I am referring too le? LOL. Btw, my parents will miss you. Thought your ego may be pleased to hear that.
And must applaud our jie-mei, P.T. for taking all our nonsense, like Carine and my never-ending bickering and yelling and rebutting and ...basically, noise. And Wing yan's *ahem* sitting posture. Haha. just recalling back all those times makes me feel so tickled. Haha.
Though our PW meetings are always longer and ending later then others, I never failed to have fun. So thanks a lot! Love you guys loads and buckets with cookies and cream.
TO MY CLASSMATES:
Oh manz...you guys were simply fabu-babu-lous! Haha. thank you so so so so much for all your support. and thank you all for the sms and well-wishes on the day before my OP. one of you even called to ask if I needed help in my OP. I though that was super sweet. So thank you to you too!
Thanks to xiu xiu, grace, cynthia, adel and cheng and mel for being there while my grp presented as well. And I seem to be always asking you guys, esp. xiu xiu, to grade my OP over and over again when ever I presented. Hope I didn’t irritate you all or anything. Haha.
And Gerald, I know I thank you le. But still wanna say thank you to you again for enlightening me on which part I am to focus on when I present. Eternally grateful!
Special shout out (1) - to Henry, Samuel, Ren Jie, Zuo Sheng: Although your OP ended, you guys stayed back to watch us present our mundane OP over and over again. I know you were all v. tired den but still, awfully grateful to you all for making the effort to stay back. THANK YOU!
Special shout out (2) - Audrey a.k.a. Small Bao-zy: yay! Sorry to make you wait for me to go to the gym. And although my muscles are still screaming out in pain, but I had fun...especially when we rowed the sampan! Haha...oOpS! And thanks for listening to all my problems too. *Many Hugs and Loves*
TO MY FRENZ:
Yepz...this is to chua for her notes from SA. You are such a sweetie to share that with me.
and ah huay and ah wong for the WR. Maybe you guys cannot even rmb when did I call to ask for you help le since that was SO long ago. But nvm. What matters is that I remembered.
TO MY SENIORS:
Hey hey! Doubt you guys will read this anw. But still wanna thank you all for giving ur suggestions when I consulted you guys for my PW. Thanks for not leaving me in the lurch . and thank you my dear OGL, Julian, for helping me with my PI at the beginning of the year. I would have prob. died quite badly in that if it weren’t for your help. Haha. thanks!
TO THE TEACHERS:
Once again, dun think y'all will get to read this…and somehow, I feel thankful for it. haha. but not only Mrs. Lee but all the teachers I sought for help in my desperation for the GPP and OP, thanks for your help help help and more help. My group is thankful towards you all too though I think they dunno who are you. But they will still be thankful.
My gawd, I feel like I just won OSCAR award or something. But I know that if my grp and I get a 'A' for PW, it would be better than winning an OSCAR. Manz…it would be betta than winning a Nobel Peace Prize!
But now, OP has finally ended. So has our immense torture of waking up early in the morning, only to drag ourselves to school and rehearse for OP. and FREEDOM is within our range of grasp once again!! CHEERS! Haha
Surprisingly, contrary to what I have written before the OP ended, when I reached home the very day after the OP, I didn't burn the PW file and throw it down the window like I said I would (I was really serious then.) Rather, I had taken great pains to file the rest of the PW documents I had left out, back into the file and found a neat spot in my room to place it. call me crazy if you want to but that was really what I did. I guess, I sorta missed PW after all.
Ugh. I cant believe I am actually sayin this. Someone pls shoot me.
But looking on the bright side of everything, without this PW crap, perhaps the bonds between friendships wouldn’t have strengthened as much as it did under normal circumstances and stress would probably never felt better when you know for a fact that there is 3 or 4 other people out there who is probably just as anxious as you are.
I know carine is waiting for me to send out "Thank you" msgs to my PW grp, or more specifically her I presume. But I have decided to let my "Thank you" msgs take in the form of a blog entry rather than sms I guess, because there would be too much to say, and too little space to type it all in…and too little money to spend.
TO MY FUDGE DEARIES:
Thank you so much for all the encouragement and support you all have given me. Even to the final hour before the OP, I rmb I was still clutching onto carine's hand for support! Haha. I know I have been overly-stressed up at times and gotten on everyone's nerves with my over-picky attitude on non-perfect things, but thanks for bearing with me. haha. Will never forget the hours of girl-talk with wing yan. It was really awesome. Will remember all the advise you have given me =)
And carine, thanks for standing up for me, and being my pillar of strength esp. THOSE TIMES. Get it? *winks* or had there been too many times you stood up for me until you do not know which time I am referring too le? LOL. Btw, my parents will miss you. Thought your ego may be pleased to hear that.
And must applaud our jie-mei, P.T. for taking all our nonsense, like Carine and my never-ending bickering and yelling and rebutting and ...basically, noise. And Wing yan's *ahem* sitting posture. Haha. just recalling back all those times makes me feel so tickled. Haha.
Though our PW meetings are always longer and ending later then others, I never failed to have fun. So thanks a lot! Love you guys loads and buckets with cookies and cream.
TO MY CLASSMATES:
Oh manz...you guys were simply fabu-babu-lous! Haha. thank you so so so so much for all your support. and thank you all for the sms and well-wishes on the day before my OP. one of you even called to ask if I needed help in my OP. I though that was super sweet. So thank you to you too!
Thanks to xiu xiu, grace, cynthia, adel and cheng and mel for being there while my grp presented as well. And I seem to be always asking you guys, esp. xiu xiu, to grade my OP over and over again when ever I presented. Hope I didn’t irritate you all or anything. Haha.
And Gerald, I know I thank you le. But still wanna say thank you to you again for enlightening me on which part I am to focus on when I present. Eternally grateful!
Special shout out (1) - to Henry, Samuel, Ren Jie, Zuo Sheng: Although your OP ended, you guys stayed back to watch us present our mundane OP over and over again. I know you were all v. tired den but still, awfully grateful to you all for making the effort to stay back. THANK YOU!
Special shout out (2) - Audrey a.k.a. Small Bao-zy: yay! Sorry to make you wait for me to go to the gym. And although my muscles are still screaming out in pain, but I had fun...especially when we rowed the sampan! Haha...oOpS! And thanks for listening to all my problems too. *Many Hugs and Loves*
TO MY FRENZ:
Yepz...this is to chua for her notes from SA. You are such a sweetie to share that with me.
and ah huay and ah wong for the WR. Maybe you guys cannot even rmb when did I call to ask for you help le since that was SO long ago. But nvm. What matters is that I remembered.
TO MY SENIORS:
Hey hey! Doubt you guys will read this anw. But still wanna thank you all for giving ur suggestions when I consulted you guys for my PW. Thanks for not leaving me in the lurch . and thank you my dear OGL, Julian, for helping me with my PI at the beginning of the year. I would have prob. died quite badly in that if it weren’t for your help. Haha. thanks!
TO THE TEACHERS:
Once again, dun think y'all will get to read this…and somehow, I feel thankful for it. haha. but not only Mrs. Lee but all the teachers I sought for help in my desperation for the GPP and OP, thanks for your help help help and more help. My group is thankful towards you all too though I think they dunno who are you. But they will still be thankful.
My gawd, I feel like I just won OSCAR award or something. But I know that if my grp and I get a 'A' for PW, it would be better than winning an OSCAR. Manz…it would be betta than winning a Nobel Peace Prize!
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
went shopping with my mom today and splurged on many sinful food at plaza singapore. we ate at fiesta and later went to have chocolate waffles with cookies n cream ice cream. haha. found a black top that looked very glam at John Little. wanted to buy it and plus my mom was very supportive of me wearing that too. but i tot i wud hardly wear it and even if i want to, the clothing has to go with a skirt to look nice, and i wud prob wear a black skirt. sigh. black top plus black skirt. kinda dull and i dun think a combi the older generation will particularly be pleased to see on CNY. so i gave that a miss.
but the great thing abt this day is my mom bought me the ZEN V PLUS mp3 player from Creative. whoo hoo. i chose the black model with 2GB. cant wait to use it. heh heh.
oh yea. and my dad collected my camera from vivo city today le. i hope i will have no more problems with the camera. :)
going back to skool tml for PW
but the great thing abt this day is my mom bought me the ZEN V PLUS mp3 player from Creative. whoo hoo. i chose the black model with 2GB. cant wait to use it. heh heh.
oh yea. and my dad collected my camera from vivo city today le. i hope i will have no more problems with the camera. :)
going back to skool tml for PW
Sunday, November 05, 2006
*smiles* juz came home from the singapore indoor stadium after 2hrs of enchantment. NOTRE DAME DE PARIS is absolutely fantastic! no wonder it entered the Guinness World Record. although the entire play was based in french, becoz their acting were so fabulous, you cud actually feel and understand emotionally what the actors and actresses are singing. haha. of coz, at the sides of the stage, there are always the aid of wad we wud call Subtitles.
but the whole play is truly amazing and ooo, the singing was whoa! haha...their singing was something unheard of in singapore. there was a certain unique quality in their voice and now i understand why critics told the cast of "The Forbidden City" that if they intend to bring their play to England, they have A LOT of work to improve on. sigh.
do u know tt at the end of the whole play, there was a call for encore and this very cute guy, one of the main characters who starred as a corrupted officer, actually came up and sang, WITHOUT the accompany of the music, the opening song of that play...ALONE! and his voice hit all the correct keys and his tune was flawless. haha.
in the opening act, my mom and i were alr. blown away by the voices and acrobatic stunts and all the dramatic action. haha and i might as well mentioned that we both cried when esmeralda died in the arms of Quasimodo. whee! i am so glad i went for the play. whooohooo! woots!
but the whole play is truly amazing and ooo, the singing was whoa! haha...their singing was something unheard of in singapore. there was a certain unique quality in their voice and now i understand why critics told the cast of "The Forbidden City" that if they intend to bring their play to England, they have A LOT of work to improve on. sigh.
do u know tt at the end of the whole play, there was a call for encore and this very cute guy, one of the main characters who starred as a corrupted officer, actually came up and sang, WITHOUT the accompany of the music, the opening song of that play...ALONE! and his voice hit all the correct keys and his tune was flawless. haha.
in the opening act, my mom and i were alr. blown away by the voices and acrobatic stunts and all the dramatic action. haha and i might as well mentioned that we both cried when esmeralda died in the arms of Quasimodo. whee! i am so glad i went for the play. whooohooo! woots!
Saturday, November 04, 2006
hey everyone! in a few hours time, i will be in the singapore indoor stadium to watch the 'notre dame' play. heard it is rockin fabulous. yea! recent news even has it tt the play entered into the Guinness World Record. how cool is that! haha. now my hope is that i getta take pics when i enter into the stadium.
another good news is that i realised that the leadership training camp tt i am scheduled to go from 24 - 27 Nov doesnt clash with my job attachment which starts on the 27 Nov. okays. maybe it will clash a lil. dun exactly noe how i will work that out. sighz. i can alr. imagine myself entering the place with all my big and small bag packs on the 1st day of my job attachment looking super unglam and badly burnt. and plus Ms. Lim highly disapproving face. ugh.
another plus point is that angie lim, the vp of the Student Council is in the same grp as me. yea! haha. its gd to have frenz in ur grp. and i got angie, who came from the same sec skool, and even betta still, the same class as me for the 4 yrs of my sec skool life. haha. hope she will be happy to be in the same grp as me. *prays*
sigh. however, lets put it in this way "there is a black lining in every silver cloud". no. i didnt get the colours wrong.
26 NOVEMBER IS MY BELOVED GOD - BROTHER'S WEDDING!
i wudnt miss ANYTHING for it and now u are telling me i am suppose to forgo this major event in his life and well, also my life, juz to attend the leadership training camp and bake under the sun for hours?? is it even fair? does it even sound right to you? i dun even noe how am i to break the news to him! am i allowed to leave in the midst of everything and attend the wedding for a few hours and come back? are they sane enuff to let me to that?
yea sure..if i was the President's daughter.
another good news is that i realised that the leadership training camp tt i am scheduled to go from 24 - 27 Nov doesnt clash with my job attachment which starts on the 27 Nov. okays. maybe it will clash a lil. dun exactly noe how i will work that out. sighz. i can alr. imagine myself entering the place with all my big and small bag packs on the 1st day of my job attachment looking super unglam and badly burnt. and plus Ms. Lim highly disapproving face. ugh.
another plus point is that angie lim, the vp of the Student Council is in the same grp as me. yea! haha. its gd to have frenz in ur grp. and i got angie, who came from the same sec skool, and even betta still, the same class as me for the 4 yrs of my sec skool life. haha. hope she will be happy to be in the same grp as me. *prays*
sigh. however, lets put it in this way "there is a black lining in every silver cloud". no. i didnt get the colours wrong.
26 NOVEMBER IS MY BELOVED GOD - BROTHER'S WEDDING!
i wudnt miss ANYTHING for it and now u are telling me i am suppose to forgo this major event in his life and well, also my life, juz to attend the leadership training camp and bake under the sun for hours?? is it even fair? does it even sound right to you? i dun even noe how am i to break the news to him! am i allowed to leave in the midst of everything and attend the wedding for a few hours and come back? are they sane enuff to let me to that?
yea sure..if i was the President's daughter.
Friday, November 03, 2006
went to skool today for PW as stated in my previous entry. but since PW is nothin to tok abt, lets tok more abt stuff that shows JC students do have a life.
erm...
eh...
actually, i oso cant find any stuff to tok abt now. sigh...does that mean i have no life? boos.
anw, been having a splitting headache all day. dun even noe wads the prob with me anymore. its like i sleep at 11pm, which is early, considering that i always jump into bed only arnd 3 am. i tot sleeping early will prevent such stuff? sighs. i think when i sleep at 3am, i dun even experience headache. so all that stuff abt sleeping early is a load of crap i suppose, in my context the very least.
flipping thru some SONY year-end promotion book i found in the letter box this evening. juz looking at all the technology stuff makes me go green-eyed. sheesh. i want the T50 camera BAD. haven actually found out if its really all tt gd but the design is sure rockin fab. plus its sleek.
oh oh! speaking of cameras, today was suaned VERY badly by evil henry and sacarstic zuo sheng for not knowing how to use henry's camera properly. sighs. plus it didnt help with phan shei at the side silently mocking. haha. actually, if u put me in their shoe, i wud do the same. coz who has ever seen anyone so dumb before? hey..am i scolding myself dumb? manz...the headache is making me tok nuts.
and my maid's nagging since dinner time is not helping at all.
heh heh. she juz realised that her cover is blown today BY ME! =D - tt she has been secretly eyeing on ren jie from our class photos...haha. the guys today were joking abt the prank smses they sent to the girls and commented abt my reply back to them. then somehow, the conversation led to my maid who confessed a few months back that she finds rj cute. wahahaha. actually, she didnt confessed. i sorta guessed from yj to zf to henry to zs and ijuz went down the row of boys until i saw her grin when i said rj's name. hahaha.
wonder what her husband will think abt all this.
woah! juz flipped to the High Definition Home Projector. VPL-VW100 is cool la! erm...so is the price. (-.-") $14,999. if i am serious dead on buying it, w/o spending a cent of my pocket money, i wud have to save for 300 weeks. that wud be 6 years and 3 months. not bad. its a good way to lose weight. haha...the price wud have prob dropped and new (and more mind-blowing) models wud be released in the market by then. in any case, why cant they juz write $15,000? muz be those marketing strategies again. ugh.
okiez. this is the end of the today's super-bored entry. as u can see, there is nothing much going on in my life rite now. and i am juz typing for the sake of typing. and maybe exercising my skill / art of crapping. i hope you were bored. lol.
Ps: my mum juz bought tickets to watch the play "notre dame" in singapore indoor stadium tml. maybe i will have something more substantial to yak abt in my next entry. cya!
erm...
eh...
actually, i oso cant find any stuff to tok abt now. sigh...does that mean i have no life? boos.
anw, been having a splitting headache all day. dun even noe wads the prob with me anymore. its like i sleep at 11pm, which is early, considering that i always jump into bed only arnd 3 am. i tot sleeping early will prevent such stuff? sighs. i think when i sleep at 3am, i dun even experience headache. so all that stuff abt sleeping early is a load of crap i suppose, in my context the very least.
flipping thru some SONY year-end promotion book i found in the letter box this evening. juz looking at all the technology stuff makes me go green-eyed. sheesh. i want the T50 camera BAD. haven actually found out if its really all tt gd but the design is sure rockin fab. plus its sleek.
oh oh! speaking of cameras, today was suaned VERY badly by evil henry and sacarstic zuo sheng for not knowing how to use henry's camera properly. sighs. plus it didnt help with phan shei at the side silently mocking. haha. actually, if u put me in their shoe, i wud do the same. coz who has ever seen anyone so dumb before? hey..am i scolding myself dumb? manz...the headache is making me tok nuts.
and my maid's nagging since dinner time is not helping at all.
heh heh. she juz realised that her cover is blown today BY ME! =D - tt she has been secretly eyeing on ren jie from our class photos...haha. the guys today were joking abt the prank smses they sent to the girls and commented abt my reply back to them. then somehow, the conversation led to my maid who confessed a few months back that she finds rj cute. wahahaha. actually, she didnt confessed. i sorta guessed from yj to zf to henry to zs and ijuz went down the row of boys until i saw her grin when i said rj's name. hahaha.
wonder what her husband will think abt all this.
woah! juz flipped to the High Definition Home Projector. VPL-VW100 is cool la! erm...so is the price. (-.-") $14,999. if i am serious dead on buying it, w/o spending a cent of my pocket money, i wud have to save for 300 weeks. that wud be 6 years and 3 months. not bad. its a good way to lose weight. haha...the price wud have prob dropped and new (and more mind-blowing) models wud be released in the market by then. in any case, why cant they juz write $15,000? muz be those marketing strategies again. ugh.
okiez. this is the end of the today's super-bored entry. as u can see, there is nothing much going on in my life rite now. and i am juz typing for the sake of typing. and maybe exercising my skill / art of crapping. i hope you were bored. lol.
Ps: my mum juz bought tickets to watch the play "notre dame" in singapore indoor stadium tml. maybe i will have something more substantial to yak abt in my next entry. cya!
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
yeay! i am done with carine's blog le. finally, the music is up, with the a lil tinkerbell dust from grace. yeapz. she helped by introducing her kind of music player. and it worked. ahaha. the linking codes are juz being choosy with music players.
was thinking of using hers for my blog too. but hmmm...i think i will stick to the current one for the time being. haha. yes i changed my song. its not a new song. but juz felt like putting this song up. itchy fingers.
sian. i have to go back skool for 3 consecutive days for PW. PW. PW. when this whole PW thing ends, i am gonna burn all the documents and throw it out of my window. argh. its stifling me and my life. ugh. *looks at the piles of doc in PW file evil-ly*
i think if i were to really burn it, it will start a fire bigger than the one Indonesia is currently having. *evil laugh* ..okie. not funny.
-ciaoz-
was thinking of using hers for my blog too. but hmmm...i think i will stick to the current one for the time being. haha. yes i changed my song. its not a new song. but juz felt like putting this song up. itchy fingers.
sian. i have to go back skool for 3 consecutive days for PW. PW. PW. when this whole PW thing ends, i am gonna burn all the documents and throw it out of my window. argh. its stifling me and my life. ugh. *looks at the piles of doc in PW file evil-ly*
i think if i were to really burn it, it will start a fire bigger than the one Indonesia is currently having. *evil laugh* ..okie. not funny.
-ciaoz-
recently, juz caught the piggish virus. woke up only 2 hrs ago for lunch and now is sitting sloppily on my super big armchair. i think if this kinda lifestyle contd, i will not be able to even sit on this king-size armchair. lol
sian. been trying to do up carine's blog for the past half hour. every thing is sorta done. only require a lil touch up by her here and there..BUT ALAS! something has to always crop up. and this time, its the music. its so stupid la. i dun even noe wads the problem. i mean i managed to successfully upload the music and got the link codes and stuff. HOWEVER, when i copy and paste the codes, the stupid music bar says : "playlist not found". WHAT! argh. and so i went to try copy and pasting other links of different songs to test test a bit and guess wad? THEY ALL WORKED. ugly disaster.
instead of complaining, i shall contd to figure out the prob. i copied and pasted the picture of wentworth miller (the hot guy from prison break) on to my comp. for visual motivation le. so i dun think i will give up on carine's blog any time soon.
betta go comb my hair first. dun wanna look like some mad freak in front of him. tee-hee..
Ps: i hope grace can view my blog now w/o problems.
sian. been trying to do up carine's blog for the past half hour. every thing is sorta done. only require a lil touch up by her here and there..BUT ALAS! something has to always crop up. and this time, its the music. its so stupid la. i dun even noe wads the problem. i mean i managed to successfully upload the music and got the link codes and stuff. HOWEVER, when i copy and paste the codes, the stupid music bar says : "playlist not found". WHAT! argh. and so i went to try copy and pasting other links of different songs to test test a bit and guess wad? THEY ALL WORKED. ugly disaster.
instead of complaining, i shall contd to figure out the prob. i copied and pasted the picture of wentworth miller (the hot guy from prison break) on to my comp. for visual motivation le. so i dun think i will give up on carine's blog any time soon.
betta go comb my hair first. dun wanna look like some mad freak in front of him. tee-hee..
Ps: i hope grace can view my blog now w/o problems.
Friday, October 27, 2006
ARgh! prison break rocks man! oh my gawd..i think i am gonna buy the dvd of the shows! excuse me but Wentworth Miller who plays Michael Scofield is so darn cute la. haha i think i can go on forever talking abt him. woo hooo! i am currently trying to source out as much spoilers as i can for the show oredy coz i simply cannot wait for our lousy Channel 5 to telecast PRISON BREAK SEASON 1 when america is showing season 2 oredy. anw, i chanced upon this video from you tube that i think is simply outstanding. check out the doctor. her nam is Sarah Wayne Callies who plays Dr. Sara Tancredi. he will fall in love in her eventually. arent they a sweet couple or wad? i took out my background music so that y'all can watch the video. its abt the two of them. haha. trying to look for a nice video that do the show proper justice. will post it when i find it. meantime, watch this clip. its suupper romantic. i think i am gonna work in a prison if i every become a physiotherapist. woots!
Yesterday was Judgment Day. I thought judgment day was supposed to be a day when justice is meted out. But I didn't see that happening at all. At least it did not when the word justice is placed according to my definitions.
I tried to find them. Even when I did not want to see them. I just needed to know they are alright. That they are safe. Even when I have been told not once, but twice that they are not. Self denial, I have forced myself to live in.
Went to the Toa Payoh library today to borrow some books. Managed to source out three books. As usual, they were detective novels. I think I will spend the entire weekend indulging in the turmoil of the stories' plots and form escapism for myself, away from the mayhem of the entire world.
After retrieving some pictures for shi min from my thumb drive, decided to upload all the pics from the thumbdrive into my dotphoto account. Spend the entire night uploading and categorizing the different photos into their different albums and headings. Manage to recall how ghastly I looked during my younger days. Man..i make myself sound so old. Haha..but then again, I dun think currently, I look altogether less ghastly either. So oh wellz. Haha. laugh it off I guess. But its still fun to look at those photos once in a while to remember the fun u had with the pple arnd you, even if you look hideous in it - so long as no one else can view it. heh heh.
Juz realize that I missed PrisonBreak at 10pm on Channel 5. thank goodness my dad taped it for me. he told me I ought to feel lucky to have such a intelligent daddy. Indeed I feel lucky and proud. But I dun see the link how being able to tape the show your daughter lurves to watch has anything to do with your intelligence level. Haha. nvm. Still proud him nonetheless. Heh heh.
I tried to find them. Even when I did not want to see them. I just needed to know they are alright. That they are safe. Even when I have been told not once, but twice that they are not. Self denial, I have forced myself to live in.
Went to the Toa Payoh library today to borrow some books. Managed to source out three books. As usual, they were detective novels. I think I will spend the entire weekend indulging in the turmoil of the stories' plots and form escapism for myself, away from the mayhem of the entire world.
After retrieving some pictures for shi min from my thumb drive, decided to upload all the pics from the thumbdrive into my dotphoto account. Spend the entire night uploading and categorizing the different photos into their different albums and headings. Manage to recall how ghastly I looked during my younger days. Man..i make myself sound so old. Haha..but then again, I dun think currently, I look altogether less ghastly either. So oh wellz. Haha. laugh it off I guess. But its still fun to look at those photos once in a while to remember the fun u had with the pple arnd you, even if you look hideous in it - so long as no one else can view it. heh heh.
Juz realize that I missed PrisonBreak at 10pm on Channel 5. thank goodness my dad taped it for me. he told me I ought to feel lucky to have such a intelligent daddy. Indeed I feel lucky and proud. But I dun see the link how being able to tape the show your daughter lurves to watch has anything to do with your intelligence level. Haha. nvm. Still proud him nonetheless. Heh heh.
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
Ooo…ytd we had "ball games" day organised by the Student Council and despite some uncomfortable encounters (haha!), I had a great time playing with 0626 (my wonderful, fabulous and fantastic class!)..
WHOO HOO! Haha..a lil high today as you can see
Its seems a lil weird to remembrance the whole day w/o the presence of my camera..sighz. yepz..but kind grace has agreed to share with me the photos she took at yoshi, rite grace? Oh. Forgot to mention, we had a class dinner at yoshi. Ya.
Well..it seems that throughout the whole event, only a few incidences have managed to be etched strongly and firmly within my heart, soul and mind, esp. the time during the soccer game. In case u were wonderin, my passion for football wasn't the cause of the game to be attached closely to me. Bleaugh. No. Rather it was my embarrassing blunder that caused it all. This was how it all came about. My team was up against another all-boys team for the soccer game and I was the stupid goalkeeper. So before the game could even be warmed up, one of the opponent's boys decided to try his luck and aim the ball towards the net. And instead of trying to catch the ball, I played dodgeball.
Yes.
I actually shunned aside and made way for the ball to enter the stupid net. And helped the opponent team to score a goal. I even heard one of the boys saying, "wa! Like that oso can score ar?" *smacks head* what a lousy goal. What a lousier goalkeeper! BAH! But nonetheless, I would like to say a big thank you (and sorry!) to my soccer team members mainly, cheng en, yee jin, ren jie and p.t. for their magnanimous support and understanding towards my faults and mostly for possessing such great sportsmanship. In fact, they were even comforting me. haha..loser me. haha. oh. And yes cheng en, I WILL RELAX!
In my opinion, I feel that in such events like this, class spirit and great sportsmanship ought to be maintained on a high note. After such an event, I dun think hardly one wud recall if they won or lost. But rather, I think the memory tt they will leave, carrying with them is the thought of themselves cheering their hearts out for their classmates who were out there perspiring it out, fighting for the glory of their class. Who cares if they were winning or losing? What mattered is each and every one knew in their hearts, that in their class were there for each other all the way, with undying support. I dun noe if I am speaking for everyone, but I know that that is def. enough for me to take away from this event. And I bet it is also heartening for the sportsmen themselves to know that they are not competing alone, with those deafening cheers as constant reminders. The strength they have within themselves is greatly elevated with the thought that when they face the opponent team, the opponents are not juz facing the 5 members that are playing against them, but rather, in the context of 0626, the 24 of us.
Throughout the whole event, I felt and seen all that I have written in the above para. And nothing will ever be able to replace that feeling.
WHOO HOO! Haha..a lil high today as you can see
Its seems a lil weird to remembrance the whole day w/o the presence of my camera..sighz. yepz..but kind grace has agreed to share with me the photos she took at yoshi, rite grace? Oh. Forgot to mention, we had a class dinner at yoshi. Ya.
Well..it seems that throughout the whole event, only a few incidences have managed to be etched strongly and firmly within my heart, soul and mind, esp. the time during the soccer game. In case u were wonderin, my passion for football wasn't the cause of the game to be attached closely to me. Bleaugh. No. Rather it was my embarrassing blunder that caused it all. This was how it all came about. My team was up against another all-boys team for the soccer game and I was the stupid goalkeeper. So before the game could even be warmed up, one of the opponent's boys decided to try his luck and aim the ball towards the net. And instead of trying to catch the ball, I played dodgeball.
Yes.
I actually shunned aside and made way for the ball to enter the stupid net. And helped the opponent team to score a goal. I even heard one of the boys saying, "wa! Like that oso can score ar?" *smacks head* what a lousy goal. What a lousier goalkeeper! BAH! But nonetheless, I would like to say a big thank you (and sorry!) to my soccer team members mainly, cheng en, yee jin, ren jie and p.t. for their magnanimous support and understanding towards my faults and mostly for possessing such great sportsmanship. In fact, they were even comforting me. haha..loser me. haha. oh. And yes cheng en, I WILL RELAX!
In my opinion, I feel that in such events like this, class spirit and great sportsmanship ought to be maintained on a high note. After such an event, I dun think hardly one wud recall if they won or lost. But rather, I think the memory tt they will leave, carrying with them is the thought of themselves cheering their hearts out for their classmates who were out there perspiring it out, fighting for the glory of their class. Who cares if they were winning or losing? What mattered is each and every one knew in their hearts, that in their class were there for each other all the way, with undying support. I dun noe if I am speaking for everyone, but I know that that is def. enough for me to take away from this event. And I bet it is also heartening for the sportsmen themselves to know that they are not competing alone, with those deafening cheers as constant reminders. The strength they have within themselves is greatly elevated with the thought that when they face the opponent team, the opponents are not juz facing the 5 members that are playing against them, but rather, in the context of 0626, the 24 of us.
Throughout the whole event, I felt and seen all that I have written in the above para. And nothing will ever be able to replace that feeling.
My daddy has taken a fancy to listening to PINK. When I asked him why the sudden change in music preference, he answers "trying to remain forever 21".
The key word is "trying". Manz...i got a cute daddy. Lol.
As of late, I think I have been becoming more and more superstitious, esp when it concerns my element, horoscope and star sign. Sometimes, I think it is really fruitless for me to go surfing hundreds of such websites to read up about the Virgo and so on when they are telling me the same stuff anw. All the things abt being "thoroughly meticulous..bustling with energy and always have plenty to do..quest for perfection and inability to ignore even the smallest of faults"..yea I heard it all. But what is the thing that keeps making me continue to source for such sites when I know that there is a risk that such knowledge may be, to the extent of being, fabricated.
In fact, what exactly is the factor attributing to so many people being addicted to learning abt such stuff?
Gave some thoughts abt it and managed to come up with some conclusions.
Some may be juz trying to find their sense of identity. Although they do know some things about themselves here and there, its only part and parcel of their whole genetic make-up. And being humans, we are greedy; we want the whole package. Hence, we source for these websites in hopes of finding all the qualities we supposedly are to possess. Also some are juz seeking affirmation to the qualities they know they have. Like they wanna see these qualities written in black and white over and over again on all the websites pertaining to their element..
Another simple reason is that they juz need a reason for being what and who they are. Everyday, humans are constantly trying to discover more and more about the mysterious universe and answering all the questions pertaining to different magnificent phenomenons. And one of the magnificent phenomenons is actually mankind. So by reading up on their elements, and the characteristics their elements are supposedly to posses, they found a reason to own the negative or positive qualities they have. And also, so that when others criticize them like for example "why are you so untidy?", they can simply rebut with the lousy argument "I can’t help it. My horoscope says so". Sheessh..even when I am typing this now, I find myself guilty of this action. So what’s all the stuff abt man controlling destiny?
There are also those who needs to know what's in store for them tomorrow and what exactly do their future holds for them. These people are those who think they are controlling their destiny but in reality, are ironically allowing star signs to control their lives instead. They need to know exactly what colour they wear wud ward off the evil they are allegedly to face the next day and whether the eclipse of a planet with any other planet will catalyse any of the activites they are planning to do tomorrow, like confession of love and cutting of hair.
Another case in point, which I suppose would apply to many of the horoscope readers, is the hunger to satisfy that burning question "IS HE/SHE COMPATIBLE WITH ME?" or "IS SHE/HE SUITABLE TO BE MY FRIEND?" but of coz, the latter question is less often pondered as compared to the former. Oh wellz..no further eleboration needed
Hmmm..i think that’s all I can come up with currently..haha.oh wellz. Juz realize that all apply to me..haha.oOpS!
The key word is "trying". Manz...i got a cute daddy. Lol.
As of late, I think I have been becoming more and more superstitious, esp when it concerns my element, horoscope and star sign. Sometimes, I think it is really fruitless for me to go surfing hundreds of such websites to read up about the Virgo and so on when they are telling me the same stuff anw. All the things abt being "thoroughly meticulous..bustling with energy and always have plenty to do..quest for perfection and inability to ignore even the smallest of faults"..yea I heard it all. But what is the thing that keeps making me continue to source for such sites when I know that there is a risk that such knowledge may be, to the extent of being, fabricated.
In fact, what exactly is the factor attributing to so many people being addicted to learning abt such stuff?
Gave some thoughts abt it and managed to come up with some conclusions.
Some may be juz trying to find their sense of identity. Although they do know some things about themselves here and there, its only part and parcel of their whole genetic make-up. And being humans, we are greedy; we want the whole package. Hence, we source for these websites in hopes of finding all the qualities we supposedly are to possess. Also some are juz seeking affirmation to the qualities they know they have. Like they wanna see these qualities written in black and white over and over again on all the websites pertaining to their element..
Another simple reason is that they juz need a reason for being what and who they are. Everyday, humans are constantly trying to discover more and more about the mysterious universe and answering all the questions pertaining to different magnificent phenomenons. And one of the magnificent phenomenons is actually mankind. So by reading up on their elements, and the characteristics their elements are supposedly to posses, they found a reason to own the negative or positive qualities they have. And also, so that when others criticize them like for example "why are you so untidy?", they can simply rebut with the lousy argument "I can’t help it. My horoscope says so". Sheessh..even when I am typing this now, I find myself guilty of this action. So what’s all the stuff abt man controlling destiny?
There are also those who needs to know what's in store for them tomorrow and what exactly do their future holds for them. These people are those who think they are controlling their destiny but in reality, are ironically allowing star signs to control their lives instead. They need to know exactly what colour they wear wud ward off the evil they are allegedly to face the next day and whether the eclipse of a planet with any other planet will catalyse any of the activites they are planning to do tomorrow, like confession of love and cutting of hair.
Another case in point, which I suppose would apply to many of the horoscope readers, is the hunger to satisfy that burning question "IS HE/SHE COMPATIBLE WITH ME?" or "IS SHE/HE SUITABLE TO BE MY FRIEND?" but of coz, the latter question is less often pondered as compared to the former. Oh wellz..no further eleboration needed
Hmmm..i think that’s all I can come up with currently..haha.oh wellz. Juz realize that all apply to me..haha.oOpS!
Saturday, October 14, 2006
Hey PEOPLE i juz did a slideshow of the birthay celebrations we had for CHIN PING, YEE JIN and XIU XUAN at marina bay. REALLY like it a lot so hope u guys will go check it out ya? manz. i love it. i am so ego.
ShhoOuT OUt:
grace: i think the prob is with my blog manz. its always my blog. nvm. i changed the colour liaoz. hope u can see it now.
audrey: i have finally uploaded the pics for c.p. and y.j. b'day liaoz. sorry. i noe it has been a super long time. and u prob forgot u asked for it anw. but here is it.
ShhoOuT OUt:
grace: i think the prob is with my blog manz. its always my blog. nvm. i changed the colour liaoz. hope u can see it now.
audrey: i have finally uploaded the pics for c.p. and y.j. b'day liaoz. sorry. i noe it has been a super long time. and u prob forgot u asked for it anw. but here is it.
woke up this morning with a splitting headache. *ouch*. really glad that open hse is finally over and perhaps even more relieved that i managed to live thru tt day with juz a few bruises and scratches. haha.
the physical theatre performance we did was rather well done...i think from my own point of view. yepz. so rather satisfied. and a shout out to gerald here:
thanks for taking over my role as a games facil. helped me a lot. haha. hope u didnt scare the sec skool kids away.
yay. my mummy and i are gonna have a movie night out tonight and i am so sure we are gonna have a blast. sigh..the prob now is whether i will be fit enough to even get out of bed tonight. *ache*
alright..i will end here. i have nothing to say to begin with. juz feel like typing something boring. i think i managed to achieve the effect pretty well.
the physical theatre performance we did was rather well done...i think from my own point of view. yepz. so rather satisfied. and a shout out to gerald here:
thanks for taking over my role as a games facil. helped me a lot. haha. hope u didnt scare the sec skool kids away.
yay. my mummy and i are gonna have a movie night out tonight and i am so sure we are gonna have a blast. sigh..the prob now is whether i will be fit enough to even get out of bed tonight. *ache*
alright..i will end here. i have nothing to say to begin with. juz feel like typing something boring. i think i managed to achieve the effect pretty well.
Thursday, October 12, 2006
hmm...at the library now with carine next to me..haha.feeling bored. actually we are suppose to do the WR. i mean, thats the main reason why we were able to be let out of the classroom. yepz. but it seems that the workload just suddenly disappeared and we are left with absoloutely nothing to do..yes..NOTHING AT ALL. ZILCH! BAH!
okie. we are trying to act as hardworking as possible to prevent any suspicion from arising from either of our PW mate. oOps.
perhaps instead of the thought that is goign thru ya mind right now, that carine and vanessa is so bad...to not do any work, u ought to applaud us for the truth. AH YES! the truth. u seldom hear the truth nowadays. SO APPLAUD PEOPLE ! when u hear it. bearing in mind that truth hurts.
oh wellz. its time to get back to work.
PS: carine says hi! wkwk
okie. we are trying to act as hardworking as possible to prevent any suspicion from arising from either of our PW mate. oOps.
perhaps instead of the thought that is goign thru ya mind right now, that carine and vanessa is so bad...to not do any work, u ought to applaud us for the truth. AH YES! the truth. u seldom hear the truth nowadays. SO APPLAUD PEOPLE ! when u hear it. bearing in mind that truth hurts.
oh wellz. its time to get back to work.
PS: carine says hi! wkwk
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
This entry was written while i was sitting at the atrium, waiting for neetha to come. It seems weird to just sit down here all by myself at the atrium without any friends next to me. Everyone at this point in time, seemed to be either busy with CCA or at home slacking. Maybe life is just giving me time to do some self-reflections...again
today is the first day at school, after a week of unofficial holiday, since the end of the promos. And so far, i have been living it independently, without feeling any virtual strings attached to myself, controlled by another. i suppose its good.
It seems to me that no matter how much time i spend sleeping, it doesnt guarantee that i will be fresh the next day, think and do correct things correctly the next morning. Nopez. Contrary to tt belief, i am feeling rather tired despite my endless hours of sleep. So i think that i shud juz contd sleeping late. Coz i will do wrong things whether i had sufficient sleep or not. So i might as well sleep late and do more things, rather than sleep early, do fewer things and still do wrong things the next day.
And i was just mildly irritated for a friend by someone. yepz. gettin emo. But cant really help it. Coz i simply cannot stand last min work and the fact that the person dump that last min work onto my fren and accused her of a zillion things she is unjustified to claim..its simply fuming. i dun think i am the type of person that wud actually get myself invovled in such sensitive issues but the fact that i did, doesnt it tell how strongly i feel abt it? Actually carine is right abt wad she said abt humans. That they tend to be able to criticise but not reflect. The person who dumped the last min work on my fren is one who has the tendency to go round and judge others but seldom judge him/herself. yepz. According to shakespeare,
today is the first day at school, after a week of unofficial holiday, since the end of the promos. And so far, i have been living it independently, without feeling any virtual strings attached to myself, controlled by another. i suppose its good.
It seems to me that no matter how much time i spend sleeping, it doesnt guarantee that i will be fresh the next day, think and do correct things correctly the next morning. Nopez. Contrary to tt belief, i am feeling rather tired despite my endless hours of sleep. So i think that i shud juz contd sleeping late. Coz i will do wrong things whether i had sufficient sleep or not. So i might as well sleep late and do more things, rather than sleep early, do fewer things and still do wrong things the next day.
And i was just mildly irritated for a friend by someone. yepz. gettin emo. But cant really help it. Coz i simply cannot stand last min work and the fact that the person dump that last min work onto my fren and accused her of a zillion things she is unjustified to claim..its simply fuming. i dun think i am the type of person that wud actually get myself invovled in such sensitive issues but the fact that i did, doesnt it tell how strongly i feel abt it? Actually carine is right abt wad she said abt humans. That they tend to be able to criticise but not reflect. The person who dumped the last min work on my fren is one who has the tendency to go round and judge others but seldom judge him/herself. yepz. According to shakespeare,
"one day the mocking will be mocked, the laughing will be laughed"
alrighty. juz went jogging to vent every bit of my discontent out of my body system. Feeling much betta now. There is so much work to do now. Drama, open house, PW, etc. the only good thing abt the PW exam now is that when u tell a PW mate that ur group haven accomplished so much things, u noe he/she is telling the truth, for once, when he replies back "yea lor..me too"
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
juz got home from 0613 chalet. actually reached home on monday at abt 7:00am while the rest were still snoring after a whole night of crapping. haha. err..ya. thats all.
and den rushed for PW at 10:00 am...overslept due to the lack of sleep the night b4. but still made it at the time i promised carine. *whew*
den when i came home, slept from 3pm to 7am the next morning. yepz and went for drama. haha. so fast feelin tired oredy. becoming more and more like a pig. sigh
alrighty. feelin rather sad coz my com cant seem to download shows fully from You Tube. dun ask me why. it always download halfway, the thing gets jammed and i cannot see anymore. sian.
and den rushed for PW at 10:00 am...overslept due to the lack of sleep the night b4. but still made it at the time i promised carine. *whew*
den when i came home, slept from 3pm to 7am the next morning. yepz and went for drama. haha. so fast feelin tired oredy. becoming more and more like a pig. sigh
alrighty. feelin rather sad coz my com cant seem to download shows fully from You Tube. dun ask me why. it always download halfway, the thing gets jammed and i cannot see anymore. sian.
Sunday, October 08, 2006
a few months back, grace tagged me to play this "music shuffler" game. finally i have played the game. took a long time to crap up the reasons and a even longer time to make them sound sensible. yeapz. if u read any part you do not understand, pls. do not ask me. coz high chance is that i wudnt be able to explain to you either.
How are you feeling today?
Title: Don't Cha
Artiste: PussyCat Dolls
Bitchy? Haha..seriously, this is the only characteristic I can associate these girls with apart from sultry, which I dun think, or anyone for the matter of fact, would think I am. Haha. so maybe I am kinda like that today. Haha.
Will you get far in life?
Title: Seasons
Artisite: Ayumi Hamasaki
I cant interpret from the song since I hardly can understand what she is singing throughout the whole song. Only like the song for the music. Haha. I think it ought to be something abt love. So maybe with love I will go far? So cliché. Maybe with the love of family and friends I will go far. That perhaps will hold some truth. But anything else, I seriously doubt it.
How do your friends see you?
Title: Jie Mei
Artiste: Amei Cheung
Yay..finally a song that make sense. Yay..haha. "jie mei" in English means sister. So hope it is true that I am like a sister to them in a good way, not annoying. Haha..to all my sista out there..love y'all!! Peace out! hee..
Will you get married?
Title: Kiss From A Rose
Artiste: Seal
It's a love song..so what is the symbolism? The guy cannot get enough of the girl. And he thinks the girl's love is strange yet he is having a growing addiction on her. So I think he will eventually pop the question? So I will get married? Hey..does that mean I am the strange girl? Ugh..
What is your best friend's theme song?
Title: Sukidayo
Artiste: Sunday Girls
Actually I dun understand the qn at hand. Best fren theme song for wad? Hmm..so if u replace the love in this song, with friendship, it means that my best fren wud expect me to not forget her everday, and think of her everyday, and must say I love you to her everyday. Hmmm..not likely any of my best fren wud want me to that everyday..they may think I have fallen for them instead. Haha
What is the story of your life?
Title: Summer Loving
Artiste: John Travolta and Oliver Newton John
"I met a girl, crazy for me. I met a boy, cute as can be."
"it turned cold, that’s where it end"
So the story is that I will meet a boy that is cute in my eyes. And I will be the girl crazy for him. Well, okie. It is sensible. Since I have a weird definition for cute guys, I think I can find one quite easily. And the end, the two of us will break up because the relationship turned cold. Yet we will always reminisces those times we spent together. Actually, this song was taken from a soundtrack, and in the show, the relationship didn't turn cold but because the girl was going away hence the relationship ended. But she didn't go in the end and they ended up together nonetheless. So there is two versions. Choose your pick. The happier one for me or the one filled with angst. lol
What was high school like?
Title: Colours Of The Wind
Artiste: Vanessa Williams
This song is filled with a lot of philosophical questions. So high school was a time when I self-reflected a lot. Which is true btw.
"if you walk the footsteps of a stranger, you learn things you never knew, you never knew". Somehow, high school was something like that. Walk a mile in another's shoe once in the while, understanding the problems they face in life. Dun ask me how, it just felt like that.
How can you get ahead in life?
Title: Soak Up The Sun
Artiste: Sheryl Crow
Before this song can even be played, I feel it is gonna be tough to explain oredy. So err..i am gonna get ahead by soaking up the sun. k. I am gonna go for a sun tan tml.
What is the best thing about your friends?
Title: We Believe
Artiste: Good Charlotte
They believe in me. Whether I do it with my heart or with my mind, I noe they will be there for me. Sure there will be times we disagree, but I believe that if I ever do not heed their advice and fall, they will still catch me when I fall. Believe is one of the most important things in a friendship that is so often overlooked. But I think most of my friends have not overlooked this fundamental quality of believing in me. Hence that’s the best thing abt them.
What is in store for this weekend?
Title: Stupid Cupid
Artiste: Mandy Moore
Now is the weekend. And I determined not to be struck by cupid's love arrows. No. The only thing in store for my cupid is a holiday. A well deserved, long holiday and stay far away from me.
What song describes you?
Title: The Gift
Artiste: Blue
"And the gift is what you get by givin' more than you receive. And you're learnin' fast that maybe this is how you'll be happy. 'Cause in takin' everything you lost, the air you need to breath. But in givin' it away, you found the precious thing you seek."
This chorus speaks enough for me. It describes me because I think it is always impt to give more than receive because when I give, I feel I found the thing I have been looking for through the smiles and happiness of others.
To describe your grandparents?
Title: Have a nice day
Artiste: Bon Jovi
Yea yea..my grandparents are juz LIKE THAT! The starting of the song is "who are you to tell me if its black or white" and the chorus goes "if the world gets in my face, I say have a nice day!" They NEVER back down no matter what happens. I guess that is where I get my stubbornness. Imagine, my grandma injured her leg and she stills want to jaywalk..what does that tells you?
How is your life going?
Title: Dou Jiang You Tiao
Artiste: JJ Lin
I dunno what this song means. And I really cannot come up with any excuse, even if it is nonsense, for this song to be with relation to the qn. Can someone pls tell me instead? Err..okay..JJ Lin is confused in the song. Coz he doesn't noe what the girl is actually thinking of, as in, whether she likes him or not. So I am confused right not with life. True true.
What song will they play at your funeral?
Title: Perfect
Artiste: Simple Plan
A perfectionist will want a perfect song to be played at the deathbed. So the song PERFECT comes up. However, the opening sentence is "hey dad look at me, think back and talk to me. Did I grow up according to plan?"
I dun think I want my dad to look at me when I am dead and ask himself if I grew up according to plan. Dun think it is right that a parent shud bury their kid. Their only child. too tragic. But I wud wanna noe if I grew up according to plan.
How does the world see you?
Title: Catch Your Wave
Artiste: The Click Five
Does that mean I am moving too fast for the world to catch me? oOpS! Sorry Mr. World! Will try to slow down if you slow down Mr. Time for me. haha.
"hey girl I wanna catch your wave..hey girl I wanna drift away with you"
ooo..the world wanna drift away with me. I dun mind. Lol.
Will you have a happy life?
Title: Yi Shou Jian Dan De Ge
Artiste: Wang Lee Hom
This song is about keeping happiness. so if I write a simple song, I will be happy..haha.No la. I think this song is trying to tell me that if I do not think things so complicatedly or in complex forms and just focus on the simple things in life, I will lead a happy life. Of coz. Who wudnt be? But how often do you see pple doing that either?
What do your friends really think of you?
Title: Unbreakable
Artiste: Alicia KeysI dunno really whether to be happy or not that people see me as unbreakable. The people who appears to be the most unbreakable always tend to be the weakest. So hmm. But I think some do think I am unbreakable ba..haha..and truth is that maybe I am unbreakable afterall..like an boiled egg..hardened by the impacts of life.
Do people secretly lust after you?
Title: Heal The World
Artiste: Micheal Jackson
Great, the question is represented by a pedophile. He secretly lust after kids. So there shud be people who secretly lust after me. eww. I dun wanna crap more in this question. NEXT!
How can I make myself happy?
Title: This is my time
Artiste: Raven
Summarizing the whole song, it is a girl rising from her fall and becoming independent and realizing her dream. By trusting my heart, I can change things. Yes. I believe in myself and this will make me happy. Overcoming all these things, I will finally find my wings and know I am ready to fly.
What should you do with your life?
Title: At The Beginning
Artiste: Richard Marx and Donna Lewis
"Life is a road And I want to keep going Love is a river I wanna keep flowing Life is the road Now and forever Wonderful journey I'll be there When the world stops turning I'll be there When the storm is through In the end I wanna be standing At the beginning with you"
I wanna keep going on in life, no matter how hard it is gonna be, even when at times, I wanna break down, I will keep going. So that I can stand at the beginning with you. But I dunno who is the you?? Haha. I only noe I will keep going in life ba..to realize my dream. Maybe the "YOU" refers to my dream.
Will you ever have children?
Title: Year 3000
Artiste: Busted
Haha..yes I will have children. And my children will have children and they will have their children. How I know? Because a guy has came back from the year 3000 and told me that my "great great great grand daughter is pretty fine". Surely she isn’t a mermaid? haha. And I even noe that the pple will be living in under water in the year 3000. Goodness. I have a gorgeous descendant. Cheers to the world.
finally i finished it. yayz.
How are you feeling today?
Title: Don't Cha
Artiste: PussyCat Dolls
Bitchy? Haha..seriously, this is the only characteristic I can associate these girls with apart from sultry, which I dun think, or anyone for the matter of fact, would think I am. Haha. so maybe I am kinda like that today. Haha.
Will you get far in life?
Title: Seasons
Artisite: Ayumi Hamasaki
I cant interpret from the song since I hardly can understand what she is singing throughout the whole song. Only like the song for the music. Haha. I think it ought to be something abt love. So maybe with love I will go far? So cliché. Maybe with the love of family and friends I will go far. That perhaps will hold some truth. But anything else, I seriously doubt it.
How do your friends see you?
Title: Jie Mei
Artiste: Amei Cheung
Yay..finally a song that make sense. Yay..haha. "jie mei" in English means sister. So hope it is true that I am like a sister to them in a good way, not annoying. Haha..to all my sista out there..love y'all!! Peace out! hee..
Will you get married?
Title: Kiss From A Rose
Artiste: Seal
It's a love song..so what is the symbolism? The guy cannot get enough of the girl. And he thinks the girl's love is strange yet he is having a growing addiction on her. So I think he will eventually pop the question? So I will get married? Hey..does that mean I am the strange girl? Ugh..
What is your best friend's theme song?
Title: Sukidayo
Artiste: Sunday Girls
Actually I dun understand the qn at hand. Best fren theme song for wad? Hmm..so if u replace the love in this song, with friendship, it means that my best fren wud expect me to not forget her everday, and think of her everyday, and must say I love you to her everyday. Hmmm..not likely any of my best fren wud want me to that everyday..they may think I have fallen for them instead. Haha
What is the story of your life?
Title: Summer Loving
Artiste: John Travolta and Oliver Newton John
"I met a girl, crazy for me. I met a boy, cute as can be."
"it turned cold, that’s where it end"
So the story is that I will meet a boy that is cute in my eyes. And I will be the girl crazy for him. Well, okie. It is sensible. Since I have a weird definition for cute guys, I think I can find one quite easily. And the end, the two of us will break up because the relationship turned cold. Yet we will always reminisces those times we spent together. Actually, this song was taken from a soundtrack, and in the show, the relationship didn't turn cold but because the girl was going away hence the relationship ended. But she didn't go in the end and they ended up together nonetheless. So there is two versions. Choose your pick. The happier one for me or the one filled with angst. lol
What was high school like?
Title: Colours Of The Wind
Artiste: Vanessa Williams
This song is filled with a lot of philosophical questions. So high school was a time when I self-reflected a lot. Which is true btw.
"if you walk the footsteps of a stranger, you learn things you never knew, you never knew". Somehow, high school was something like that. Walk a mile in another's shoe once in the while, understanding the problems they face in life. Dun ask me how, it just felt like that.
How can you get ahead in life?
Title: Soak Up The Sun
Artiste: Sheryl Crow
Before this song can even be played, I feel it is gonna be tough to explain oredy. So err..i am gonna get ahead by soaking up the sun. k. I am gonna go for a sun tan tml.
What is the best thing about your friends?
Title: We Believe
Artiste: Good Charlotte
They believe in me. Whether I do it with my heart or with my mind, I noe they will be there for me. Sure there will be times we disagree, but I believe that if I ever do not heed their advice and fall, they will still catch me when I fall. Believe is one of the most important things in a friendship that is so often overlooked. But I think most of my friends have not overlooked this fundamental quality of believing in me. Hence that’s the best thing abt them.
What is in store for this weekend?
Title: Stupid Cupid
Artiste: Mandy Moore
Now is the weekend. And I determined not to be struck by cupid's love arrows. No. The only thing in store for my cupid is a holiday. A well deserved, long holiday and stay far away from me.
What song describes you?
Title: The Gift
Artiste: Blue
"And the gift is what you get by givin' more than you receive. And you're learnin' fast that maybe this is how you'll be happy. 'Cause in takin' everything you lost, the air you need to breath. But in givin' it away, you found the precious thing you seek."
This chorus speaks enough for me. It describes me because I think it is always impt to give more than receive because when I give, I feel I found the thing I have been looking for through the smiles and happiness of others.
To describe your grandparents?
Title: Have a nice day
Artiste: Bon Jovi
Yea yea..my grandparents are juz LIKE THAT! The starting of the song is "who are you to tell me if its black or white" and the chorus goes "if the world gets in my face, I say have a nice day!" They NEVER back down no matter what happens. I guess that is where I get my stubbornness. Imagine, my grandma injured her leg and she stills want to jaywalk..what does that tells you?
How is your life going?
Title: Dou Jiang You Tiao
Artiste: JJ Lin
I dunno what this song means. And I really cannot come up with any excuse, even if it is nonsense, for this song to be with relation to the qn. Can someone pls tell me instead? Err..okay..JJ Lin is confused in the song. Coz he doesn't noe what the girl is actually thinking of, as in, whether she likes him or not. So I am confused right not with life. True true.
What song will they play at your funeral?
Title: Perfect
Artiste: Simple Plan
A perfectionist will want a perfect song to be played at the deathbed. So the song PERFECT comes up. However, the opening sentence is "hey dad look at me, think back and talk to me. Did I grow up according to plan?"
I dun think I want my dad to look at me when I am dead and ask himself if I grew up according to plan. Dun think it is right that a parent shud bury their kid. Their only child. too tragic. But I wud wanna noe if I grew up according to plan.
How does the world see you?
Title: Catch Your Wave
Artiste: The Click Five
Does that mean I am moving too fast for the world to catch me? oOpS! Sorry Mr. World! Will try to slow down if you slow down Mr. Time for me. haha.
"hey girl I wanna catch your wave..hey girl I wanna drift away with you"
ooo..the world wanna drift away with me. I dun mind. Lol.
Will you have a happy life?
Title: Yi Shou Jian Dan De Ge
Artiste: Wang Lee Hom
This song is about keeping happiness. so if I write a simple song, I will be happy..haha.No la. I think this song is trying to tell me that if I do not think things so complicatedly or in complex forms and just focus on the simple things in life, I will lead a happy life. Of coz. Who wudnt be? But how often do you see pple doing that either?
What do your friends really think of you?
Title: Unbreakable
Artiste: Alicia KeysI dunno really whether to be happy or not that people see me as unbreakable. The people who appears to be the most unbreakable always tend to be the weakest. So hmm. But I think some do think I am unbreakable ba..haha..and truth is that maybe I am unbreakable afterall..like an boiled egg..hardened by the impacts of life.
Do people secretly lust after you?
Title: Heal The World
Artiste: Micheal Jackson
Great, the question is represented by a pedophile. He secretly lust after kids. So there shud be people who secretly lust after me. eww. I dun wanna crap more in this question. NEXT!
How can I make myself happy?
Title: This is my time
Artiste: Raven
Summarizing the whole song, it is a girl rising from her fall and becoming independent and realizing her dream. By trusting my heart, I can change things. Yes. I believe in myself and this will make me happy. Overcoming all these things, I will finally find my wings and know I am ready to fly.
What should you do with your life?
Title: At The Beginning
Artiste: Richard Marx and Donna Lewis
"Life is a road And I want to keep going Love is a river I wanna keep flowing Life is the road Now and forever Wonderful journey I'll be there When the world stops turning I'll be there When the storm is through In the end I wanna be standing At the beginning with you"
I wanna keep going on in life, no matter how hard it is gonna be, even when at times, I wanna break down, I will keep going. So that I can stand at the beginning with you. But I dunno who is the you?? Haha. I only noe I will keep going in life ba..to realize my dream. Maybe the "YOU" refers to my dream.
Will you ever have children?
Title: Year 3000
Artiste: Busted
Haha..yes I will have children. And my children will have children and they will have their children. How I know? Because a guy has came back from the year 3000 and told me that my "great great great grand daughter is pretty fine". Surely she isn’t a mermaid? haha. And I even noe that the pple will be living in under water in the year 3000. Goodness. I have a gorgeous descendant. Cheers to the world.
finally i finished it. yayz.
Saturday, October 07, 2006
“Except for you”
She promised a few friends of mine that after she got this problem sorted out, the answer would be on her blog. She dunno exactly how much courage she have to put this letter up, but if anyone else is reading this now, it means the valor within her has finally risen.
At first, she tot it was going to be easy, juz writing out exactly what she is feeling at this point in time, at this moment. But she realized that such emotions weren’t exactly all that effortless to be phrased out in words after all. Maybe that’s the reason why so many people can say the words “I hate” but not the words “I love” and she is sure, many wud agree that unrequited love is even more tedious to spell it out.
She doesn’t deny; She isn’t only irritated, but she is also pissed off, indignant and betrayed by what she presumed ought to be her own stupidity. Yet she has never wanted to admit it. That it was her stupidity that caused all this mess. She chooses to live in her world of denial. The world that wud tell her, console her and envelop her with the falsehood that it is you who caused her this misery. Not herself.
Your words still ring in her head, all the time, esp. the words “except for you”. The irony of it all was that you didn’t say it to her. No. You said it to her friend. But she got to know it nonetheless and whenever the pain is overwhelming, she stubbornly chooses not to cry, but instead bury herself in her self-found truckload of work to do. She asked herself, what has become of her? The one who seeks to find the adrenaline rush of life? The one whom everyone knew as the girl with a goal, an ambition, and a drive in life? All of that, during that past months, has decomposed into this sloppy, dazed and silly girl with life-compass gone haywire. And because she is able to wear a mask to fool the world perfectly, no one knows the real depth of her true problems. Not even those she confided in.
But she cannot fool herself.
This morning she woke up with a new fiery within her. The fiery that she lost a few months back. She knew it was time to move on. She cannot keep wallowing in her misery and gloom. She was to take control of her life once again. A lot of things were waiting for her to be done. And so many people were awaiting her call to carry on with the stuff appointed to them to do. Yet, she had selfishly put all of these on hold because of her confused moments. You should be proud of yourself to be able to cause her to create havoc in her life. Seldom does she allow people to do that. She suppose she may never know if that was a real liking for you or perhaps a moment of folly, because if it was any real liking, the determination to get over you wudnt be so fast. And to choose to think of it as a moment of fetish or mania, cud be due to the pride soul within her. But nonetheless, she has fallen and she is rising. And most importantly, no one, no one will stop her now.
Being the strong believer that she is in star signs, her horoscope says for tomorrow,
Sunday, October 08, 2006
If you've been off doing your own thing lately, you might find yourself starting to experience a little self-doubt right now. You may be questioning whether or not you're on the right path, but it's probably too late to change direction. So just remember to keep your head pointed forward and do what you know is right.
She knew there and then, so long as she followed her mind, things would only get better and better. And with her friends, she will succeed.
She promised a few friends of mine that after she got this problem sorted out, the answer would be on her blog. She dunno exactly how much courage she have to put this letter up, but if anyone else is reading this now, it means the valor within her has finally risen.
At first, she tot it was going to be easy, juz writing out exactly what she is feeling at this point in time, at this moment. But she realized that such emotions weren’t exactly all that effortless to be phrased out in words after all. Maybe that’s the reason why so many people can say the words “I hate” but not the words “I love” and she is sure, many wud agree that unrequited love is even more tedious to spell it out.
She doesn’t deny; She isn’t only irritated, but she is also pissed off, indignant and betrayed by what she presumed ought to be her own stupidity. Yet she has never wanted to admit it. That it was her stupidity that caused all this mess. She chooses to live in her world of denial. The world that wud tell her, console her and envelop her with the falsehood that it is you who caused her this misery. Not herself.
Your words still ring in her head, all the time, esp. the words “except for you”. The irony of it all was that you didn’t say it to her. No. You said it to her friend. But she got to know it nonetheless and whenever the pain is overwhelming, she stubbornly chooses not to cry, but instead bury herself in her self-found truckload of work to do. She asked herself, what has become of her? The one who seeks to find the adrenaline rush of life? The one whom everyone knew as the girl with a goal, an ambition, and a drive in life? All of that, during that past months, has decomposed into this sloppy, dazed and silly girl with life-compass gone haywire. And because she is able to wear a mask to fool the world perfectly, no one knows the real depth of her true problems. Not even those she confided in.
But she cannot fool herself.
This morning she woke up with a new fiery within her. The fiery that she lost a few months back. She knew it was time to move on. She cannot keep wallowing in her misery and gloom. She was to take control of her life once again. A lot of things were waiting for her to be done. And so many people were awaiting her call to carry on with the stuff appointed to them to do. Yet, she had selfishly put all of these on hold because of her confused moments. You should be proud of yourself to be able to cause her to create havoc in her life. Seldom does she allow people to do that. She suppose she may never know if that was a real liking for you or perhaps a moment of folly, because if it was any real liking, the determination to get over you wudnt be so fast. And to choose to think of it as a moment of fetish or mania, cud be due to the pride soul within her. But nonetheless, she has fallen and she is rising. And most importantly, no one, no one will stop her now.
Being the strong believer that she is in star signs, her horoscope says for tomorrow,
Sunday, October 08, 2006
If you've been off doing your own thing lately, you might find yourself starting to experience a little self-doubt right now. You may be questioning whether or not you're on the right path, but it's probably too late to change direction. So just remember to keep your head pointed forward and do what you know is right.
She knew there and then, so long as she followed her mind, things would only get better and better. And with her friends, she will succeed.
Friday, October 06, 2006
yeapz..i suppose cheng en is right. i haven been updating my blog for eons. but i suppose i will start to from today onwards. anw, i have changed my blog layout, hope you guys like it :)
woke up to a rather gloomy start in the morning due to previous incidence. and somehow, it managed to affect my health. yeapz. oh wellz. maybe i will tok abt it in my next entry. for now, i am super sleepy now. turning in. good night :)
woke up to a rather gloomy start in the morning due to previous incidence. and somehow, it managed to affect my health. yeapz. oh wellz. maybe i will tok abt it in my next entry. for now, i am super sleepy now. turning in. good night :)
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
wierd things come along at wierd times. if we were to be able to plan when and how things happen, i suppose the things that happen wud not seem wierd to us any longer. like right now, i am suppose to be a good girl and do my I & R so that i wun hafta give that sheepish look to mrs lee tml morning. but i am here blogging. okie. maybe i will juz blog and contd to do my I & R LATER..
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i have originally written a whole chunk of passage in place of the ". . ." but i deleted them away. because i simply cannot bear to share it with anyone and i dun wanna hafta think of the comments pple will give after reading. besides, this is not the first time i have deleted after writing an entry. so yepz.
i am starting to feel that there is no use of me trying to blog anymore. coz i am so conscious abt wad others will think of me after they read it. what is the point of writing things that are superficial? and wad is the point when you cannot actually say what you really feel abt someone or something without receiving any snide remarks from others?
what is the real point?
lets side track.
the other day, while i was going home, i was stoning while listening a song being played on Power 98. tot that song really suit me and the current situation i am in. but i cant think of that song now. and it is getting on my nerve. i can see the blue vein poppin at the side of my head.
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i have originally written a whole chunk of passage in place of the ". . ." but i deleted them away. because i simply cannot bear to share it with anyone and i dun wanna hafta think of the comments pple will give after reading. besides, this is not the first time i have deleted after writing an entry. so yepz.
i am starting to feel that there is no use of me trying to blog anymore. coz i am so conscious abt wad others will think of me after they read it. what is the point of writing things that are superficial? and wad is the point when you cannot actually say what you really feel abt someone or something without receiving any snide remarks from others?
what is the real point?
lets side track.
the other day, while i was going home, i was stoning while listening a song being played on Power 98. tot that song really suit me and the current situation i am in. but i cant think of that song now. and it is getting on my nerve. i can see the blue vein poppin at the side of my head.
Sunday, September 17, 2006
there is so many stuff i wish i could put up on my blog. but yet limited by so many people and things around me. why is life always so difficult to comprehend? or maybe the prob is lies with me that i think too much into things. but i am rather certain that if i were to tell this to another friend, she or he wud prob agree that such stuff are best avoided on blogs as well. it doesnt take the brain to comprehend that one. so how shall i face it in a way that will make the world please with me and me pleased with the world?
someone please tell me.
the most ironic thing that can ever happen right now is that the person tells me how to tell the world.
someone please tell me.
the most ironic thing that can ever happen right now is that the person tells me how to tell the world.
Friday, September 08, 2006
life is indeed a mystery and the world is indeed small. today i went for a one-day physics crash course. met melinda there. both of us didnt noe that the other had actually signed up for the same tuition. so we had sat together and went a lil wild at times. haha..but the teacher was wild thruout the whole time. at first, i tot he was mental coz he kept slamming chairs into walls, pens against boards, dusters across rooms and markers against floor. then i sorta adapted to it after a while.
finally sent the script for the play on transvestite for my GP proj to my memb. so far, only grace replied. the rest are lost in eutopia. :/ lol.
0613 juz asked cynthia and me to go for chalet on the 08th to 10th of october. *squeals* so excited! i wanna go!! haha..i think it is so sweet of them to rmb us la..and we are only required to pay half the price of they are paying. cynthia and i feel a lil pai seh. a lil only. maybe we will pay the same as them? dunno...hope i can go. i told them see the promo outcome first. if i lost the battle halfway, i will join them spiritually.. ahaha. anw...whoo hoo! i wanna go chalet!
finally sent the script for the play on transvestite for my GP proj to my memb. so far, only grace replied. the rest are lost in eutopia. :/ lol.
0613 juz asked cynthia and me to go for chalet on the 08th to 10th of october. *squeals* so excited! i wanna go!! haha..i think it is so sweet of them to rmb us la..and we are only required to pay half the price of they are paying. cynthia and i feel a lil pai seh. a lil only. maybe we will pay the same as them? dunno...hope i can go. i told them see the promo outcome first. if i lost the battle halfway, i will join them spiritually.. ahaha. anw...whoo hoo! i wanna go chalet!
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
recently, it seems that everything is crashing down in my house. my camera spoilt, my camera battery is not working, my camera memory cards are all spoilt, my com is a lil nutty, my house phone is a lil jam (thank goodness for the spare phones!) and i simply cant wait to see which is the next thing to come crashin down... aniwaez, i had actually wanted to take a few shots of all the presents and lovely cards given by my relatives and friends for my birthday but well...as u can tell, the camera is basically under construction. so i will leave that till another day:) meantime, these are my lil notes of thanks to everyone out there for their lovely well wishes and gifts.
Family & Relatives:
1. daddy and mummy
i suppose there is really nothin betta than to have ur parents take time off their busy schedule to have dinner with you in a nice restaurant. yea. i think there is really nothin else to ask for. so thank you for spending time with me. Love you guys to bits.
2. my aunts
my aunts actually came together and gave me a pair of earrings..haha..looks like the coloured-stones earring from SK jewelry...my daddy says the earrings are bigger than my face..wads the point...bleaugh, he's juz jealous. anyways, i juz made my round of calling to my aunts to thank them for the gift. actually, to be honest, i am rather awkward when saying my thanks to them. not all though...juz some...esp my fourth aunt...ahaha..perhaps its the lack of interaction, i presume. juz now, when i called her, after rambling thru wadeva i had to say nervously, there was juz silence over the phone and i didnt even noe if it was okie to say good bye there and then. sigh. In the past, we use to have family gathering every Sunday at my grandma's hse. Now that the hse is sold and everything has changed, relationships have changed too. kinda miss those good ole days.
3. my cousin
However, I suppose despite all that is lost, one thing has perhaps improved and that is my kinship with one of my cousins..yupz. aniwaez, he got me a bookmark and a card this year...even got my third aunt to drive all the way to my hse to mail it personally. so adorable. my aunt even came up with a special printed postage of her own. haha. i suppose, my third aunt and this cousin of mine are the closest relatives i have compared to the rest. yea.
4. my 1st god brother and family
well i suppose this yr is a different yr. afterall, both of my god brothers are married so i suppose these are 2 of the relationship changes i will soon have to get used to. No more big cuddly soft toys or watches or wadeva it may be. my godma gave me a red packet instead..my 1st god bro brought me out for dinner with the rest of the family. 2nd god bro wasnt there as he was at his mother-in-law place.
Friends
1. The sms-es
lets start off with the sms-es. haha...okie..i admit. i am one of those desperate freaks that stay up past midnight juz to wait for my frenz to send me midnight smses, wishing me happy birthday. and the first to wish me this yr is CALLY! yay..haha...xiu xuan told me the next day in school that the dot-ka-dotz actually wanted to stay up and wish me happy birthday. but apparently most knocked off to bed even b4 the stroke of midnight. haha..aniwaez, it's the thought that counts. a special shout out to those who sms-ed: cally(0626), cynthia(0626), chin ping(0626), yun qian(OG23, O1), shi min(0626), phan shei(0626), audrey a.k.a small bao-zy(0626), charmaine tay(chij), julian(OGL of OG23, O1), marianne wong a.k.a ah wong(chij), carine(0626), chua(chij), geks(chij), leonard(0613), jacynth(chij), neetha(NYEDC), eileen(chij), sheena(OGL facil leader), angie(chij), kai ling(chij), cheng en(0626) & kimmy(chij).
and a special highlight to carine for being so sweet to send me happy birthday twice - one arnd the start of my birthday at 12:45:16 AM and another at the near end of my birthday at 9:13:43 PM. *hugs* love loads
to my ben / buddy: thanks for the virtual cake yea. i noe u cant bake but one thing is for sure - it is sweet enuff :)
2. 0626-ians
31st aug is actually teacher's day celebration but u guys actually stayed back to celebrate my birthday...even if it was a short while, it meant eternity. really appreciated it. and haha...for the fruit cake as well. My fridge was unable to store all 5 boxes of birthday cakes (for me) and teachers' day cake (for my mom) so haha...it was madness at my house the other day. We had a cake eating buffet.
cally, small bao-zy, chin ping and wingx:
thank you so so much for the paper crane. haha..cant believe i actually fell for wing yan's lie that it was for their teachers in their sec skool. i mean..cally and wing yan came for DIFF schools...y didnt i think of that?...hmmm...slow. anw, tot that was very sweet.
for your info, my dad and i are fighting over the bottle u guys gave me. coz he wants to use it when he jogs. and i want to use it for my own. we have decided to settle our dispute over betting on who will win the european cup soccer match betw. England and Macedonia. winner takes the bottle. hmmph...its mine to begin with. oh yea...and not forgetting the earrings...EARRINGS! thank goodness it is earrings. at least my dad cant wear them. shall hide it from my mom. Haha..suddenly, my house seem to be looking rather chaotic.
and ooo...the baby cranes are so cute la..haha seems such a waste to open them up. but den, if i dun, i will nvr get to see wad is written in there. dilemma dilemma.
and small bao-zy: thank you for the card and the small heart that glows. i hope it will be the same as our friendship ya...haha...i will give ya a big heart next time...lol
Dot-ka-dotz
ARGHHH! melinda designed a poster look-a-like on a vanguard sheet for me with the word "seventeen" written on it. I like that a lot...although I had a hard time lugging it home along with the crane.. haha..and attached along with it are the many well wishes from melinda herself, xiu xuan, cynthia, grace, adel and carine. All are such sweet letters..except a few nonsensical phrases here and there from adel and cynthia. thanks for all ur friendship u guys have given to me :) *frowns* cynthia...*squints eye*..u watch out...
cheng en gave hers seperately from the rest. haha..and can tell she spent a lot of time cuttin and trimming the border of her card. shall show u guys next time when the silly-goofy camera of mine is working.
haha...also received EARRINGS from dot-ka-dotz and another pair from grace. this birthday is a earring -receiving ceremony eh? haha...and also got a necklace from them as well. Really like that one...hope I can wear it soon. Wo de tian ar...when will that be manz..with all the exams flying here..nvm. come to the worst, I will wear it to the exam hall. Nothing will stop me...
and to those who wished me in school...err..like...samuel, ren jie, yee jin, henry, pt.. thanks for rmb:)
3. CHIJ sec school frenz
went to Thai express for lunch with kai ling, geks, chua, grace, ah wong and geok hian. my lunch is paid for. yea..that was a surprise. coz if i known it wud happen, i prob wud choose somewhere more expensive....i mean, cheaper. yea. so felt quite pai seh. Charmaine is still hilarious as usual. From wad I heard, she tot we were meeting on 1st September and had actually agreed to the whole plan only to realize last min when she was wishin me happy bdae that we were suppose to meet on 31st August instead. Haha...and she had late day. So she didnt come. Wad can I say, she is one busy woman.
After that, we went Kbox...and it was super duper wheepy whooper embarrassing coz they went to pick a birthday song and sang to me. And the waiter juz had to come in to refill our snacks there and den. Great. Goodness...that music video was so old to the extent that the people in the video had thick and clear plastic glasses and skirts were pulled above the waist. Yes...its the ah-go-go era. But overall, we had fun. Esp when we saw the MV by pan wei bo intro by chua...forget the title liaoz. I think it is something wad chilli wad curry...something like that. Everyone went high...whoo!
angie
Basically, that was how my birthday was spent. When I came home, I actually found a present from angie, who is also my 15th neighbour, and si ying. Yupz. Both were my pri school frenz. Tot it was so thoughtful of them. Later on around 11pm, I actually gave a call to angie and she came down to unwrap all the presents with me!! Haha..den at 11:30pm, her mom came to bring her up and we talked throughout the whole night on the phone till 2:30am. Haha. chatterboxes on red alert.
kai ling
Yea and before I forget, another shout-out to kai ling for baking cookies (for the first time) and trying to stuff them down the throat of my letter box. Need I tell everyone wad happen? She tried to shove 15 pieces of cookie wrapped in aluminum foil into the letter box and when she cudnt fit it in, she unwrapped, ate some, and wrapped up again till the cookies can fit into the letter box. Haha. and when the cookies dropped into the letter box, the wrapper actually gave way and the cookie made a mess in my letter box. Got quite a shock when I opened it. haha. but I tot that was very cute. Ahha..managed to salvage quite a few cookies and was able to give my two-cent worth to my shi-fu. Haha..anw, thanks load kai ling for that! *hugs*
k…this is the longest entry I have written in eons. But its worth it. shall take the pictures of the presents asap. Come to the worst, I will borrow camera..
love loads, hugs loads,
vanessa out
Family & Relatives:
1. daddy and mummy
i suppose there is really nothin betta than to have ur parents take time off their busy schedule to have dinner with you in a nice restaurant. yea. i think there is really nothin else to ask for. so thank you for spending time with me. Love you guys to bits.
2. my aunts
my aunts actually came together and gave me a pair of earrings..haha..looks like the coloured-stones earring from SK jewelry...my daddy says the earrings are bigger than my face..wads the point...bleaugh, he's juz jealous. anyways, i juz made my round of calling to my aunts to thank them for the gift. actually, to be honest, i am rather awkward when saying my thanks to them. not all though...juz some...esp my fourth aunt...ahaha..perhaps its the lack of interaction, i presume. juz now, when i called her, after rambling thru wadeva i had to say nervously, there was juz silence over the phone and i didnt even noe if it was okie to say good bye there and then. sigh. In the past, we use to have family gathering every Sunday at my grandma's hse. Now that the hse is sold and everything has changed, relationships have changed too. kinda miss those good ole days.
3. my cousin
However, I suppose despite all that is lost, one thing has perhaps improved and that is my kinship with one of my cousins..yupz. aniwaez, he got me a bookmark and a card this year...even got my third aunt to drive all the way to my hse to mail it personally. so adorable. my aunt even came up with a special printed postage of her own. haha. i suppose, my third aunt and this cousin of mine are the closest relatives i have compared to the rest. yea.
4. my 1st god brother and family
well i suppose this yr is a different yr. afterall, both of my god brothers are married so i suppose these are 2 of the relationship changes i will soon have to get used to. No more big cuddly soft toys or watches or wadeva it may be. my godma gave me a red packet instead..my 1st god bro brought me out for dinner with the rest of the family. 2nd god bro wasnt there as he was at his mother-in-law place.
Friends
1. The sms-es
lets start off with the sms-es. haha...okie..i admit. i am one of those desperate freaks that stay up past midnight juz to wait for my frenz to send me midnight smses, wishing me happy birthday. and the first to wish me this yr is CALLY! yay..haha...xiu xuan told me the next day in school that the dot-ka-dotz actually wanted to stay up and wish me happy birthday. but apparently most knocked off to bed even b4 the stroke of midnight. haha..aniwaez, it's the thought that counts. a special shout out to those who sms-ed: cally(0626), cynthia(0626), chin ping(0626), yun qian(OG23, O1), shi min(0626), phan shei(0626), audrey a.k.a small bao-zy(0626), charmaine tay(chij), julian(OGL of OG23, O1), marianne wong a.k.a ah wong(chij), carine(0626), chua(chij), geks(chij), leonard(0613), jacynth(chij), neetha(NYEDC), eileen(chij), sheena(OGL facil leader), angie(chij), kai ling(chij), cheng en(0626) & kimmy(chij).
and a special highlight to carine for being so sweet to send me happy birthday twice - one arnd the start of my birthday at 12:45:16 AM and another at the near end of my birthday at 9:13:43 PM. *hugs* love loads
to my ben / buddy: thanks for the virtual cake yea. i noe u cant bake but one thing is for sure - it is sweet enuff :)
2. 0626-ians
31st aug is actually teacher's day celebration but u guys actually stayed back to celebrate my birthday...even if it was a short while, it meant eternity. really appreciated it. and haha...for the fruit cake as well. My fridge was unable to store all 5 boxes of birthday cakes (for me) and teachers' day cake (for my mom) so haha...it was madness at my house the other day. We had a cake eating buffet.
cally, small bao-zy, chin ping and wingx:
thank you so so much for the paper crane. haha..cant believe i actually fell for wing yan's lie that it was for their teachers in their sec skool. i mean..cally and wing yan came for DIFF schools...y didnt i think of that?...hmmm...slow. anw, tot that was very sweet.
for your info, my dad and i are fighting over the bottle u guys gave me. coz he wants to use it when he jogs. and i want to use it for my own. we have decided to settle our dispute over betting on who will win the european cup soccer match betw. England and Macedonia. winner takes the bottle. hmmph...its mine to begin with. oh yea...and not forgetting the earrings...EARRINGS! thank goodness it is earrings. at least my dad cant wear them. shall hide it from my mom. Haha..suddenly, my house seem to be looking rather chaotic.
and ooo...the baby cranes are so cute la..haha seems such a waste to open them up. but den, if i dun, i will nvr get to see wad is written in there. dilemma dilemma.
and small bao-zy: thank you for the card and the small heart that glows. i hope it will be the same as our friendship ya...haha...i will give ya a big heart next time...lol
Dot-ka-dotz
ARGHHH! melinda designed a poster look-a-like on a vanguard sheet for me with the word "seventeen" written on it. I like that a lot...although I had a hard time lugging it home along with the crane.. haha..and attached along with it are the many well wishes from melinda herself, xiu xuan, cynthia, grace, adel and carine. All are such sweet letters..except a few nonsensical phrases here and there from adel and cynthia. thanks for all ur friendship u guys have given to me :) *frowns* cynthia...*squints eye*..u watch out...
cheng en gave hers seperately from the rest. haha..and can tell she spent a lot of time cuttin and trimming the border of her card. shall show u guys next time when the silly-goofy camera of mine is working.
haha...also received EARRINGS from dot-ka-dotz and another pair from grace. this birthday is a earring -receiving ceremony eh? haha...and also got a necklace from them as well. Really like that one...hope I can wear it soon. Wo de tian ar...when will that be manz..with all the exams flying here..nvm. come to the worst, I will wear it to the exam hall. Nothing will stop me...
and to those who wished me in school...err..like...samuel, ren jie, yee jin, henry, pt.. thanks for rmb:)
3. CHIJ sec school frenz
went to Thai express for lunch with kai ling, geks, chua, grace, ah wong and geok hian. my lunch is paid for. yea..that was a surprise. coz if i known it wud happen, i prob wud choose somewhere more expensive....i mean, cheaper. yea. so felt quite pai seh. Charmaine is still hilarious as usual. From wad I heard, she tot we were meeting on 1st September and had actually agreed to the whole plan only to realize last min when she was wishin me happy bdae that we were suppose to meet on 31st August instead. Haha...and she had late day. So she didnt come. Wad can I say, she is one busy woman.
After that, we went Kbox...and it was super duper wheepy whooper embarrassing coz they went to pick a birthday song and sang to me. And the waiter juz had to come in to refill our snacks there and den. Great. Goodness...that music video was so old to the extent that the people in the video had thick and clear plastic glasses and skirts were pulled above the waist. Yes...its the ah-go-go era. But overall, we had fun. Esp when we saw the MV by pan wei bo intro by chua...forget the title liaoz. I think it is something wad chilli wad curry...something like that. Everyone went high...whoo!
angie
Basically, that was how my birthday was spent. When I came home, I actually found a present from angie, who is also my 15th neighbour, and si ying. Yupz. Both were my pri school frenz. Tot it was so thoughtful of them. Later on around 11pm, I actually gave a call to angie and she came down to unwrap all the presents with me!! Haha..den at 11:30pm, her mom came to bring her up and we talked throughout the whole night on the phone till 2:30am. Haha. chatterboxes on red alert.
kai ling
Yea and before I forget, another shout-out to kai ling for baking cookies (for the first time) and trying to stuff them down the throat of my letter box. Need I tell everyone wad happen? She tried to shove 15 pieces of cookie wrapped in aluminum foil into the letter box and when she cudnt fit it in, she unwrapped, ate some, and wrapped up again till the cookies can fit into the letter box. Haha. and when the cookies dropped into the letter box, the wrapper actually gave way and the cookie made a mess in my letter box. Got quite a shock when I opened it. haha. but I tot that was very cute. Ahha..managed to salvage quite a few cookies and was able to give my two-cent worth to my shi-fu. Haha..anw, thanks load kai ling for that! *hugs*
k…this is the longest entry I have written in eons. But its worth it. shall take the pictures of the presents asap. Come to the worst, I will borrow camera..
love loads, hugs loads,
vanessa out
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