Thursday, November 23, 2006

hey everyone...will be leaving for LTC tml le. haha. hardly started packing anything yet. wasnt too keen on going for it at first, esp with the tot that i have to miss my god bro's wedding. but have decided to keep the spirits on the high end and will still participate in anything that is within my limit, except for anythin too high. i have a fear for high element stunts...well at least for some. haha...besides, with chin ping arnd, there will be havoc and loads of bickering left for me to do...can oredy imagine her criticising on the amt of calories the camp is giving us for every meal. haha.
think it is so cool to have her in the same grp as me. she is gonna bring toilet roll and clothes peg for me and i will be bringing medication and writing materials for her. that way, we can save on the bulk of our luggage.
juz broke the news to my deary god bro regarding my absence for his wedding. can tell he is seriously upset but i dun think it is fair that i absent myself for that period of time when the grp is practising for the play, which will be helf the very next day... however, neither is it fair that i absent myself for something that is once in a lifetime for my god bro.
commitment vs kinship? which one am i to choose?
if i hadnt been in the shoes i am in now, i wud seriously have told whoever that is asking this qn to go with kinship, coz work and stuff wun be there when u are in deep trouble - kinship will. but right now, it seems hard to choose either coz this time, with commitment comes friendship. my frenz will be practising for the play and i wun be there with them.
yet, my bro is getting married and i wun be with him.
life is disgusting.
but it seems that i have alr made the decision.
LTC, here i come.

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

this entry was suppose to be written on the 15th Nov. 2006. however, because the gruesome nature of the evidence left at 'crime' scene i have unfortunately chanced upon outside the school, i haven been able to give my two cents worth regarding the incident i am about to narrate to you because the thought of that dead carcass juz irks me so much. it all happened like this... that day, adeline, carine, cynthia, grace, xiu xuan and me were about to leave the school after our run through the back gate. as we were about to cross the zebra-crossing, we gasped at the sight of a lifeless black body, lying in the middle of the driving lane. a thick pool of blood had been collected on the road, near victim's mouth, which has apparently been the source of the blood. it is an obvious hit-and-run accident and that reckless driver had apparently driven off without the least bit of remorse. shame on that being. approx. 5 mins later, 2 sweepers came over and cruelly sweep that poor corpse into the bin. i felt so helpless there and then. judging from the size of the body, i doubt it was even a cat yet...only a kitten. and its life ended in such a trauma. cruelty is thy word.
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if you have juz breath a sigh of relief when you realise that the victim had been a kitten instead of a human being, i sincerely implore you to stop that thinking immediately. why is it that human being lives must be taken so seriously when an animal's life, no doubt still a life, can be so slighted by us, the selfish ones?
if the victim in the above scenario had not been an animal, will the driver ever stop to see if he had accidentally killed someone? perhaps not. but the probability is definitely higher than him killing a cat. however, would it have taken so long for someone to come and remove the victim from the road, if the victim had been a human? i believe not. in fact, i even believe that the main reason why it had been removed, is to prevent blockage, for us, the ever almighty humans to walk without anything in our path. and it is to the extent, abhorring for me to entertain the thought that perhaps that lonely carcass had been run over not once, but over and over again, repeatedly by various cars of shapes and sizes and brands. i noe that nothing can be done to help these poor animals because the focus we place ourselves in is too strong for anyone else to intervene and share with us. thats the sad thing abt human beings. sad but true.

Monday, November 13, 2006

Responsibility Before ________ (think of a word that means fun, but rhymes with reponsibility...lol. cant think of any)

"sometimes in life, some things you have juz gotta give." heard of that phrase before? yea and in this case, its about giving up some thing, not because you want to, but rather, because you have to.
who would rather choose to be caught in some mammoth task when they can hang out with their frenz ? who would rather be stuck doing tiresome activities instead of having fun? who? i am certainly not one of them. but in life, some things you juz gotta give and today is one of the few times i am giving.
the feeling certainly aint great. but at least i noe i am doing the right thing. and i dun think i wud regret as much for going for responsibility rather than fun.
maybe next time, fun will come knocking on my door again.
perhaps.
perhaps.

Sunday, November 12, 2006

Although it has only been 5 days since I last updated an entry on my blog, as I type in this entry, it feels as if I have been away from my computer way too long - so much so that the pace of typing has decreased rather dramatically and the sight of the blog layout, where you post your entry, seems all too unfamiliar.
But now, OP has finally ended. So has our immense torture of waking up early in the morning, only to drag ourselves to school and rehearse for OP. and FREEDOM is within our range of grasp once again!! CHEERS! Haha
Surprisingly, contrary to what I have written before the OP ended, when I reached home the very day after the OP, I didn't burn the PW file and throw it down the window like I said I would (I was really serious then.) Rather, I had taken great pains to file the rest of the PW documents I had left out, back into the file and found a neat spot in my room to place it. call me crazy if you want to but that was really what I did. I guess, I sorta missed PW after all.
Ugh. I cant believe I am actually sayin this. Someone pls shoot me.
But looking on the bright side of everything, without this PW crap, perhaps the bonds between friendships wouldn’t have strengthened as much as it did under normal circumstances and stress would probably never felt better when you know for a fact that there is 3 or 4 other people out there who is probably just as anxious as you are.
I know carine is waiting for me to send out "Thank you" msgs to my PW grp, or more specifically her I presume. But I have decided to let my "Thank you" msgs take in the form of a blog entry rather than sms I guess, because there would be too much to say, and too little space to type it all in…and too little money to spend.


TO MY FUDGE DEARIES:
Thank you so much for all the encouragement and support you all have given me. Even to the final hour before the OP, I rmb I was still clutching onto carine's hand for support! Haha. I know I have been overly-stressed up at times and gotten on everyone's nerves with my over-picky attitude on non-perfect things, but thanks for bearing with me. haha. Will never forget the hours of girl-talk with wing yan. It was really awesome. Will remember all the advise you have given me =)
And carine, thanks for standing up for me, and being my pillar of strength esp. THOSE TIMES. Get it? *winks* or had there been too many times you stood up for me until you do not know which time I am referring too le? LOL. Btw, my parents will miss you. Thought your ego may be pleased to hear that.
And must applaud our jie-mei, P.T. for taking all our nonsense, like Carine and my never-ending bickering and yelling and rebutting and ...basically, noise. And Wing yan's *ahem* sitting posture. Haha. just recalling back all those times makes me feel so tickled. Haha.
Though our PW meetings are always longer and ending later then others, I never failed to have fun. So thanks a lot! Love you guys loads and buckets with cookies and cream.


TO MY CLASSMATES:
Oh manz...you guys were simply fabu-babu-lous! Haha. thank you so so so so much for all your support. and thank you all for the sms and well-wishes on the day before my OP. one of you even called to ask if I needed help in my OP. I though that was super sweet. So thank you to you too!
Thanks to xiu xiu, grace, cynthia, adel and cheng and mel for being there while my grp presented as well. And I seem to be always asking you guys, esp. xiu xiu, to grade my OP over and over again when ever I presented. Hope I didn’t irritate you all or anything. Haha.
And Gerald, I know I thank you le. But still wanna say thank you to you again for enlightening me on which part I am to focus on when I present. Eternally grateful!
Special shout out (1) - to Henry, Samuel, Ren Jie, Zuo Sheng: Although your OP ended, you guys stayed back to watch us present our mundane OP over and over again. I know you were all v. tired den but still, awfully grateful to you all for making the effort to stay back. THANK YOU!
Special shout out (2) - Audrey a.k.a. Small Bao-zy: yay! Sorry to make you wait for me to go to the gym. And although my muscles are still screaming out in pain, but I had fun...especially when we rowed the sampan! Haha...oOpS! And thanks for listening to all my problems too. *Many Hugs and Loves*

TO MY FRENZ:
Yepz...this is to chua for her notes from SA. You are such a sweetie to share that with me.
and ah huay and ah wong for the WR. Maybe you guys cannot even rmb when did I call to ask for you help le since that was SO long ago. But nvm. What matters is that I remembered.

TO MY SENIORS:
Hey hey! Doubt you guys will read this anw. But still wanna thank you all for giving ur suggestions when I consulted you guys for my PW. Thanks for not leaving me in the lurch . and thank you my dear OGL, Julian, for helping me with my PI at the beginning of the year. I would have prob. died quite badly in that if it weren’t for your help. Haha. thanks!

TO THE TEACHERS:
Once again, dun think y'all will get to read this…and somehow, I feel thankful for it. haha. but not only Mrs. Lee but all the teachers I sought for help in my desperation for the GPP and OP, thanks for your help help help and more help. My group is thankful towards you all too though I think they dunno who are you. But they will still be thankful.

My gawd, I feel like I just won OSCAR award or something. But I know that if my grp and I get a 'A' for PW, it would be better than winning an OSCAR. Manz…it would be betta than winning a Nobel Peace Prize!

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

went shopping with my mom today and splurged on many sinful food at plaza singapore. we ate at fiesta and later went to have chocolate waffles with cookies n cream ice cream. haha. found a black top that looked very glam at John Little. wanted to buy it and plus my mom was very supportive of me wearing that too. but i tot i wud hardly wear it and even if i want to, the clothing has to go with a skirt to look nice, and i wud prob wear a black skirt. sigh. black top plus black skirt. kinda dull and i dun think a combi the older generation will particularly be pleased to see on CNY. so i gave that a miss.
but the great thing abt this day is my mom bought me the ZEN V PLUS mp3 player from Creative. whoo hoo. i chose the black model with 2GB. cant wait to use it. heh heh.
oh yea. and my dad collected my camera from vivo city today le. i hope i will have no more problems with the camera. :)
going back to skool tml for PW

Sunday, November 05, 2006

*smiles* juz came home from the singapore indoor stadium after 2hrs of enchantment. NOTRE DAME DE PARIS is absolutely fantastic! no wonder it entered the Guinness World Record. although the entire play was based in french, becoz their acting were so fabulous, you cud actually feel and understand emotionally what the actors and actresses are singing. haha. of coz, at the sides of the stage, there are always the aid of wad we wud call Subtitles.
but the whole play is truly amazing and ooo, the singing was whoa! haha...their singing was something unheard of in singapore. there was a certain unique quality in their voice and now i understand why critics told the cast of "The Forbidden City" that if they intend to bring their play to England, they have A LOT of work to improve on. sigh.
do u know tt at the end of the whole play, there was a call for encore and this very cute guy, one of the main characters who starred as a corrupted officer, actually came up and sang, WITHOUT the accompany of the music, the opening song of that play...ALONE! and his voice hit all the correct keys and his tune was flawless. haha.
in the opening act, my mom and i were alr. blown away by the voices and acrobatic stunts and all the dramatic action. haha and i might as well mentioned that we both cried when esmeralda died in the arms of Quasimodo. whee! i am so glad i went for the play. whooohooo! woots!

Saturday, November 04, 2006

hey everyone! in a few hours time, i will be in the singapore indoor stadium to watch the 'notre dame' play. heard it is rockin fabulous. yea! recent news even has it tt the play entered into the Guinness World Record. how cool is that! haha. now my hope is that i getta take pics when i enter into the stadium.
another good news is that i realised that the leadership training camp tt i am scheduled to go from 24 - 27 Nov doesnt clash with my job attachment which starts on the 27 Nov. okays. maybe it will clash a lil. dun exactly noe how i will work that out. sighz. i can alr. imagine myself entering the place with all my big and small bag packs on the 1st day of my job attachment looking super unglam and badly burnt. and plus Ms. Lim highly disapproving face. ugh.
another plus point is that angie lim, the vp of the Student Council is in the same grp as me. yea! haha. its gd to have frenz in ur grp. and i got angie, who came from the same sec skool, and even betta still, the same class as me for the 4 yrs of my sec skool life. haha. hope she will be happy to be in the same grp as me. *prays*
sigh. however, lets put it in this way "there is a black lining in every silver cloud". no. i didnt get the colours wrong.
26 NOVEMBER IS MY BELOVED GOD - BROTHER'S WEDDING!
i wudnt miss ANYTHING for it and now u are telling me i am suppose to forgo this major event in his life and well, also my life, juz to attend the leadership training camp and bake under the sun for hours?? is it even fair? does it even sound right to you? i dun even noe how am i to break the news to him! am i allowed to leave in the midst of everything and attend the wedding for a few hours and come back? are they sane enuff to let me to that?
yea sure..if i was the President's daughter.

Friday, November 03, 2006

went to skool today for PW as stated in my previous entry. but since PW is nothin to tok abt, lets tok more abt stuff that shows JC students do have a life.
erm...
eh...
actually, i oso cant find any stuff to tok abt now. sigh...does that mean i have no life? boos.
anw, been having a splitting headache all day. dun even noe wads the prob with me anymore. its like i sleep at 11pm, which is early, considering that i always jump into bed only arnd 3 am. i tot sleeping early will prevent such stuff? sighs. i think when i sleep at 3am, i dun even experience headache. so all that stuff abt sleeping early is a load of crap i suppose, in my context the very least.
flipping thru some SONY year-end promotion book i found in the letter box this evening. juz looking at all the technology stuff makes me go green-eyed. sheesh. i want the T50 camera BAD. haven actually found out if its really all tt gd but the design is sure rockin fab. plus its sleek.
oh oh! speaking of cameras, today was suaned VERY badly by evil henry and sacarstic zuo sheng for not knowing how to use henry's camera properly. sighs. plus it didnt help with phan shei at the side silently mocking. haha. actually, if u put me in their shoe, i wud do the same. coz who has ever seen anyone so dumb before? hey..am i scolding myself dumb? manz...the headache is making me tok nuts.
and my maid's nagging since dinner time is not helping at all.
heh heh. she juz realised that her cover is blown today BY ME! =D - tt she has been secretly eyeing on ren jie from our class photos...haha. the guys today were joking abt the prank smses they sent to the girls and commented abt my reply back to them. then somehow, the conversation led to my maid who confessed a few months back that she finds rj cute. wahahaha. actually, she didnt confessed. i sorta guessed from yj to zf to henry to zs and ijuz went down the row of boys until i saw her grin when i said rj's name. hahaha.
wonder what her husband will think abt all this.
woah! juz flipped to the High Definition Home Projector. VPL-VW100 is cool la! erm...so is the price. (-.-") $14,999. if i am serious dead on buying it, w/o spending a cent of my pocket money, i wud have to save for 300 weeks. that wud be 6 years and 3 months. not bad. its a good way to lose weight. haha...the price wud have prob dropped and new (and more mind-blowing) models wud be released in the market by then. in any case, why cant they juz write $15,000? muz be those marketing strategies again. ugh.
okiez. this is the end of the today's super-bored entry. as u can see, there is nothing much going on in my life rite now. and i am juz typing for the sake of typing. and maybe exercising my skill / art of crapping. i hope you were bored. lol.
Ps: my mum juz bought tickets to watch the play "notre dame" in singapore indoor stadium tml. maybe i will have something more substantial to yak abt in my next entry. cya!