Monday, July 31, 2006

hey hey...dun really have any thing to say right now...juz feel like adding a redundant entry to mr. bloggie. heh heh. listening to "superwoman" by cao ge now from my measly collection of chinese songs. its one of the nicest songs outta all the chinese songs i suppose. *smirks*
feel like a secretary right now after warming the com. armchair since 6:20 pm. sighs. so many admin stuff to handle and things to print and stuff to handle. i wish i was a real superwoman sometimes. den in a blink of a eye, a snap of a finger and *ARBISH!* tada!! and everything is completed. reality hurts.
PS: to audrey
Heh heh..OoPs! perhaps I really forgot to upload the pictures from yee jin and chin ping bdae. Never mind. FEAR NOT! I will try to get it uploaded asap yeapz. Need time ya..maybe when I upload it, I will let ya noe k?

Friday, July 28, 2006

it was only when i turned on my com. juz one min ago did i realise i haven actually gone online for one week. well, dis week was a wierd tiring week for me. things and incidents seem to manuoever their chronological order and clash all at the same time within one split second of the motionless equibrium of time. and dats when all my despair, frantic-ness and madness turn abt.
during gp tutorial, we learnt that bloggin is one of the way in which normal beings, regardless of their age group, gender or race are able to become journalist in their world. well, i suppose one thing that begs differ from the normal typical journalists is the fact that some of us will put how others view us as one of the priority when we write our entries. however, since i am a so-called journalist now, let me try put this entry in view of how others will think as well.
today, i have decided to put my entry in context of a story i cooked up myself. its abt bonding between siblings.
there was a family of five siblings and one day, the fourth child did something that made their mother really angry and she was really sad abt it. so the second child suggested all five siblings went to apologise to the mother for making her angry. however, the last child strongly rejected the idea. he felt that y shud he even bother say sorry when he didnt do anything wrong. to make things worse, he even scoffed at the idea of apologising together. the first child also felt that there was no reason to apologise for he think that if he apologise, it meant that he did something wrong which he felt he obviously didnt do. however, the third child felt that since they were all siblings, under the same family, they ought to learn to see mistakes committed by each other as mistakes committed by all five siblings. so hand-in-hand, the second, third and fourth sibling went to apologise to their mother. and of coz she was happy.
today, KA went to put the tile up in the grandstand. it was fun tryin to chisel the wall with holes and messin up the whole place. haha. and jokes spread abt that we shud juz go in and tell mr cheng that we dun wanna put the tiles up anymore. boy! aint he gonna have a fit when he see wad destruction we have done to the walls. li sin even commented wad wud we do if the skool collapse becoz of this wall we are chiselling. haha. well, i suppose, there is nothin we can actually do since we are in the building and we wud prob die together as well. and as for those remaining survivors, we cant really help or ans to our crime since we are alr. dead. yepz. haha.
in the morning, was rather down that there wud be no time to go joggin this evening since i wud be home rather late due to the proj. however, the KA pple kept forgetting to bring so many things down from the tile room tt ben and i had to keep walking to the room which is located at the opp. end of the grandstand and six flights of stairs. so i suppose i got my exercise after all. but i guess its wasted coz i ate char kway tiao for dinner. god help me.
oh yes..drama finally cleaned the disgusting place outta drama room and we cleared all the junk we had and threw them outta the room. currently it is dumped outside the corrider which i presume is pissing the SC pple big time. betta get it sold to the newspaper man soon in case they start coming down on me...esp ben..cannot stand it when he nag. my gawd, KA is filled with SC. i muz be wary. and while clearing, we found a whole bag of facial tissue that is supposedly supposed to be used for drama night / SYF. however, we didnt used all. so we decided to give the CNNY people since they were always on camera. HOWEVER, something disastrous cropped up! the facial tissue ARE EXPIRED! OH NO! dead.. a kind gesture of good will has led to an action deemed as cheeky and michievous. and since i am both of that, they WILL most prob think i did that on purpose. nvm. i apologised to lewis alr. good.
i hope chua and i will have time to go shoppin soon. there is so much i wanna tell her. if only time was still.

Saturday, July 22, 2006

i realise that previous entry has managed to create an uprise in excitement in a certain being as seen from my guestbook...hmmm...well...i dunno wad to say...haha.. wonder how was her competition today?? maybe will go poke my nose into her business later. hee.
aniwaez, in case u guys didnt noe, kelsey will be having a BBQ in singapore in aug. she wrote it in the guestbook..in case u guys didnt notice...anione going? inform her k?
k...that was the advertising i was suppose to weeks ago. finally i am done.
hmmmz...recently i am havin a paranoid feeling whenever i open emails. perhaps it is due to the aftermath i experience a few weeks ago when one of my frenz actually sent me a email containing ghost pictures. yesh... i rmb myself jumping outta the chair and running out to the living room screaming. it took me quite a long while to recover too. good thing was that there were comedy shows to watch at that time so i manage to get my mind off the pictures. as u all can see, i am easily freaked out by such things. u can say i am nonsensical, my faith is not strong, i am silly...WADEVA...but! i will be very thankful if none of u will ever sent me such creepy emails. i am very sensitive when it concerns such issues. so please. i dun think i will look thru any of the remaining emails oredy. okay...maybe those sent by pple i trust like chua, kai ling, grace, changkity and so on.
just when to click a email with the caption "absolutelyfantasticpictures.ppt" and when the ppt finished downloading, my whole screen went pitch black and i...yes...freaked out AGAIN...without a moment of hesitation, i hit the ctrl-alt-delete button without even clicking to see the pictures. i think i saw something like mountains blowing up b4 the window closed down...hmm...fantastic?? okie...maybe for geography students.
how to overcome this paranoia?

Friday, July 21, 2006

today i finally went to make my new ez-link card and wasted $19/- on that pathetic plastic. sigh. i hope there will still be some money left in my lost ez-link card when i go and retrieve the cash next week. who knows? maybe that person who was cheapskate enuff to eye on my wallet with only $5 dollars in it went to McDonalds and used the balance in my card to splurge on the happy meal of somethin like that...that meano....
my arm is aching from the volleyball i played on thursday during P.E...i wonder with the rest of the girls' arm aching too? or izit only me?? maybe is due to the lack of arm muscles...maybe shud join petanque to gain the bulge..hmm...

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

today, i decided to juz take a day off from the hectic skool life and juz simply retire into the comforts of my sanctuary - my room. okay...i suppose its only half a day. but still i guess its still good. and only then did it suddenly dawn upon me that my room has turned into a junkyard..or wads the title of the story i learnt in sec skool lit..oh yes...THE WASTELAND. yes..and i am part of the waste.
so instead of a pleasant quiet relaxing afternoon, i mustered the last ounce of energy i had left in me and started packing the waste. and lets juz say that in a wasteland sometimes, u may just find metals that are able to be recycled and in my sanctuary, i found a part of me that seem to have been chucked aside forgotten over the years .
as i was cleaning out the whole closet and cupboards, missing pages that had fallen out from my diary, past diaries, vcds, novels and secretly penned down thoughts all resurfaced within the next one hour. call me a daydreamer but "romeo and juliet", "a walk to remember", "pride and prejudice" were once my favourite past-time novels and i could spent endless long hours pouring tears of joy, sadness, laughter over every single word the author articulate and anticipating the very next happening of the story. also, i found what was known to be a non-understandable novel - "to kill a mockingbird". haha. come to think of it, i rmb buying it along with pride and prejudice. i suppose it was under the spur of the moment when u suddenly feel that no english language can ever possibly put u down that made me bought it. and if i am not wrong, i stopped at page 15. maybe i will try to read it again now. hopefully, my english now will be able to at least let me understand till page 45. and then perhaps when i reach 20 yrs old den i contd readin till pg 100 and so on.
oh yea, and i actually had a queer habit of putting down the date and time i bought the books.
"pride and prejudice" & "to kill a mockingbird" was bought on the 17th of july, 1998; 4:30 pm.
"romeo and juliet" was bought on the 23rd of Dec, 2000; 10:00 am. (tts on my mummy's bdae)
its funny tt in sec 4, my eng teacher had actually shown the video on "pride and prejudice" british production, and i actually have no recollection at all that i read the book. talk abt ageing. i guess i will be the first to suffer from dementia.
and juz to think that i literally cried for 2 days continuously for two strangers that lived in different centuries and continent from me (romeo and juliet), and perhaps nvr existed, just make me speechless. i think i was a lil mad then, durin my childhood. but then again, i dun think i am any betta now.
throughout the whole afternoon, i had been wondering to myself: if i had loved this part of me, being the daydreamer that i am, why did i lose it in the first place? perhaps i realise that i didnt have the time to daydream anymore. perhaps i realise that i didn't want to daydream anymore. perhaps i didn't believe in it anymore...perhaps perhaps.but i suppose i will try to recycle that part now that i know where did i misplace it, coz i liked to daydream..haha...sounds stupid. its juz a nicer word for stoning. really.
ANYWAYZ, juz a tot:
"its the heart afraid of breaking that never learns to dance, It's the dream afraid of waking that never takes a chance it's the mind afraid of losing that never learns to give, and it's the soul afraid of dying that never learns to live."

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Today was a super happening day. Lets list all the things that happen one by one.
Today was elections day. Being the usual me, I was the nervous wreck as I always am. But there are pple called frenz. So life was simpler, betta and less stressful. Oh..and I was running for the role of vice-presidency in my english drama club. So the interview came for me to enter into the room of 4-30. well, the seniors didn't really made it as stressful as I tot and they were all actually, fab. *thumbs up*
And the grueling part came when all of us were slouching, worn out by the qns that bombarded into our faces, impatiently and anxiously awaiting the verdict.
Yeapz.. I made it into ex-co. but I was elected to be the President of English drama club instead of vice-president, which I have fervently prayed for. Seems weird not to run for that role yet appointed to that responsibility. Actually, I haven't really been mentally prepared or mentally accepted the role of the President. But I suppose I will in due time. or at least I HAVE TO. Ben said he will be there to support me if I get over-stressed. Haha..lets see him try taking the brunt of my violent abuse. Lol. Somehow, some part of me is still suspiciously waiting for the expected phone call to tell me they have announced the wrong results. When that happens, be sure that the blog will be the first to announce the mistake.
Neetha is the Vice-President of English drama club *cheers* I presume I shall be working extremely close with her from now on. I think I am lucky to have a partner who worked with me thru SYF and Drama Night as my Vice-President. It sure beats anyone whom I hardly interact with. Hmm...perhaps on second tot, I think that based on the personality of the members in drama, I can work with everyone but I guess it juz boils down to a matter of time. coz some are new and I hardly have the time to tok to them. So for neetha and me, the priority to bond and have the chemistry to do things together is not so impt now coz we had so much time to bond when we went shopping for clothes and set for drama. Not to mention our endless complaints to each other when we are super tired. so we kinda noe each other's character well enuff to work with each other well. Yeapz.
Today I almost received one of the worst news of my life. But it didn't come. I guess it wud sooner or later. I betta think of an excuse to get out of it. I say excuse coz there is no reason. But I hope they wun ask. So I wun tell. And the matter will juz remain a mystery. Or they may have forgotten wad I told them in the first place so this may be a new news to them. Which is oso a good thing.
Or alternatively, they may rmb wad I said, but keep quiet or dun bother and leave me alone. Which is good too. I presume..
Bet no one in the entire world understand a single word they are reading.
Which is good as well.
Also, today I learnt somethings. Isn't it ironic that pple have the tendency to call others hypocrites and liars when they themselves have been like that at least ten times in that entire week? I mean the fact that u dun actually speak ur mind shows that u are a hypocrite...isnt it? Well, its nothing directly related to the happenings of today. Juz some actions by some people that unintentionally triggered the tot. Actually, I kinda admire those who dun care abt wad others think, even if it hurts, and juz speak their minds. I mean, how many can actually do that?

Sunday, July 09, 2006

sigh...today is a sian sian day. there is so much for me to do..and yet i spent the whole morning and afternoon and prob night as well sitting in front of my com, sorting thru junk mails, emails, urgent mails that were sent on 1st june, and chain mails and even did some Q&A for carine and found out that chua and so so so many other people sent to me as well...and i almost wrote some of those names down on the Qn dat asked "who is the least likely person to sent the email back to u"..lucky didnt write their names down. if not SURE get suan wan...of coz they wun sent back to me...they sent me like in the month of june...sigh the worst is that sent that email accidentally to ben..my gawd...he will prob be thinking .."my buddy siao liao"...argh..forget it.
anyways, today is my buddy bdae. he prob wun see this entry aniwaez...BUT shall wish him a Happy Birthday on my blog. actually sent him a sms this morning liaoz. k...did my part. right which reminds me...i need to go errr...get a few things done for tomorrow. betta head on down to NTUC now...sigh. gotta get up from my comfy chair. i am so sian. i dun wanna do ANYTHING...geez...
btw, germany won. i told my dad to bet 3 -1 in favour of germany. he didnt believe my instincts...the woman instinct....TOO BAD...hhahaha...he cud have won..hope klose get his golden boot award..he is so awesome-ly cute...k...maybe not..but he is a good striker..
still love becks.

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

its really my fault really. thats the reason i guess why i didn't did wad i did for so long. and now, self discipline have finally succumb to my overwhelming curiousity. i tot it prevailed. i have only myself to blame. i even went to the archives. wad is wrong with me? i tot it is over.

its over.

and i dun want to speak of it every again.
i noe i promised to sleep. but i read something tt made me cudn't sleep again. i noe i will think of it again as i lay on my bed with my big yellow teddy..its my only comfort of the night.
i am a grumpy girl rite now cos i can't get any sleep and it is 12 : 28 am acc. to my monitor clock. plus there is school tml. ...actually, accurately sleeping...i mean accurately speaking, it shud be there is school today. i hope my pw grp implement power nap asap...i need it for tml...at first i tot of not sleeping and an insane part of me even tot of catching the football match at 3 am this morning. but after intensive calculations, i realised tt if i didn't sleep tonight, it means my (new) day supposedly started tonight..which my biological clock wud have recorded as morning. coz i slept at 3pm and woke up at 7 pm (as u can see, i have only myself to blame). den tml morning wud be seen as afternoon and afternoon as night. and the impt point to note is that, chem prac is in the afternoon...which means, since biologically it is night time for me, i wud need to sleep, tt means i am tired and tt means i wud be a high suspect or target for mr low. with that, i conclude i muz sleep tonight AT ALL COST...
chin ping said she shall sing lullaby for me to sleep. haha...dun think the song wud be effectively projected thru the msn. shall try a new method i innovated. recalling how physics teachers lecture in NYJC...that shud be an effective method. besides, it is cost effective, health effective (no pills) and efficiency rate is rather high. shall try it out..
today(ytd) is the last day of exams. the last paper i sat for was H1 econs. i tot i studied real hard for the exam. apparently i didn't understand much of wad was asked. not being paranoid (for once!) but is really dunno how to do. not that dunno whether got the correct analysis or not..is dunno the fundamentality of analysis. so maybe i am juz not cut out for econs. perhaps i shud have gone with passion and not instincts and take literature instead. after all, havent everyone often say..."passion is the driving force to success". yet there is a saying "women's instincts are the strongest."
self conflicting statements indeed.

Sunday, July 02, 2006

OH SHUT UP! ITS ENOUGH ALREADY!
recently, the "ancient" and "old" and "retired" fuddy duddies of england football have caught the best traits of singaporean's culture - COMPLAIN-ism. since the whole world cup thing started, there have been endless talks abt how beckham ought not to be playing in the top eleven. well..although i am a personally big fan of becks which makes me stand in a bias light no matter how much i wish to prove to u guys that i will be impartial, here is my two cents worth.
in the first place, how can u ever expect anyone to be excellent in everything he does? try figuring Einstein designing a dress for victoria secret models...i admit becks aint exactly good at tackling the ball or defending...but he is good at aiming the ball directly towards his players..and that is IMPORTANT...thats wad won him the MAN of the Match against trinidad! and who dare say his free kicks aint deadly?
and the old fuddy duddies mentioned that the players are not at their top form. my gawd. under a temp. of 31 C. , whoever can play under the sun for that long a time...pls step up and show me how u do that for 90 ++ mins. running up and down ..i wanna watch a miracle. the only reason why these ancient footballers dun understand the pain is becoz they used to play their ancient football at night...football has changed to day time now in case ur failing eyesights cudn't capture the sunlight. grrr
also, if u are playing for ur country under the eyes of the world, wudn't u be sufficiently stressed up by the constant media coverage on u and everything u do on and off the pitch? but the senior citizens had apparently too forgot how it felt like to play like that under billions of watchful eyes and they had to add comments that beckham aint doin well. right. he aint in his top form. i can see that from the many performances i watched him play. but alas, u cannot expect him to show u his skill if the ball constantly travels on the left hand side of the pitch and he is suppose to guard the right hand side..make sense? i noe i do. and he is tryin his best. the only reason he aint doing as well as he like...is becoz of these additional stress added on him. i think in such trying time, they shud have given their full support regardless of wadeva.
but i guess all these is coming to a stop now since england lost to portugal thru penalty kicks. during the match, becks got subst by lennon due to leg injury. he cried not becoz the leg hurt. he cried coz he didn't wanted to be subst. he even motioned to the england coach dat he was fine and gave a thumbs up. but he got subst anw. he cried. i sobbed...okay...i wailed. happy? den christiano ronaldo played dirty. he knew rooney had a bad temper and purposely when to agitate him when rooney accidentally fouled a player. rooney on the other hand was dumb enuff to fall for such a non-idiot proof trap. got sent out of the pitch with a red card. hence i hereby conclude an equation i have been long dying to proof to the world, that is,
stupidity kills
actually, the ref is darn bias la...coz he is an argentinian. and england went to war once with argentina. ugh. politics in sports. but thats not the pt. the pt is it was also this ref that sent beckham out with a red card last tournament. i knew it was gonna happen before the game begun. i dunno whether to feel happy or sad i am right...i might gleefully added one more point. so far, the reason why rooney hasn't been gettin into trouble is becoz beckham has been there to pull him away from the disaster he is abt to get himself into. so did i unintentionally increased an extra point for the usefulness of beckham's presence? wait. there will be more to come.
it all ended with the penalty kicks of 1/5 penalty scored for england and 3/5 for portugal. 1/5? 1 out of 5? this wud not have happened if rooney had not been sent out and beckham had been playing. which MAY have levelled it to 3/5. but well...wads done cannot be undone. let the ancient monuments of england footballers mourn for the loss of england. or maybe shud reflect, if they have any brain left in them, if they had played a part in the loss. nah...dey wudn't do such a intelligent thing. they wud probably prepare their speech now on how sven (england coach) shud not have put becks in in the first place. actually, i dunno why i am feeling so upset for. this is the exact ending i wanted. i wanted england to take beck out. see how the rest made perfect clowns outta themselves with aiming the ball towards their opponents and scoring 1/5 goals. i want the world to noe..its not time for becks to step down yet. he may not be in his top form. but his talent is still indispensable. so in the end, ferdinand cried as well and beckham comforted him. two of my fav. players crying. sigh. even victoria becks was cryin. though i didn't noe she knew abt football. hmmmmz..hey juz tot of something. victoria is close buds with rooney's gf and in this match, when victoria's husband gets off the pitch, so does rooney. both of reluctant cases. haha...guess this is called "standing together thru thick and thin".
to be honest, i like christiano ronaldo (dos santo aveiro) alot. but i am really dissapointed with him in this tactical play against his own club teammate - rooney. it aint right. worst of all is that rooney is an england boy and christiano aint. but both are playing for man utd, a british club. i fear he may get thrashed like a pulp in the locker room by rooney and perhaps others when he return back from germany. wad else can i say apart from "may God have pity on you"?