Tuesday, December 28, 2004

omg...this is so so so so so scary lah...i suppose you guys shud have heard the tidal wave disaster in thailand. the craziest thing was that it hit penang as well and normally around this year, i wud be there right now at this moment. yeah. -gulpz- thank god this year we went italy and switzerland instead.
5 min ago, i was damn worried for chua lar (mind you, i am still worried now). she said that she wudn't be going to china and heading for malaysia instead. darn! y cudn't she juz have gone another time. i know she is going kuala lumpur but i also briefly heard her mentioning abt trip to penang...sigh, shud have paid closer attention to wad she speaks....hope there was shit in my ear or sumpthing like that...dammit
tried to call her house and her hp few mins ago. no ans.
aniwaez, i called up ah wong and both of us decided to give a call to her brother. this was the HELPFUL conversation we had.
phone connected
chua's bro: hello?
me: may i speak to zhi ping please?
chua's bro: hello?
me: MAY I SPEAK TO ZHI PING PLEASE!
chua's bro: (embarrassed laughter) errr...hahahaha...i am her brother...haha
me: (thinking: i noe that.) are you wif chua now?
chua's bro: errr...no...i am in singapore now. she will be back tonight.
me: i understand that they are going to KL. did they go penang as well?
chua's bro: errr..i dun think so...
me: (sigh in relief) oh that's very good. thank you. bye.
chua's bro: (thinking: why did this idiot say that's good???) huh? oh bye.
phone disconnected
whew.
wait.
he THINK they didn't go?!
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.
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so i called back ah wong and she too asked the same qn: he think only ar?...sigh...nvr mind...
so aniwaez, i hope chua is fine...will call her tonight. if no one picks up, will hound the brother again.
hell wif it.
i'm ah bao.

Monday, December 27, 2004

hey people...i noe i very long never update liaoz. aniwaez, taking this oppurtunity, i wud like to thank everyone who sent me those lovely christmas cards. i love you. and those who didn't, i love you too. but i love those who sent me even more...jk jk...juz being lame
aniwaez, i have decided to put up all the pictures i have taken on the net. so far i have :
1) my italy trip
2) my swimming outing wif grace, kailing, wanching
3) my pulau ubin trip wif my tution class
4) pictures taken at eileen place
5) idiotic pictures of chua and me while she came over to my place.
i promise i will put all of this up very fast. i noe all the great fans of me and my blog are very excited...ok ok, juz jk, perhaps the christmas lame-atism has finally got into this thick skull of mine. juz really need some time

autumn

Monday, December 20, 2004

heya people! AH WONG IS BACK FROM INDIA!!! yupz, absence does makes the heart grow fonder, that is, if u even like the person, and it is sure great to hear her idiotic voice once again, for the time being at least.
today i went to toa payoh central hoping to buy a vcd called "FEAR". it is starring Reese Witherspoon and Mark Wahlberg(whom i originally mistaken to be matt damon). Reese Witherspoon who plays role of Nicole is a 16 year old girl who like most teenage girls, likes to have fun. When she and her best friend, Margo, go out to a party one night, Nicole meets the handsome and mysterious David played by Mark Wahlberg, who she ends up getting together with. After a couple of weeks, Nicole realises that David is becoming really possessive and he gets very jealous when she talks to other guys and not telling him where she's going, etc. David even beats up one of Nicole's male friends because he's seen walking Nicole home. When Nicole ends up breaking up with David, he's obviously not happy about this and does everything to try and get her back, when that doesn't work, he and a bunch of his thug friends break into Nicoles home, which leads to some nasty consequences.
i actually went to the shop yesterday to find the vcd or dvd but thanks to my klutzy mind, i forgot the title of the show and of coz the shopkeeper was like "HUH?!" and today when i went there again, i found out that they do not have the vcd. shucks....wanted it so badly...really dunno where else to get since that was the shop i know that sells the most outdated vcds and dvds (the show was filmed in 1996). so ya. the end.
so much for my happy ending.

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

yo wassup people...i am gonna sing the same song again... AHEM!
"God must hate me He cursed me for eternityGod must hate meMaybe you should pray for meI'm breaking down and you can't save meI'm stuck in hellAnd I wanna go home
..."
boo hoo hoo...i came down wif a FLU!!! dammit...ate 4 panadols today liaoz..might as well be a drug addict. BUT after calming myself down, i figured there muz be be a reason y i caught this stupid virus after juz recovering from it. i came up wif a few:
1) the swimming incident (went home in wet clothes)
2) i wasn't fully recovered from the previous virus attack (plus the swim)
3) someone is cursing me really badly
4) the cold weather
5) god muz hate me
6) i am simply down on my luck this month
...
so?
choose ur pick.
okiez, putting that aside, i bought the FIRST magazine today coz i saw the main feature "OCEAN"S TWELVE" arrrrrrrrggggggggghhhhhhhhh!!!!!!! COOOOLLL!!!! i am like so crazy over the show and matt damon and brad pitt are acting!!! (i mean, yeah, i knew it long time liaoz) waaa haaa haaa! bought the magazine without a single moment of hesitation..after reading the whole thing, one game on pg 128 (whole book is 135 pgs) caught my eyes. ROLLERCOASTER TYCOON 3 *widen eyes*
COOL!!!
so i went to download and the pop-up sign wrote: it will take 23hr 30 mins to download.

???

okay.

wait.

isn't that one day?

Monday, December 13, 2004

PERHAPS GOD REALLY LISTENS...
recently, there has been this grudge that is infesting inside of me and i feel it growing day by day. i think if some of you will noe who i am toking abt esp. ah wong who is away is india.
PEOPLE: for those who dunno, pls. do not start speculating among urself wondering one idiotic question "izit me?" or "iz it that person" kz? coz it is juz my shitty god-parents...
ya ya..so much for the good ole days...
so today (sunday) i decide to really pray to God and ask him wad the hell am i suppose to do wif this hatred manifesting inside of me and the usual me was toking to him like "aiyah! i totally leave it to you lar!" at that point, i really did juz leave it to him and i think his ans. came across to me during the Homily...
he told me to be patient and juz except the things as they are; be good and nice to them from the bottom of ur heart for god will reward u in the lifeafter...sighz...
actually, u may not feel the effect but at that point, i really felt convinced...hmmz...*lost for words*
and come to think of it...i am currently readin a book "many lives many masters" abt a physcologist who hypnotised a woman to conquer her fears and somehow ended up learning abt her past lives (as in even B.C.) it is a true story. and there was this particular paragraph that said...
"If they knew that acts of violence and injustices against people did not go unnoted, but had to be repaid in kind in other lifetimes, how much less anger and desire for vengeance they would harbor"
perhaps..its true...it WILL be REPAID...someday...patience

autumn

Saturday, December 11, 2004

omg...my stomach is blasted!!!! i am soooo full...lolx. just finished eating dinner. actually on second tot, perhaps i am not all that full COZ TODAY
I WENT SWIMMING!!!!
(applause!!!)

muahahahax

yupzzie... swimming always make me have a big big appetite so wad people say abt swimming will let u slim down, to me is all bullshit...
aniwaez, today i went with kai ling and grace to wan ching's house to swim..my gawd, i am starting to feel "God must hate me He cursed me for eternity God must hate me Maybe you should pray for me I'm breaking down and you can't save me I'm stuck in hell And I wanna go home" coz it simply RAIN AGAIN !!!!!!! -dots-
aniwaez, experience makes man grow wiser...the last time i prayed for the rain to stop, it rained even harder and when i sing the "rain rain go away" song, it poured. so this time, i just remained nonchalent....
muahahaha...it stopped.
actually it was more of drizzle and while my practical and down to earth brain is telling me not to go and swim coz there may be silent lightning, my other side juz wanted to hack all worries away and jump into the pool...of coz, wif kai ling the dare-devil around, my dark side won and guess wad?! i am alive!!!!!! yay!!!!!! (shit! dat was lamez)
aniwaez, grace was not very keen on swimming with the rest of us so most of the time, she was one side practising "martial arts" or so she says..but at other times, (which was most of the times) we were juz playing afool and crapping...it was fun...oh yeah i taught grace how to float while kai ling and wan ching were swimming and she enjoyed it...muahahaha...still rmb her doubtful look when i told her it wud be fun...-sighx- do i look that cunning???
aniwaez, we took alot of pictures (actually a little) but i think it will take alot of determination for me to put them up (i mean, HALLO?! its me, vanessa! patience is one stupid virtue i dun have) but i will try..perhaps ask kai ling or grace help...muahaha...
apart from that, it was all in all a gd day... in fact excellent compared to yesterday..shucksz...came up with my christmas list on who to give prezzies to liaoz... kai ling and grace are among the list...
how to give kai ling arhz?
kai ling? any ideas???
-oh wellz- taufik stupid song is on AGAIN... dammit, heard sly is at the padang...missed him coz of kai ling rationalising wif me the situation like the cab fare...the pouring rain...the distance...etc..etc..etc...

kimz is coming back next friday...i can't wait...

btw, i noe like this stupid entry is like super duper long but too bad, i am a happy happy girl today...happy happy girl...happy happy girl...
so..i wanted to show u people a nice photo...

actually...one more...

these two are like blood enemies in the final fantasy larhz but i oso dunno y i like both of them...these pictures may be like outdated for how many donkey yrs..i dunno but u noe me...i am abit slow...-sighx-...tortoise tortoise ...

replies to tags:
kailing:
i am so damn sure there is something wrong wif ur eyes larhz...i mean.. perhaps itz the chlorine or u wear contacts too much... -wells- hope u can read the part that i mean giving u a prezzie??? -smilez- and i say itz logs...
grace:
wow..thx grace..i tot all i was gonna have was like "wah lao vanessa, u suck larhz...sly?! r u outta ur mind?!" so yeah...u are DAMN NICE...got a prezzie on ur way... i think...jk jk
really had fun wif ya and kai ling and wanching today
corrine:
my gawd...is that really like corrine?! not studying arhz...jk jk...aniwaez, yeah yeah... so like me... so not like u.... i SUPPORT THE UNDERDOGS....watcha gonna do abt it huh?! (being childish) *sticks tongue out
joo hui:
heya...my gawd, everyone is complimenting my work (layout) or izit complimenting sly?! ("-) gah..who cares, both oso i happy...

i am a happy happy girl today...happy happy girl...happy happy girl...

autumn

Friday, December 10, 2004

Today was the most awful day of the week. The whole day I was feelin totally disconnected with the world and was irritated by every little thing that happened...
Wad is wrong wif me? Am I pms-ing? Hopez not
Actually morning and early afternoon wasn't all that bad cos chua came to my place n we had lotsa fun decorating the Christmas tree, watching vcds, eating pizza...hee hee...juz thinkin abt puts a smile on my face...I mean, since when doesn't it feel good when u are down and ur gd friend is with you having fun??? With the hamster too...
Then things took a bad turn at abt 4:45pm... my grandma was callin me to do some things and I was in the kitchen getting chua a drink so obviously I didn't hear her and neither did chua understand her lang. So in the end, she complained to my mom who in turn said some shitty things..thank god it wasn't one of those all hell break loose conversation
After we were done with the Christmas tree, I tot of going to orchard rd to get Christmas present for my dad(actually it was just to get out of the house)...it was ah wong who gave me the idea of buying that present but I forgot the name so I tried to describe it to the shopkeeper who gave me the "HUH" expression and I gave up... ~sighz~
I decided to call my friends for help beginning wif grace coz I told her my idea b4 but she didn't noe the name so sadly I said bye. She didn't ans back. The only thing was the disconnected line... **? How nice...
Called wanching...marianne chang...huay shan...the lines were either busy or disconnected, or they were simply not in or they didn't noe...
Deciding not to take up chua's time any further (cos it was getting pretty late), we parted.
Have you ever had those kinda of feeling like u are some kinda lonely soul and just floating around... yeah. I was feelin sumpthin sorta like it. The worst thing was that my hp suddenly vibrated out of my hands (seriously, I dunno how the hell that happened cos it was only receiving a msg) and I was crawling on the floor reaching for the phone which seems as if I am nvr gonna reach it... man! I felt like the whole mall was staring at me... complete loser lar...
Then saw huay shan's msg "I'm sorry I can't help you...if u wanna go for another shopping trip or sth and want company call me! Good luck."
Awww...how sweet... I guess when u are feeling like that for no fucking reason at all, little things like that tends to make u feel happier...like "hey! I have friends" (damn, that was a lame expression)
So I continued walking and walking and walking...until I didn't noe where I was!!! I was like some stupid shit there suffering from memory loss and didn't noe how to go home... but I wasn't scared or wad...thankfully...juz felt haggard when I see so many smartly dressed people, be it people knocking off from work or friends going shopping...the word "LOSER" juz keep coming to my head...
Of course I managed to get home...bumped into my tuition friend on the way...almost didn't see my friend... my friend nodded, waved, gave a smile... I said "hi"...it came out so fake...as if I wasn't me...may appear superficial...wadeva
Maybe I shudn"t keep caring wad others think of me for one min. and be more relax...but that's how I am...even while writing this entry, I am like "wad will others think of me after this??"... maybe that's wad make me Vanessa
Wad is wrong wif me?
Am I pms-ing?
Hopez not

Thursday, December 09, 2004

harlow everyone...i truely believed that my whole life have been utterly dedicated to the solely ONE TRUE GUIDES... haha..laugh if u want... but i am dead serious...

perhaps it was the late night sleep...perhaps i miss swimming...hell noes wads wrong wif me BUT... my cranky brain had a dream last night and i dreamt that i was carring logs...u noe those that u see us tying and untying...the tripods thingy n quadra-wadeva-pods.. yupz...i was carrying that with gwen...AND the idiotic thing was that marianne chang was carrying the logs as well... like huh?! since when is she even in the picture? shudn't it be grace...or fiona or gekshan or even kai ling??

some people say dreams are things that u keep thinkin abt unconsciously or consciously...yeah right... y wud i be thinkin abt mari.chang being in guides? am i really mad?

i think so

coz

i forgot to add something

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the whole incident took place beside a swimming pool...

Monday, December 06, 2004

A LETTER TO TEDDY BEAR:

oh god -groanz- i am totally prepared for all the abuses to be hurled at me when my friends see this template of mine...-groans- but i can't help it...it just came naturally...oh god...i think i will just stay away from my blog for a few days to avoid the bombing on the tag board...maybe i shud remove the tagboard on the whole..bet they are gettin ready to throw shit at me the next time they see me in skool...betta where paperbag everywhere i go...
but i think i did a gd job ya noe...everytime is i choose the template and ah wong wud end up clearing after my bits and pieces but this time i stayed up until 1:00am to finish up this whole template and i even added one more section to make the whole blog look somehow neater...actually i tried to combine two templates into one lar (gay kiang abit) but it turn out okay wad...it wud be SOOOO nice if someone cud recognise me for the effort i have done *hint *hint BAH! wad am i thinkin?! i bet they may even stop coming to my website...heh heh...den i maybe dun need to update...blessing in disguise...but soo sad... aiyah hack lar..we'll see how it goes...
kz kz...very tired liaoz...do this bloody thing for dunno more than 3 hrs (inexperience mah!!!) and some internal part is till left unfinished..-sighz-

sign off
vanne

PS: PEOPLE WHO HAPPEN TO HAVE READ THIS ENTRY!!! CAN U PLS LEAVE UR BIRTH DATE ON MY TAGBOARD YAZ? CHANKEWPS :p

autumn