OOO...
i wanna squeeze it...
PiNCh it...
come here FATTY....
ooo....i love you so much!!!

THEODORE!!!!

ARGH!!!!



















Theodore is ADORABLE with a capital A la..looking at the picture above, i think you know which one i am refering to without knowing the names of the chipmunks. YIKES! SO CUTE!!!! SO FAT!!! haha...i wish i had a pet like that...its cheek is SOOOO PUFFY and his ass is so big...BUT HE IS SO CUTE!!! he is the baby among the three. the one in the middle is the mischeivous one called Alvin and the one in blue is the smart one called Simon.


BUT! lets focus on the little green thing....focus focus...

aww....



anw, i recently visited my darling and took some picture with him...such another adorable fella...


CUTE ANOT??!!!! He has very beautiful eyes right?? very bright..and he has very puffy cheeks and he looks so adorable with that stupid red bandana my stupid god brother wore for him...

ooooo.....I DON'T LIKE HIM...I LUURRRVE HIM!!!

OoPs...i forgot to introduce him. His name is 佳俊(jia jun)...forgot his english name.

He is my elder god-brother son. and that makes me his aunty...yep yep. but he shud call me jie jie since i am so young...ahem.

and this is his grandma...which is my god-ma...apparently this is the most successful photo (the left one) i took that he was staring at me...but guess who is not ready to take the picture. sigh. yes...the adult, my godma.

and the rest he was looking like this. i think he is shy..dunno why oso...cos his father is dunno how to shy de lor..

aiight. hope you like this "cute" picture entry
...and also hope that CLEO or some magazine is gonna organise a BABY PHOTO COMPETITION...GUESS WHO WILL BE THE FIRST TO SEND THE PHOTOS?

THATS RIGHT.

ME!

haha...

i have no mood for blogging as of late.

hey hey...i just got back from work and am about to turn in. Anw, i just got a job at the bank. It is actually a 9-6 day job at Raffles Place. To be honest, i really do not know if i am overloading myself with too much things to do. As in, i never really had the keen nature to take up a 9-6 kind of job cos i thought perhaps i still want to enjoy a little more time together with my friends and so on but yet, the opportunity to work at the bank is not something that everyone will have the chance or privilege to get shortlisted, esp when they are looking for only ONE candidate. So i took the job unhesitatingly. Yet, there is just so many other jobs that i have yet to explore like teaching and accounting and others, and i am going to get tied down by a job for 6 months? is it really worth it? what about my tuition then? will i have time?
life is conflicting. some people have too much time on their hands whilst some has too little time on their hands. i dunno which i belong to, seriously, cos i seem to have fallen into the two categories simultaneously. ironical but its true.
will be going out with chua tml. maybe she can help me solve some of my problems. Situations always seems clearer when you talk about it to a friend. besides, she will be with me the whole day long so i can nag as long as i want. heh heh heh ...

can't wait for a friend to come home

This week has been quite a hectic week for me. I have been working in ACNielsen for about one week now and my contract with them will end on next tuesday, unless i choose to extend it.
Things for me is definitely looking much brighter than on the first day when i stepped into work. I had to meet a quota of 8 surveys every night and on the 1st day, i was only capable of clinching 2 deals. But the 2nd and 3rd day went much better where i manged to get 11 surveys and jumped from the bottom few people to the top few on the list (whew!). for a moment, i tot i was really gonna mess up this job cause the company had the right to not give me my pay unless i complete on the average, 8 surveys nightly.
i dun think i will be extending my contract with them la. its not the job for me. and the idea of phones being slammed into your ear is not exactly very great of a feeling either. Maybe i will be trying out something different just to gain more experience ba.
anyway, i will be going out ltr so i will probably post some pictures from the chalet another time ba. for those who need the pictures like desperately, haha, den sms me. i will give you my dotphoto account pasword. but dun ask just to know my password hor...haha..thats dumb.
cya people.
~toodles~

Trying to get a job for the past few days has sort of open my eyes to a whole new world I never knew existed. Scouting and hunting for jobs has also allowed me to gain many insights to the jobs available in the market and many…well companies I never knew existed before in a building that I normally frequent. Like for instance, do you know that on level 10 of takashimaya has the Burberry company and an Autodesk company? Obviously I was more interested in the fact that Burberry was there. Simply standing outside the company is already so exciting. I wonder what is it like inside..anyway, if I ever enter that place, I will probably start a brand new “Ugly Betty” series of my own. Haha, surprisingly NOT everyone was dressed very glamorously there. Perhaps that is the difference between American companies and their dotted line companies.
I was heading down to Recruit Express to sign my contract with a company and as I was looking at everyone in the overcrowded train, it suddenly struck me as to wonder what kind of jobs do each of them own? Do they like the job? Do they know what kind of challenge lies ahead of them each day as they enter the office? Or are their jobs mundane and dull, like y’know toilet cleaners where the only challenge I see is what lies in the toilet bowl they are about to clean. EeKs!
And then I wonder, what kind of job would I want next time? I have thought of a few, but I am not exactly affirmative that they are the right jobs for me. If I have the privilege to choose my dream job, I would like a job that is
- challenging (as in there are assignments in terms of projects or organising events),
- interactive (I need to socialise. No way can I have a job that just sits behind the desk doing paperwork. Its fun to do secretary work la but not for a living please.)
- good pay (need I add this? Even idiots expect that)
- good working environment (I think this one is really up to your character and attitude as well…oh and luck)
Basically, hard work and long working hours do not exactly frightens me, in fact I prefer hard work then slack jobs. Yes, I know I am queer but I like to have that ‘queer’ sense of accomplishment when I produce a satisfactory job that was so difficult to complete. So anyway, I was thinking along the lines of public relations and mass comm. or teaching (hmmm 50 50) or speech therapy (surprisingly this option is on third priority cos the pay factor..erm..heh heh ;) )
Somehow the public relation is most enticing. Especially if I can work in a hotel. Perhaps because I can mix with big shots? Learn more? Haha. I DON’T KNOW! Haha. . we will see...we shall see..10 years from now, where will I be...

hmmm...wow neetha...thanks for that..i guess you really meant it when you said you were gonna flood my guestbook huh? btw, do you think that ms kwok will kill me if i go ask her if she is still able to book last min seats for us for the play?? hee...tot it cud be fun to go with the others. but if my life is endangered becoz of my qn, den i guess you can ask her for me! hee...jk jk..but what do you think??
everything is coming to an end soon. there is this void in my heart that is gradually expanding as each paper passes.i suppose the worst paper so far (cos i haven sit for my physics paper 1) was chemistry paper 1. not because i dont know how to do the qn but rather, i wrote all my answers on the chem qn booklet itself. yep. pls dun ask what happen to the OAS okay...i lost track of time. and i have myself to blame for it no matter how reluctant i am to admit it.
i think its too late to realise this fact now, or rather, to realise the seriousness of this failing in me - i am atrociously bad at time management. i am not sure how big an impact this will have on my results, but we will see. and i am not optimistic about it. its really tough to know you can do it and still...
anw, working out my life now, like what i want to do, what i intend to do, what options are available for me at this juncture, etc. i actually have a few stuff on my mind, including some private intentions which hopefully i do not have to resort to. my mind is whirling now cos i cant see the bigger picture. perhaps i am the only one (or not) that feels as if there is something really different about this exam. i mean in secondary school, when i sat for O levels, i had a clear vision of where i wanted to go and my next step in life. but now, i dun even know which path to take to lead me to where i want to be. i mean i saw a few courses on the uni website and all said the same thing "good A level results". i mean, hello? can you be more specific. i know this kinda stuff is like subjected to discretion depending on the nation's performance and sort, but i mean, O level entries were also subjected to discretion but at least there was a rough (even if it is super way off approximation) guide to get into the school or faculty. of course, then you probably argue that i have to consider the responsibility that the university is committed to when they place these requirements cos there are always some people who will feel indignant that they did not get into the course of their choice when they met the specific criterias. so i guess who are we to blame but ourselves? because of the past generation indignance, i have to suffer. but if the university contd to put up these "minimum requirements" so that i (or people like me) will not suffer, then there will always be people who will be arguing about their inability to get into the course and the university will suffer. so instead of letting themselves suffer, they let people like me suffer. link to the theme of "survival of the fittest" - its a jungle out here, i tell ya
in my desperations, i recently even resorted to tarot card reading. i know i know, some of you will say "why let cards decide your life?" or "eh...these things can be quite dangerous..like what happens if for the position of "near future", you got the DEATH card?" well, put it more optimistically, at least there is one way in my life?? anw, the more depressing thing is that i got THE FOOL for my near future can? so i dunno...i give up. i needed advice for my life, as in education and i was produced with THE LOVERS card...HELLO?! is anyone even listening? i want advice on education and careers. NOT LOVE! ugh....no wonder they say life is a game of cards. you dun neccessarily get the advice you need at the right time or get the correct card your want all the time.
i going to jog now.
see you all. i hope.

as grace and i like to term this, the half time is here. well, to a certain extent, not exactly. to be more precise, "psuedo half time" would definitely be a more appropriate term.
i guess currently, the idea is to clear all the papers and do your best in each one of them, regardless of how you fared for the past papers or how you are gonna survive thru the next few papers. its one of those statements that is easier to type it out than to work it out. at least in my case. many thoughts past thru my mind while i was studying and the burning question would be: how will i fare for this final lap? i seriously do not know. i knew i was gonna be a worry-wart for the next few weeks and probably till the result day itself, i never expect the worry to take its toll on me so soon. too soon. even as i am sitting for another paper, or studying for it, i would subconsciously think of negative thoughts and ...well
anw,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SHIYI...

its a shame to have your birthday in the midst of the As. such a gloomy occasion, i know. but as they say,

every grey cloud has a silver lining

and i hope your birthday has been that silver lining for you throughout your mugging and studying.

ending off here.
didnt do much today.
expected.
watched 2 hrs of tv.
BAH!
time to hit the sack.
*yawns*
snores....

its tough to be in a race when all you ever see is others' behind;


but with an unexpected encouragement of a good friend,



i will win the race.




i will thank you,




when i finish the race with a smile,



just to let you know that you made a difference in my life;


'cos you were there when i needed it the most.

hai..i have no idea why am i ...
1) blogging so early in the morning
2) blogging when i have absolutely nothing to blog abt
3) determined to make my blog senseless as usual.
perhaps its just the gloomy weather and the lack of sleep and the stupid flying ant attempting to get warmth from my study lamp. ugh. i have a huge urge to swap it away..that is, if i werent so scared of it to begin with.
nvm abt those i guess...i am off to have breakfast.

~toodles~

oh my..its been so long a time since i last blogged that i almost forgot the main webby addy for my blog! yikes! hai..for those who encountered to same memory failing as me, well, just to help out a lil, the addy is:

www.blogger.com (not that anyone but me will forget).

hee.

anw, so many have happened since i last blog till now yet i only can write so little..maybe i will update more another time ba..cos i think i myself wanna record down the every itsy bitsy detail that happened on my birthday... ummm...and teachers' day...and many more. yep.

random post, i guess, this is. haha.. take care.

i've been listening to this particular song for the past 2 days continuously. seems that apparently, this song does have a therapeutic effect on me and my life. its like after listening to the song, i don't feel so guilt stricken about my actions, depressed over my feelings, troubled and affected by my current problem anymore. sometimes, i find myself even foolishly trying to attempt real hard in finding that inner voice the song is talking abt.

perhaps its due to desperation (you may say), but sometimes, i feel like i really do feel something. something within me that is telling me to stay strong because that person within me understands what i am going through - the pain and that feeling that i dont even have any idea what is it. the feeling that stifles and cuts right through you, that leaves you crying on the outside and bleeding on the inside. yet this person has the ability to tell you with an assurance that you can pull through, even if it is by means of crawling, she will make sure you leave this situation unharmed.

she forces you to grit your teeth and increases your pride to stop that flow of tears that is so threatening to drop. a friend told me today, "if a friend judges you base on your actions, that is not a true friend." if its so, then this voice should be a very true friend because she listens and understands, without judging, and sometimes, i dont even have to try so hard to explain things to her. cos she can read me. so i guess, i really can listen to her. and whats even better is that i wont go wrong.

thanks stinky winky, A, and C. i feel less suffocated now. -love-

"Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall"

Dearest Time,
recently, i feel that you have been accelerating past me and having fun at seeing me make mockery of myself being all flustered up because i simply cannot do things in time for its deadline anymore. i thought you were my friend. in the end, you turn out to be my foe. boo hoo hoo...
i know you really like christmas...in fact, i do too! however, in order to celebrate christmas (alive) this year, i have to overcome a certain obstacle called "A-levels". sounds weird huh? like why "A-levels"?? i wonder that too sometimes, myself. i mean, like, why not "U-levels" then everyone will be less stress when they speak of it. well, perhaps the whole definition lies in the name of the exam and sending the underlying meaning to all students that the aim is to score A. no less. sounds scary? yea...so you are slightly getting an idea of how dreadful life is gonna be for me, if you contd your wilful behaviour.
even government strongly advocates that SPEEDING KILLS. it doesnt mean you cant be seen, you will be fine. because i do believe that you have a conscience. so you will feel guilty because while you can NEVER die, a lot of people will be dying because of your reckless speeding. like me. so if you are still my friend, i sincerely implore that you slow down your pace and wait for me. and all my other friends. i am sure, they all will be uttermost grateful.
Thank you!

Love,
vanessa.

~*i truly think i have turned insane*~

this time, i truly believe that my brain has finally left me for Utopia le. there is so many things to do on my waiting list and yet, all i can think of doing rite now, is stone in front of the computer and BLOG. well done.
just finished some lesson and received 7 New Smses. from past experience, it normally cant be good unless its like one min more to your birthday or something. true enough, it was a msg sent by audrey to ask us to get our work done asap before mr low sends us an one way ticket to the gas chamber. subsequent msgs werent good either, but subjected to discretion.
so, who am i? i am vanessa. who is vanessa? vanessa is a mean girl with a sadistic nature at heart. to torture the hearts and soul of her classmates further, she decides to sent a msg to her classmates, reminding them that there is a 3 HOURS lesson for econs tml and the incredible amt of stuff they are req'd to bring. vanessa, do you really wish not to have any friends anymore?
sigh. but its my duty to do that. and i will take pride in my responsibility...i suppose. :/
anw, the brain can be dead, but my heart is not. (yes...its slowly returning back to me.) and the heart will not stop beating due to the warmth of a beloved friend. yep.

* TODAY IS GRACE BIRTHDAY! *

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* THREE CHEERS! *

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anw, i really really hope she will have a fun day today admist the stupid piles of work we have to do. like, be really optimistic and see the faint (really faint) silver lining in the (super, very) dark cloud. aye...hope she doesnt check her friendster too often today..hee...made this entry green since its her day and this is her fav. colour =)

okay. ta ta pple..i am going off. suffering from a dreadful headache..somehow i think it will be worse tml. great. see ya all.

oh my...this is such a disturbing day...yea...i realise that its only 27 mins into the 11th july but my fingers are already itching to blog due to the overload of mishaps that happened ytd and probably soon to come today. nonetheless, i shant dwell too much on that.

just tot if neetha ever reads this msg, i have chanced upon the website you told me to le and i think my mind is entertaining a lot of freaky wild thoughts...hai...its really hard to look at such a website without feeling anything y'know...and it makes me wonder if anyone feels the same way and finds out about me, will my blog be viewed with the same emotions as what i am feeling now...oh deary...this is really 'weary wreckening'...hai...

suddenly, i understand how grace feels. i totally understand. and the feeling is yuck yuck.

oh my...i just watched finish Prison Break. once again, i am in awe at the story plot as well as Wentworth Miller aka Micheal Scofield. haha. i really dunno if i should be happier or more upset that i just found out that there is gonna be Prison Break season 3. haha. that means i will probably spend my entire life chasing after Prison Break seasons. haha. normally, i really do not have such stamina to chase after such shows, esp when i know that america is chasing altogether a season ahead of singapore. it's like, it's so sad that i can be here angsting about why Scofield got injured and caught again, when america is probably rejoicing his union with Sarah again. hai.

Nuts About DONUTS!

ooo...mid years are finally escaping my life for a temporary short period of time, that is, till i receive the papers back again...WITH MARKS. ugh. haha..but so far, i guess i can still afford to live on the cheap thrills of life and find interesting, happy, queer, crazy things to blog about. yeapz.
grace, kai ling and me went to queue for DONUTS today at raffles city, donut factory. yeapz yeapz. nearly went berserk waiting for our turn to order. ahha...in the end, we spent a full 2 hrs queuing for those precious yummy donuts. thankfully, there were close friends to talk to and there was just so many things to chat up about since we were in different JCs...i mean not me and grace but us and kai ling. haha..once again, i found some cheap thrill in gossiping and the time flew by. the good thing about queuing with friends is that the pain of waiting is greatly reduced and when you wish to have an occasional walk about the place, you may do so. hee hee...found myself doing that about twice. heh.
anyways, grace bought six donuts for dinner! and kai ling bought twelve! not very sure where they went to enjoy those yummy food as i promised my mummy to meet her at her workplace. i bought twelve donuts for my family and me.
LOOK!

haha...glad they made the favourite flavours of each of my family members, from my mum to my maid so everyone was happy. whee...haha..my legs are aching so much from the standing..hoho...

i think it's super horrid to have myself manisfesting such thoughts at this time of the year. i hope it's just due to stress. but i cannot help wondering if these thoughts are actually logical. it seems that more and more people have been telling me that i ought to have taken literature as one of my subj. combi. rather than the current combi. i am taking. these people vary from friends to relatives to teachers and comments vary from the most subtle, "hmm...have you considered taking lit? are you fond of it?", to the most queer "you have a face of a literature student" (my only 2 qns that were floating in my mind were: 1) what defines the features of a literature student? 2) are literature students pretty? LOL.) and to the most blatant "aiya! what's wrong with you lei...you should have just taken lit. man!"

although i admit that i indeed do have a passion for that topic, instilled in me by my sec. school lit. teacher, mrs maglow, however, it would be rather illogical to take up a subject in which you feel, would not have any impact or rather, assistance in your future career. i mean, i am not intending to take up journalism or destroy the teaching world by being a lit teacher or something irrational as that. and besides, currently i am thinking of the job as a speech therapist.

so is it like a situation where i am making the correct decision, but it's not the decision i want? hence i feel that it's wrong, but think it is right?? like y'know, erm, going with your head and not with your heart?

it's awful to live in such a pragmatic world. passion and interest are always secondary to rationalism, because like everyone says,

"it's not the passion that fills your stomach but the logic to find food to fill it."

okays, i came up with this quote. lol. so it's not everyone that says it. its only me. but i think my quote generally summarise what everyone arnd me is telling me. to be honest, it seems so absurd that a few years back, in IJ, i ever felt that taking up lit was the worst option i could make. and now, it's ironically the worst regret for not taking it up in JC. sigh. i wish someone can tell me exactly what to do.

i discovered something abt me over this past hectic month. i cannot take stress. alone. i mean, if someone were to accompany me and go through the same ordeal with me, like during PW, where i had carine, wing yan and pt, i didnt feel as stress as i would feel sitting for exams like now. haha. izit very bad?? and somehow, i seem to be more composed embarking on projects that are very behind time rather than studying for exams which i am very well far behind of schedules. is everyone like that or izit just me??

oh dear...

queer 'lil me

perhaps, one day, if my passion is still so strong for the subj, i may just take it up as an interest subj. for fun. afterall, when you learn something for interest sake, you tend to have more fun, ironically learn more and learn better.

i like this quote. heard it in one of the shows i happen to watch by chance during lunch at home. dun really know the title but Pierce Brosnan was acting. ooo...he looks so handsome still...haha. i always find him the better James Bond than the current guy (although i am not particularly a die-hard fan of James Bond movies). even my mom thinks so, hence she went to buy ALL of his James Bond movies, perhaps to test the boundaries of my dad's raging jealousy. haha. jk jk.

anyway, before i forget, here is the quote:

"justice and the law are two entirely different things"

okays! ending off.

vanessa out! -woots-

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this is my life.

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this is a complain entry. so if you are already in a deep trance from the late nights and mugging, you may leave this blog instantly cos i dun think you wish to hear any of the stuff i am gonna rant here, right now, in my blog.

the days are slowly seeping by and i am so bored cos i have alr. done all that i need to do for the coming mid years. yeap. tys, notes, other school's paper, etc, i have all done them...twice i think...sigh..

*wakes up from dreamland*

RAH!!!!

the days are speeding by so quickly and i haven even touched CHEM. sigh. i really dunno what am i doing, updating my blog for i have really nothing pleasant to update. just some random rants and chants and madness (basically). hai..i am so gonna receive the death penalty from mr low. great. after all these GP essays i spent writing on how we shud keep death penalty because of its utility to the society, i am gonna get my just deserts for advocating such punishment. and the punishment is death. yippee!

i wish i can find a universal remote control. if there is, i will look for the button that says "disappear". when i find it, the remote control will be pointing towards me when i press that button..and zap! *poof!*...oOpS! i am gone. bye Earth. See ya in timbucktoo. whee! wait..that is still in Earth. hmm...see ya in venus then, girls!

haha...it feels so good to just do random writing. to be honest, i've done quite a few entries within this month but i didnt dare to post. dun ask me why. its just paranoia on how people will view me. and how these people may accidentally carry on their views to others and then cause you to view me in the same way as well. or maybe you happen to pop by this blog by chance perhaps?

haha...yes yes...vanessa, stop dreaming and just post this entry for goodness sake. no wonder your primary school teacher often says i talk like a grandmother - often beating around the bush. this blog will not be seen by anyone else except for the few good friends who know the very existence of this place.

okie...i think i am going a lil loopy alr..

time to take my medicine.

hmm..i wonder how is drama now??

bye!

Sir Lionell Meets Up Tomorrow

my LTC group has been planning to meet up for eons and i suppose finally, we are gonna see each other again tml arnd city hall. not feeling too good but since everyone is gonna show up to open the plates, i had better go or else i wudnt noe when i can open my plate le. haha. yeapz. oh! for those who aint sure wads the plates abt, its sumthing our facils have tot up on the finale nite of our LTC (leadership training camp). so every member in my group has a plate and other members have written their comments about in the plate. however, you aint allowed to read ANY of it till the next group meeting. now, here is the tricky part. EVERYONE has to be present to open the plates tgt or we cannot open it. yeapz. so i had better go! haha...its quite a cute way to make sure our group stays bonded yea? haha..
maybe tml can take more pictures...ooo...piss everyone off with me and my camera. haha.

man...i am SUPER beat! spent the whole day in school doing SGC and maths. just made it on time to send in the SGC for wing yan and me. yeapz. we were doing it tgt and haha...it was soooo rushed for her la cos she only started today. but nonetheless, WE MADE IT! yeapz. just felt like telling the world that. haha. take care and bye!

The past 2 entries have all been muttering more on the issues and happenings of drama club. Well, since good things come in 3-es, this entry will still, fortunately (or unfortunately) be yakking about the bustling activities of drama.
Elections are just over and we got our newly elected ex-co members!! Yay!! While there is still a part of me that misses drama very much, it is still rather relieving to step down and give up your post to someone, perhaps, very much more worthy than you.
Anw, I will intro them sooner or later in some of the pictures I took tonight with them. Yep. Just came home from the Post Production Party at the Serangoon Central Country Club which Ms. Kwok’s parents have membership to. It was so fun to be surrounded with friends again. Perhaps that is the main reason why I felt so depressed when I had to give up my mid-summer’s night dream ticket to attend my grandma’s birthday party. Apart from the fact that I have looked forward for that play so long, at least I also know that I wun feel left out.
OKIE! Shant dwell on the depressing issues. Back to the topic..so I meet neetha at the serangoon mrt station to go to the club tgt. Ahaha…got a shock when we reached…LOOK!



*collapse in laughter* whee!! Haha! that is Nigel! Haha...carine, are you seeing this?! Haha...he is so adorable la..and you have to give him respect for it.. like how many boys are willing to do that and do it so well at the same time? Woots! Nigel rawks! Daringly took a picture with him...hee hee...
had loads of fun taking photos and watching videos made by the “making of Othello” people. we had so much to talk and laugh about. Went home arnd 11 plus. Well, just to share a few of the special pictures I took with everyone tonight

Photo of the Night



I truly, truly, deeply, really lurve this photo to bits and pieces. I mean, apart from the fact that we look okay in the photo, these are people that I have come to love and treasure in my life. For those who do not know, from left to right, that’s Mr. Chong, Ms Kwok, Vanessa (me), Neetha, Yu Zhen and Tina. All are people that have allowed me to stand strong during the production and do my job properly. Really treasure this special picture hence hope to share with you guys. =)

Some other photos include


The four of us are actually a few of the team who headed the Drama Night “Othello”. I suppose anyone who is close enough to me will know that the one on my left is Neetha. She is the sets manager. And the other girl next to me is Yu Zhen – the small props manager. As for the one on my farthest right, she is Anandhi – wardrobe mistress. Anandhi is the current vice-president of Drama Club. Really proud of her.

And of course, the one standing next to our vice president in this photo, is my dear successor, Hui ling!! She is your drama president 2007 – 2008. Took many of them tgt so that they can choose which one to put on our drama notice board. Haha.



other pictures include...



me with 2 of the boys from Big Props. They look as if I ill-treated them a lot. Sigh. But if you take a closer look at the rest of the photos they are in, like in the group photo (the last one of this entry) and the one below, you wud realize that they also look this way. Haha..i found out from one of them that its becoz they feel they look better when they dun smile. Haha. But they are all nice people.
































The night ended with a group photo. Its quite sad that the photo was taken quite late cos many of the drama people had alr gone home.



So it was quite a small bunch left and I realize the teachers are not in this shot. Haiz.

Its quite an exciting night that I cannot wait to post this entry straightaway after the event. Hope you like the photos..though I must say there are quite a lot of photos. Haha..knowing me, I will never pass a chance to take pictures of everyone =)

Take care!

Its rather unnerving that just a few weeks back, every single being in the entire drama club and literature cohort was bustling arnd, preparing for drama night and now, every thing just ended with the sudden *poof*..y’know, its like for so long, you have been in this stupid bubble, trying to break away and get outta it – yet when you really do, everything just seem so awkward and quiet. One thing for sure, I have no more reason to be falling asleep during class, and another is that people (esp my assist. Stage manager: yu zhen, and other drama J1s) no longer run faraway from you when they see you in school – in fear of you dumping them with more work to do or something. And most importantly, the entire whole, which includes my parents and teachers, expects me to get my life back on track in a blink – the moment Drama Night ended. I mean the fact that I have been behind schedule for a rather long period of time, doesn’t it make sense that I need a reasonable amount of time to get life back on track as well? You cannot possibly expect me to finish up every outstanding matter within the measly two days of the weekend yea? Haha…that being said, part of me is really glad that the entire production is over, yet there is this longing part of me that still reminisce those days where we stay in school tgt till past 11pm doing rehearsals as well as sleeping on the floors and chairs of the LT2 and rm 565 regardless of our personal hygiene.

Drama Night 2007, in my opinion, was a big accomplishment for me. being the stage manager, my director gave me the call as to
1) when to start the show
2) when to call for interval
3) what lightings I want for which scene
4) make sure everyone entered the right entrance at the right time
5) make sure everyone exited the right exit at the right time
6) gave the green light for latecomers to enter the LT
7) ..
8) ..
9) ..

Basically, if anything goes wrong, the head that will eventually roll is mine. Thankfully, nothing major error happened. Even more thankfully, none of my friends saw the unglam me that was running arnd during the play, scaring the entire population of the cast and crew who didn’t follow instructions and getting all stressed up and all madness inside of me. haha. oOpSs!

Thursday’s rehearsal and Friday’s official commencement Drama Night was very warmly received, mostly because it was attended by our teachers, NY students, NY parents, our dear friends and the admin staff. Few were the unknown outside school people...or shud I say none.

The more stressful plays, I would say for BOTH myself and the casts are the ones acted on Saturday afternoon and evening. These plays were attended by our drama seniors, members from the drama industry (thanks to the acquaintances with our director, Tina) and lit students and teachers from other schools. I did more rounds of supervision and we implemented stricter regulations for drama memb. to follow.

Very tiring. I even gave up halfway during the rounds of inspection and got yu zhen to take over me. such a deary..

Received many lovely flowers from the 0626 girls and boys, chua, kai ling, franson, zhi yang and the most touching was from the drama cast. Woots! Seriously, I thought that I was really gonna step down from drama without any friends at all cos basically the heads were all so strict with them...aww..and guess wad they said “thanks for pushing us to the best that we can achieve”. I suppose it is indeed a nicer way of saying “thanks for never giving us a break, you mean person!” ahaha…but yeap…really nice of them.

Drama production ended with me, neetha, zhi yang and franson going to serangoon central to pig out till 1am in the morning. I suppose it is only times like this that my parents will allow me out till so late. Took a cab back with all of them and had a peaceful sleep till 11am in the morning.

Neetha and I fell sick with stomach flu the next day.

Haha.

Before I end, wish to thank everyone personally so will be writing their names one by one. Here goes:
- carine (0626)
- grace (0626)
- peng tian (0626)
- Adeline (0626)
- Wing yan (0626)
- Cally (0626)
- Cheng en (0626)
- Cynthia (0626)
- Gerald (0626)
- Henry (0626)
- Shi yi (0626)
- Zuo sheng (0626)
- Melinda (0626)
- Xiu xuan (0626)
- Lewis (Sir Lionell)
- Eunice (Sir Lionell)
- Jin sheng (Sir Lionell)
- Chin ping (0626, Sir Lionell)
- Benjamin (Sir Lionell)
- Benjamin Tan (K.A.)
- Yvonne (K.A.)
- Gwen (K.A.)
- Marvin (K.A.)
- Franson (Drama Senior)
- zhi yang (Drama Senior)
- nytia (Drama Senior)
- Kelly (Drama Senior)
- Fatein (Drama Senior)
- Dorisa (Drama Senior)
- kai ling (IJ)
- chua (IJ)

Hi ancient blog for the longest time ever...even I think that I have been away from this place for a dramatically looonng time... *sweeps away dust and cobwebs*
Well, to some things all up in a statement, Othello (Drama Night 2007) is finally over, and so will my illness, which hopefully is on its way to speedy recovery.
Oh yes...did I mention, I got to skip skool for about 2 days because of my stomach flu. Missed my chem. Test as a result. The subsequent 2 tests – physics and maths werent done too well because I kept sleeping whenever I got home.
Sigh...just when I tot this week was gonna be a ‘chiong’ week for me to catch up all my tutorials and hw and studies, I had to fall sick. In the end, my week was wasted away talking to the sleeping god, gobbling down medicine, experiencing symptoms of stomach flu like diarrhea and vomiting and PLUS I was suffering from gastric. Yeapz. It made things worse.
Anw, will be updating my blog real soon (I promise) cos I cannot wait to update myself on my views of the Drama Night 2007 and the feedback and thoughts I got from both myself and my friends.
To all the people who came to watch the show out of pure passion for Shakespeare or simply to show your support towards me and my passion, I thank you for your presence and am greatly touched and honoured.
Will be thanking a Whole bunch of pple in my next entry as well so if you think you wanna be thanked, watch out for that next entry! Your name just might be there! Ahahah...might be only..whoops! if I leave out any names...remind me ba...

hey everyone...hope you like my new blogskin...haha...had a sudden fetish to change it...again! tc!

To be honest, I never expected myself to be sitting in front of the computer, bloggin as soon as I am now. However, life is full of surprises that will probably take you aback if you are not fully prepared for it. Something has cropped up in my life that forces me to feel most compelled to share this incident with everyone I know, that has proven to be not only abhorrent towards the opposite gender, but demeaning to the feminine role as well.
I was on my way back from dinner with my mother, at dhouby ghaut MRT station when loud shrieks and cries can be heard from a distance. As we approach closer to the entrance of the station, we witness a quarrel between an Indian couple occurring at the lower platform.
Apparently, the cries we’ve heard were from the lady, who was frantically trying to run after the man, supposedly her husband or boyfriend. However, whenever she attempts to hold onto him by his arm, he will shove her away and wrench her hand away from him. This went on for about a few minutes until about the fifth time when she tried to stop him in vain, he turned and using his leg, kick her relentlessly, like a beast, and used the plastic bag which he was holding onto to whack her twice on her head. Only then, did I see a few stationmasters coming forward to put a halt to this brutal attack by that monster.
To reenact such a disgusting episode is unnerving to my seething anger and revulsion, but it is truly a joke to see such a monstrous act being committed during this century, IN PUBLIC. Within a single act such as the above, he has proven himself to not only be uncivilized, uncouth, ungentlemanly, but an extremely unintelligent tyrant as well.
Firstly, he ought to be more attuned to his surroundings and realize that this is Singapore he is living in and worse, at a place where the professionals and highly educated workforce are overpopulated around him. With actions so barbaric as that, he has indirectly insulted the etiquette and propriety in which a proper civilized man strives to behave and agitated the pride of many intellectual women who so often strongly believes and advocate in the equality and fair treatment of both genders.
Also, The Women’s Charter in Singapore is a force to be reckoned with. He has just attacked a lady in front of many onlookers, making him the perpetrator and hence breaking one of the laws of the Act. As I was walking off to board the train from another line, I saw four police guards on duty walking towards the scene. I am assuming, should he get caught for this, chances are he wont escape from the Book as if the judicial system ever let him off, they are indirectly condoning his act and sending an evident message to all the males in Singapore that beating up a woman in public is justifiable and The Women’s Charter stands for zilch. In any case, since he was the one to open attack on the other party, be it man or woman, he has to get caught for assaulting another. bleaugh...dumb dumb dumb.
The irony of this whole situation we live in today is that women constantly advocate for equality among different genders yet so far, attacks and abuses I have witness in public, is caused by men towards women. What sort of equality is this? The most disheartening fact is the fact that during this whole assault, the lady never ran from the man or refuted back. Rather, she was cowering in fear, awaiting aid and the stationmasters and policemen who came to her rescue were all males. So what sort of justice are we, women, exactly calling out for then?
In situations like this, one would advice thou not to hang thy dirty linens in public. My advice to him, though it’s too late, is not to even think of hanging any dirty linens indoor, for in this century, nothing you do can actually be kept uncovered for long.

Goodness, I feel like my blog is anti-male alr. Perhaps the next time I look at my website, I will have many insults strewn in my direction because of my two cents worth. Haha.

Dearest blog,

I think both you and I know that it has been quite some time since Vanessa last updated her blog on wads going on in her life…truthfully. I was reading her past few entries and it seems as if she is always writing all the happy stuff in her life, omitting the dark and tragic parts. Sometimes, I wonder if she is really even happy at all when she writes about happy occasions. Sometimes, everything she writes seems so forced – like trying so desperately to cling onto the few glimmer of hopes, as if in fear that if she ever think or pen down her despondent memories and thoughts, her barely sufficient energy to carry on living life with each passing day will dissipate into the air instantaneously.

So today, I decided to just secretly follow her around, just for a day, to see, understand and report what is going on exactly in her life.

This day began for me around 6 am when 3 of her alarm clocks went off simultaneously. I am beginning to think that it is due to the lack of sleep that causes her not to hear the sole alarm clock she originally has. And it seems like the lesser she sleeps, the more alarm clocks she seems to be buying and using. However, when I finally dragged my lazy self out of my sleepiness, I realized that Vanessa was already sitting at her study desk, doing some last minute admin work for drama. I don’t think this is the first time I see her doing such stuff.

As the time draws nearer for her to meet her neighbour to head to school together, she shoved everything into the nearest file she can reach for and dashed out of the house.

Everything didn’t change much after that as Vanessa and her neighbor head to school and just when I thought there wasn’t anything to report, I witness three incidents that happened.

She was having trouble with her ankle today during P.E. If I recall correctly, Vanessa fell down the stairs the other day before P.E. and judging from the state at which she ran and did her standing broad jump, I don’t think it was recovering particularly fast. Results from many of her six stations deteriorated, mainly her 2.4km run, standing broad jump and shuttle run. Before she sprained her ankle, she was able to jump more than 170cm but now; she barely escaped through the minimum requirement. Pathetic. And her shuttle run only made it on the dot after 3 tries cause she couldn’t brake fast enough without hurting her ankle to reach for the shuttlecock. The most embarrassing thing (or so she thought) that happened was after her 2.4km run today. She had to be supported off to the resting place ‘cause her ankle decided to give her problem again. I dislike her ankle so. She ran within a timing of 14.50 mins and she was quite slow compared to the rest. Carine ran within the timing of 13.33 mins. Vanessa and her were joking about the numbers in the timing though I don’t know why. Anyways, Vanessa got silver. Bleaugh..

On the way home with two of Vanessa’s friends called Melinda and Chin Ping, they bumped into a few of their SC friends, mainly Ben, Angie and Lester at the nearby coffee shop. While Ben was reprimanding Vanessa about her accidentally tucked out shirt, without bothering to hear the fact that she dropped her safety pin without realizing it, her file accidentally touched a lady from the drink stall and the lady yelled at her in front of the entire coffee shop. She sarcastically commented that if Vanessa had used her eyes to watch where she was going and not to look at boys, she wouldn’t have been in this situation. I thought Vanessa would argue back the fact that the lady was being plain unreasonable, but to my surprise, Vanessa just walked away. She didn’t even look angry, irritated, annoyed or undignified by the entire humiliating event. In fact, she just walked away, indifferent and apathetically, with the woman behind yelling snide remarks at her continuously. In the end, it was her good friend, Melinda, who stood up for her. I believe Vanessa is VERY thankful to Melinda and although she didn’t say it, she is deeply touched. On a side note, I overheard Ben calling Vanessa as his buddy. I thought if he was Vanessa’s buddy, he should have bothered to understand Vanessa and hear her out before jumping to conclusions in front of other people. I mean, the last thing Vanessa would do was to look sloppy eh? But that is just my humble opinion. What does it matter anyway? Vanessa looks unbothered.

Didn’t managed to catch much of the conversation Vanessa and Chin Ping were talking at the bus-stop. If I remember correctly, Vanessa mentioned about her math tutor asking her if she was doing aiight in her studies. I think she doesn’t really need people to come question her on her current situation but rather leave it to her to handle her problems ‘cause she feels that such stuff, including academics, is really up to her to answer herself if she does badly or well. Nonetheless, she knows that the teacher means well for her. Unfortunately, she just needs to solve this, herself. If she needs help, she will naturally ask for it.

Chin Ping boarded the bus before her and she was left stoning for about 15 mins before her own bus came. She looked rather dazed at that point in time to me and boy! Wasn’t I right! Despite the fact that she had gotten her wallet ready to tap her ez-link card on the machine, when she boarded the bus, she simply went to sit down, totally forgetting to tap her card. The bus driver called her up in front of the entire bus, breaking her dazed mood and she realized her stupidity. Normally, I thought Vanessa would be in utter aghast when such incident happen. However, she went in front to pay for her trip, totally unperturbed. The only thing I heard her saying was “ sorry uncle…I forgot.”

Thank goodness before that, Vanessa’s daddy said he would meet her at the bus stop she was alighting at or I simply cannot foresee what further trouble she will land herself into.

The day has not ended and I have already so much stuff to write. If you guys noticed, I have decided to write events that I think Vanessa will be unhappy about since she will probably update you all what she is happy about in her entries. But perhaps I should say something that Vanessa would probably like me to say when finishing this entry: Please Read, If You Want To That Is, And Forget It. ‘Cause She Will Probably Find It Very Uncomfortable To Talk About It To You All, Unless You Are Her Close Friends.

Besides, this entry is only my own sole viewpoint. Vanessa may not feel like that in reality.

Signing off,

Vanessa’s Shadow

seldom do i get to stay at home nowadays during saturdays. normally, i will be in school with the drama cast preparing for Drama Night. however it was the wardrobe mistress duty today to take charge since they are gonna go for costume tryout. hence today is one of the special occasions i get to stay at home...and hear my parents nag. lol.
thank God, and i mean literally, that our schooling week is one week shorter due to Good Friday. yesh...friday had never felt so good before. the only scary thing that happened was the fact that i dreamt of Mr Kevin Low Kok Kiong when i was sleeping. apparently, he was telling me what the cca, table tennis, will be doing for the next session. ugh. the whole dream didnt make sense. i even rmb in my dream that i told him i wasnt in table tennis. this. is. madness.
went to eat ma la huo guo with mel, cally, grace and wing yan on thursday. it was a joyful event except when cally lost 10 bucks. haha...can still recall her complaining over all the bad stuff that had happened to her recently from her ear piece to the money, etc, etc. poor girl. everyone was super high...esp me i think, crap a lot of cold lousy jokes..haha..
hmmm...wad else...oh...went jogging with grace ytd. she had to run 18 rounds weekly to train up for her p.e. exam so i ran with her too since i had to run next week (bleaugh..) anw, she made huge improvements and she didnt feel as sick after running. so *standing ovation* cheers! to grace. yay! jia you yea?? *beams* you can run all 6 rounds next time le. be confident!! :)
wad else to talk...ermx...
ooo...
nothing.
bye.

Thursday, March 22, 2007
Block tests are finally over and 0626 went to marina bay for steamboat to celebrate its passing over. YAY!

Yesss…It’s a death worth celebrating about and I am not being sadistic. Ask any student. They will probably proclaim their rejoice in a more explicit tone and emotion than me.
Didn’t really take as many pictures as I would like to have over there partially becos I was really tired from a whole day out shopping with the girls, plus I was hungry, and the usual reason that everyone was shunning away from the camera. It’s so weird that people dislike taking pictures yet at the end of the event, approach me to send them their photos. I mean like...there is none, dun you get it? Coz you went into hiding...lol…of course the above does not apply to everyone yea...juz a passing thought. :D
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
Another thing worth celebrating is the increment in drama members after O1 and O2. there are more than 40 pple in the club now and I dunno if the numbers will still increase or decrease after the first meeting held on Wednesday, straight after my last paper. It was a really crowded meeting and though the numbers are still fluctuating, I am really pleased with the effort drama club has put to achieved this success.
After the party, neetha and I sat down and really got down to talking the deep junk like wads next for drama and the occasional efficiency breakdown between the two of us. It was a lil scary at first, esp since I was the one who brought it up but I guess, I rather it happened than not happen cos at least I feel closer to her now in this friendship and I know we will be more efficient now that we know wad each other wants. Actually, the thing is very simple. Our mindsets are very different. We have different forms of leadership styles but ultimately, although the route we take to the goal is different, what is most important is that the goal is the same – we want the best for drama club. After thinking for very long, I have decided that the solution to this all is to work out a way to compromise each other’s differing leadership styles and I am sure the efficiency will improve tremendously. With that having said, the surprising thing to both of us is that despite our bickering on the stuff we dun see eye to eye, it has never really affected our friendship much. Like when we will still be great pals. I feel blessed! *smiles*
Friday, March 23, 2007
Got real stress up about certain stuff on Friday night but chin ping was there for me...mainly coz I bugged her...again. OoPS! Hope she didn’t mind me..but I really was at a loss and felt very stifled there and then. Fortunately or unfortunately, I came to a conclusion for myself and I felt better ever since. Grace also said it was okay so I guess with the approval of ur good fren, I have the courage and heart to do what I have to do. Ooo..and the thing that cheered me up the most that day was that I was able to see chua after eons.

There was so much to talk and so much to say but as usual the words didn’t flow as fast as I wanted or expected to. Instead it was more of just getting to find out how stuff are heading along for each other and really just to hear that each other are going along fine. We went to Thai Express for lunch, watched “Mr. Bean’s holiday” and den headed to Andersen for ice cream!!! My mood really lifted after the meeting. Ooo...plus we shopped. And shopped. And shopped. We didn’t drop. So we only went home about seven plus. On the way out of marina square, we saw there was a fashion parade about to start but both our parents were alr. Screeching at us to come home so we had to give it a miss. Oh how I wanted to watch it. Nvr really got to see one before.
Saturday, March 24, 2007
Anw, I went to watch “Stomp The Yard” with my secondary school frenz, that is chua, kai ling, charmaine, yu fang and jacynth. Superb! The dancing was unique and the dance moves were slick and funny too. Haha..yea..like how often do you hear of dance moves being funny? Heh heh...the way the dancers mock the others’ dance moves were simply hilarious la. Thankfully I was with my closest buds or else, other people would probably be scared off at the way I laugh. *screech* HAHAHAHA!!! *screech*

Also, we celebrated charmaine’s birthday at fish & co. where grace and geok hian joined us from tuition and church respectively. Haha...embarrassed charmaine to the fullest extent when the staff came out to celebrate the birthday with her. And they did that “fish & co.” birthday chant for her and made her stand on the chair holding a sparkler.
Haha...suffered utter humiliation for her. (Shant show any pictures of it in case she gets upset with me)...they even threatened her tt if she doesn’t stand on the chair, they will smash the birthday cake on her...lol. oh dear...i think she will take revenge on all of us next time on our birthdays. Haha...nvm la..my one long way to go...she’d probably forgotten by then. The sweet thing about this whole event was that there were two IJ girls working at the fish & co. place. And when they found out that we were IJ girls too, on the birthday postcard that fish & co. gives to every of their birthday customers, they wrote “IJ rocks!” just below their greetings.

It sounds simple but it felt so good to feel the IJ warmth again everywhere you go. Haha...while walking along orchard road later on, charmaine and I even realized that we have been friends for nearly 12 years! Whoa! Who would have expected that?
Went to take neoprints with them after dinner and on the way, saw someone really cute... TADA!
Goodness...his pictures were floating everywhere in orchard road cos he was a model for one of the shops. Whee...my frenz tot I was crazy though..as usual. Anw, when we were decorating our neoprints then, I met someone..umm..can consider equally cute ba...haha..she will be so pleased to read this. Yep yep..grace and I bumped into our beloved friend CARINE! With her Indonesian friends. Got a shock so my reaction was quite big. Anw, we bumped into each other everywhere we go thereafter and we even ended up taking the same train back. Ho ho ho..wad fate!
Sunday, March 25, 2007
Its Sunday 2:00am in the morning. I really dunno how am I possibly gonna wake up for tuition tml and survive the whole day outdoor. Anw, will be meeting chin ping soon for tuition and getting more freaked out as the minutes ticked by for Monday. I really dunno what to expect for the papers I am about to receive from the block tests. I wasn’t as fully prepared as I had liked to be so I garner no hope or whatsoever. Yet I cannot help feeling worried or anxious cos the last thing I need is for my parents to come down to see Mr. Pp or worst still, enter some study prog. the school has devilishly designed for the pple who flung block tests.

I think this is the most truthful entry I have ever written cos usually I will correct a lot of my language and content before I publish. But I guess I am just gonna publish w/o taking a second peek at it again. Yepz. So if I said anything weird, oOpS! I am sorry...i think. Haha

Another note for a darling:
Dear grace, do take care aiight? Hope your flu is recovered much much more since I last saw you on Saturday. hope to see you fit and well when Monday comes. Rest more and drink lotsa water! Take care deary!

this is a classic example why children shudnt teach their parents to get in touch with the younger side of them. if you have checked out my gb, you would realise an ultra-familiar name has just frequented my blog.
yes...i think its cool to a large extent that your father actually knows how to sign ur guestbook, although you were the one who taught him how to, but the large extent will be reduced to a small extent almost immediately when you realise that the stuff he tags are ultimately still the same stuff that parents howl at us through the traditional way - the verbal way.
unfortunately, or fortunately for my parents, they decided to reduce the generation gap, and take the non-traditional and high-tech way. use the blog.

entry written on 01 March, 2007
bleaugh...i am so irritated with myself this current moment, i simply do not know where to begin or even how to begin illustrating this seething emotion. RAAAA!!!!! ugh...
just tot perhaps i shud warn the opposite gender if any happen to be reading this: i think the reason why i am irritated with myself is not something you may be able to understand with, unless you are those sensitive new age guys. yep. so if you insist of reading on, please bear with my imprudent childishness for which i will not apologise.
today is perhaps one of the most disgraceful days i have ever chanced upon. i think that even with my limited amount of intelligence, i ought to figure out that hanging your stupid mouth open for the school photographer to take a picture of you will be absolutely nonsensical. but NO! darling vanessa went ahead with her stupid pose, which was wierdly, but highly encouraged by the photographers. so during the CCA leaders' photo shoot, while everyone had their glam pose and positions ready, someone sitting right smack in the middle has her big mouth open like a idiot gawking away for the whole entire school to laugh at once the photo is developed. i seriously wun be surprised if someone attempts to vandalise my picture. cos i will want to if i am others...ugh
grrrrrraAAAHHHHH!!!! i am really so frustrated and worried at the same time that the picture will turn out really horrid. but i was holding on to 2 puppets at that time and their mouths were hanging open as well. so i thought the sensible thing is not to try and be demure cos
1. i wud never be able to be demure...ahaa..yes..vanessa wun try to kid herself
2. that wud look really fake when you are holding two crazy puppets and smiling nicely and all.
sigh...my name will be on the photo for the next few generations to have some entertainment with. and the last thing they need is to blow up my picture real big and make it the picture of the day, titled "close your mouth". BAH!
i am so scared you will see it. i dunno which will be better. for you to see it and laugh at me after that, or see it and just keep mum about it - but in your mind thinking how atrocious i look. i think i really care about your opinion. perhaps more than others. perhaps if others laugh at my photo, the only reason why i will be irritated is because deep down inside, i am just afraid that you will be thinking the same negative comments but too polite to say it. so perhaps when the picture is developed and shown to the entire school, you can just come up to me and lie to vanessa, saying "hey you look really awesome!" and i may even feel betta.
or maybe before that, the picture will be torn down by me or someone else who is just as disgusted by my presence.
yucks.

Just thought I pointed out a few things to note before people begin to think that I have abandoned my blog for good or am too busy engaging with other activities like CCA and homework (which is not exactly inaccurate): my computer and blogger cannot seem to reach a common consensus to cooperate and work for me. and I say its my computer, instead of my blogger account, is because when I ask some of my friends to publish my posts for me using their computers, they all miraculously managed to achieved it. So it has to be my computer. But guess wad? I juz changed my computer to a newer and updated version. So wad exactly is the problem here, u porky computer? The feng shui?
Anw, I have resorted to using my most beloved school's library computers to update this entry so treasure it and I will try my best to make it long and bore you out before you finish your last paragraph.
Went joggin with chin ping ytd afternoon despite the fact that the current mode of our body is under the category of "super exhausted". Ran about 6 rounds in 12 – 13 mins. Really, to me, such timings are of no small feat to me. I was practically chasing after chin ping, looking as unglam as I possibly can achieve to be. Once again, Vanessa has decided to challenge the unchallenged and run with the captain of netball. I think I was really exhausted or else under normal circumstances, I would really be a sensible person and not run with chin ping…AT ALL. Haha…but she was good. Yea. Hear that, chin ping? Vanessa just passed you a compliment. *smirks*
And y’know, at first, I was still thinking that the pace we set off was really a great pace as that is the pace I would have to run about 4 - 5 mins to achieve. However, to my utmost horror, the running went at a constant gradual acceleration and by the time I was at my sixth round, I saw stars everywhere. Manz..haha...and there were twice as many stars ytd.
Aiight...actually tts all I have to say for now. Yeapz.
Anw, I was just thinking, have you guys ever reflected back on conversations you had with other people? And towards certain individuals, you would tend to ponder longer, even if it was one of the most fruitless conversation you can ever possibly have? I realize I have a tendency to do that. Not just in college. But a habit from young. And of course, some would have more fleeting moments then others. But just a thought, if everyone took the time to reflect back over wad he or she said to another individual today, how many times do you think people will regret wad they uttered to the other in a moment of folly, foolishness, anger or pure stupidity? And how many people will actually tell themselves, "hey y'know wad? I am really glad I told him/her what I did!" would such reflective behaviors serve to make a world a more sensitive and better place or would it ultimately be a waste of time and make everyone worry warts like me and self conscious?
Just a thought. If you belong to the latter, then dun ponder so much about wad I said. After all, it would be a waste of time to you.
Take care y'all.

Life is certainly unpredictable in many aspects of our lives. The person whom you are sitting next to currently, or whom you have spoken to one minute ago could be the last time he or she would sit or speak with you. Yes. And I mean for eternity.
Have you ever wondered if someone would live long enough to hear you say the words “I forgive you” or “I love you” after you two had a tiff? What if they don’t ? Would the above few phrases mean a whole lot more then – if you had taken the initiative to take the first step to apologise or condone?
There are myriad of extremities to life that one’s greatest misery can actually be minute to others. But that doesn’t mean that one worry is heavier than the other. Both, I presume, would have equal weightage and importance to the respective individuals. Just that, when both are measured by the same individual, who suffered a misery of a larger scale, like a loss of a kin, it would seem that the other misery, lets say the failing of a test, would seem somehow rather insignificant.
I have heard a lot of dreadful news recently, from the large scales, right down to the minor news. However, I cannot deny that all of them have affected me greatly. So much that perhaps the reasons for some the bad news is actually the aftermath of the previous batch of ominous news I received.
People face many different trials in life. But from the past few weeks, I have learnt that no man lives without affecting another man’s life at least once. If you have any worries right now, you may want to take a closer look as to how many is actually a result of problems caused by others. You may be surprised to find out that these worries are actually capable of taking up to more than one quarter of the entire collection of worries you have.
So don’t ever say you are independent. Because you are not. Because we all are not. Not Bill Gates, not Hilary Clinton, not Tony Blair and certainly not Pres. George Bush.

life holds few distinctions but i can safely say that here, typing this entry, sits one of the silliest girls in the country.

since the last entry i posted till today, life has been rather hectic and everything seems to be rather all over the place now. from mondays to fridays, aside from the overloading homework and notes, there are always the tests to study for. and on saturday, drama has just managed to squeeze and plopped itself right smack in the middle of my saturday afternoons which used to be free. as for sundays, tuition is the main event of the day.
but i suppose when it comes to entertainment and leisure, no one can really resist too much of the urge and hence i am here to juz yak about my boring lifestyle. yepz.
life at home is rather empty nowadays with my parents hardly home until the next morning everyday. yepz...my grandma (mother side) has been warded in hospital due to some fatal heart probelms. everyone is worried but somehow i feel rather detached from the situation. i dunno why but its like i am hardly attuned to my surroundings in the family. suppose its those tests and many commitments that had pulled me away from all of these tragic happenings that is going on in the house. but sometimes, like they say, kinship surpass above all. so perhaps i shud take some time to go see my grandma. i dun wanna have any regrets shud anything happen. i admit, my grandma and i have sorta drifted apart over the yrs due to some friction between my dad and her but no matter what happens, she is after all still my granny and perhaps, the time has come to say the words "to forgive and forget; bury the hatchet". i know my dad will, since he has been visiting her faithfully since she is warded in the hospital, but will my granny?
till now, my parents havent exactly asked me to go and visit her or even inquire if i wish to visit her. so is it my duty now, to take the first step to express a wish to reach out to her? perhaps i shudnt say too much since it appears to me that whatever i write has a tendency to miraculously travel to the sharp ears of my parents. sometimes i wonder why cant some people juz read a blog and not spread arnd, esp to people they jolly well noe the writer wud least like to inform, even if its wad they presume to possess for the writer - concern and care.
today during lecture i can say that i have made a complete utter fool outta myself by storming out of the lecture theatre during maths. sigh. i didnt even noe that i ran out that loudly but i was in pain - something went into my eye. sigh...apparently, acc to audrey, it was LOUD. and uncouth i presume. so ashamed. i think i really ought to try and be more lady-like. bah...its gonne be tough.

Everywhere I turn
I see your face
Reminding me of a higher place
Everytime you smile
Angels cry
Everytime you walk on by

i waited but you never appeared.
.:for you i will:.

seems like eons since i last posted an entry on my ancient blog. well, basically it seems like a logical thing to do esp when one hardly has the time to sleep or eat. many things has happened over the past few days since my last update, including the drama welcome tea, CCA bazaar, mel's bdae, henry's bdae, games' day, latest updates on Prison Break, etc. lol. tot i will have alot to speak abt when i get my time to update my blog but now, it seems like i dun wanna tok abt all of that anymore. its like special memories that are kept within you and best remembered but not captured. like rainbows. remember them in your heart.
had maths test today. totally made a fool out of the whole paper. perhaps 6/10 wud be the exact score i will have since i blindly overlooked the binomial formula given to me in my formula booklet. so i suppose my 4 marks juz flew away. can i say i feel pissed? nah...it has always been a failing of mine to be blind.
had LTC breakfast today with the Sir lionell grp. really missed them loads. afterall, not many things can force me to get outta bed willingly esp when i've gone to bed like 1am in the morning. wei jun, as usual, was like a mother hen, making sure we werent late for school and hope we enjoy our day. haha...no wonder i hardly feel homesick during LTC.
okays. to be honest, i am feeling very drained and tired now so basically i am juz typing in anything that pops into my head before the thoughts go *poof* and vanishes. i think i will go back to writing my GP essay..manz..cant even think of something noteworthy to write and i have to present on wednesday. bet i will get a heapful of corrections from Ms shahida den and after that, she will add "but its a GOOD effort." haha..
alrighty. take care pple. i'm off.

with the orientation gradually ceasing, today truly and finally felt like school has started. lecture halls didnt look half as empty as a few days before and tutorials no longer felt like attending private tuition classes. yeapz. somehow, 0626 didnt feel right without the other half disappearing elsewhere. so what else can i say? I AM SUPER GLAD THEY ARE BACK!! especially when i can FINALLY distribute that thick pile of notes away. lol
as i was getting ready to attend school today, i felt as if i was attending an international school as our school hours were pushed to 9am. haha...yea...dream on, vanessa. but nonetheless, with the few extra winks, i indeed felt less tired and dead.
my dad passed me two articles he cut from the newspaper a few days back. LOL...they are articles regarding what eyebrow and hairstyle shape fits your face best. haha...i thought only such stuff would be shared between my mom and me. seems like my dad is trying join our discussion. haha. anw, its sweet of him. he muz have been tired of my incessant ranting on how i dun think my new hairstyle suits me. so he cut out this article to shut me up once and for all.
anw, CCA bazaar is coming REAL soon. am in a nervous wreck that i cant draw enough people to join drama. well, i guess if i done my best, all i have to do is to hope for the best...
cya guys arnd!

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
DANG! we are in 2007 oredy..
i am speechless..