yepz the june hols is here. although everyone of us students noe that these hols is juz "holiday" for the name sake coz we still have to go back to school...attend some junk called "holiday lectures and tutorials" and do some garbage called 'holiday assignments" and so on, i am still super-duper-yipppeeee-duper glad tat the hols are here. in the beginning of the week, i managed to get only six hours of sleep within two days. and now, i got 20 hrs of sleep within two days. and i think i overslept. coz i am very tired. *yawnz* well..call me a pig if u want to. but i am really tired.
plus. i sprained my ankle. well done. that was one of the horrid things that happened to me this week. i think 3 bad things happened to me this week. well, all bad things have to come to an end. at least i hope. i actually smsed chua that i was very sad and when she reply "why?!" i was very busy at that moment. so i didn't reply in the end. i think i shall call her soon. and disturb her...muahahaa
ooo...there is gonna be BBQ tml with my OGLs. sooo exciting...i hope my leg is betta by then. i muz muz rmb to bring my camera this time.
and i juz check the guesbook and saw some retard wrote there 'teen sex'. well done. i haven reached that stage where i need to go to such websites to de-stress myself yet. if i need to, i will let u (the retard) noe k? den u can prob show me other links as well.
k. going off. i wanna watch x-men. soon. when? i dunno.

"do what you want unto others as you want others to do unto you"

this is one of the most prominent phrases from the Catholic world for me and i have often used this theory to judge my actions. if others have done it to me before, then i think it shud be alritey to do it back to them unless it is like immoral like backstabbing or murder (which i wil probably be dead aniweaz) or sumpthin like that. however, this theory has been proven wrong recently.
1. people do unto others what they do not want others to do unto them
2. if others do that to you, it does not mean they will accept it if you return them the very same action, even if the action is less impactful. it might not be condone.
so this theory, as for the contemporary world today, is wrong. maybe in the past, this theory still exist. i guess i am still an old fashion for the biblical stuff.
therefore, becoz of this upset in the balance of the equaton

you do to others = others do to you

the world is so much very unfair now. therefore, i think wing yan and carine is right. we shud all stop holding grudges against people. I SHUD STOP AS WELL. if u hold grudges, well, there is simply too many to hold and it is very tiring. besides, the thought that there are more to come in the future will simply turns you off abt holding grudges. too many grudges, too little storage space in the brain. maybe if there is a win zip for the brain one day, or the thumb drive, then wud i think there may be KB to store one or two grudges.

therefore, next time, if becoz u read something abt someone who have said sumthing concerning or not concerning you that u aint happy abt, dun hold the grudge. juz laugh it off and who knows? that person may juz turn out to be one of ur greatest frenz on earth! its true. it happened for me. she is greatest pal of mine now. for all u know, the person, by writing, is only trying to releasing his/her grudge. which is good. and u go pick up the grudge he/she release..isnt that downright dumb? yupz..thats juz my food for thought.

dun blame me.

i am only trying to release a grudge.

a grudge abt the world.

okiex...i have seriously no mood of updating my links ever since i deleted them all away. too bad. i am so tired i barely have strength to type. haha..but seriously, i am freakin worn out. in fact, i almost woke up late for today's pw lesson. and i hafta rush out the maths solution before grace comes back with hers. i am so so so so so so disorganised. and i tot i shall do the work PT told me to do but apparently, the file have not been sent so well..i will wait.
oh yes. and i finally bought my mother's day gift with wing yan. haha...she is those kinda mother's darling girl so i think wadeva she thinks is nice shud be good for my mom. yes. actually, i quite like it too. i didn't choose the pink coin pouch though. i chose the beige on instead. :)
i keep thinking of tonight's show i am gonna watch with my mom. MISSION IMPOSSIBLE III. now..pls dun get the wrong idea. I DUN LIKE TOM CRUISE, IN FACT, I CAN SAFELY SAY THAT HE HAS NEVER FAILED TO MAKE INTO THE TOP 5 MOST HORRID-WOOD ACTORS. and it is no exception this year. but i lurve the show he is starring. dun ask me why..i cannot even ans that question myself. actually, i think he has a lot of nice shows to act for such an undeserving, male egoistic actor like him..but oh wellz..THE LAST SAMURAI is also my fav show. sigh.

0626 BBQ '06 juz ended 2 hrs ago. though it had been rainin the whole day, and stupid showers during the party itself, nothing really spoilt our fun. come to think of it, i didnt exactly eat at all coz i was too busy with the camera. took in a plate of bee hoon juz now. yupz..dinner at 11:30pm..haha..
i guess it is the case for everything class whether u are in secondary skool or JC, Raffles or Nanyang..when u have BBQ, u always tend to 'overbuy'. it happened for 4/2 '06 chalet...and it happened today. guess who took the rest home?? yupz..grace and me. but grace took the chips and i took the drinks. so much sugar. sure put on weight one..then sigh i am so irritated abt that. actually, i hate people to comment abt my appearance yet i keep asking them abt it..wads the pt? i think i allow my close frenz to tell me...provided i ask. am i a wierdo??
haha and after most went home after the BBQ, shi min, henry, phan shei n grace came to my hse for a drink. henry commented my hse was big...whoo hooo..wonder wad he will say if he goes to a bungalow, or a terrace, or a semi-D.. to be honest, i can never decipher the diff betw the 3 of them. i think i ever heard my daddy mention abt semi D having a lawn and terrace not having one. but terrace sounds so much grander...*scratch head*
also, shi min says that my hse gave him a feeling that he is finally home oredy..haha.. cool..how often do u get pple saying that? haha and that worried phan shei coz both are scholars and they needed to reach back to the hostel by 11:00 and it was oredy 10:30 pm. aniwaez, and the boys tot my rm got too many toys..say i cannot grow up. thankfully when they said that, it was when there were more girls, so the girls were like "no lor...this is a typical girl rm" haha...
and when grace and i walked the 3 boys to take the MRT and the bus, henry decided to walk me and grace back to our hse after we walked him to the bus stop. get it? so it was like a walk for nothing? coz we walked him there and he walked us back...and when he saw shi min sent grace and me an sms thanking us for today, he sent us one each too thanking me for the lemon barley i gave him at my hse..link?haha madness!
oh yea, and after they went home, i decided to watch a sad show "A WALK TO REMEMBER" and i cried my heard out. to think wing yan, pt and carine are still askin me to watch Korean drama. i think i will cry myself blind. i scared tml i will do PW with them halfway den start crying suddenly. yea..sorta did that after i watch ROMEO AND JULIET and they will think i am crazy. sigh.
k. my eyes is gonna POP soon. good bye! luv ya loads 0626! luv ya loads IJ pals!

CHRIS DAUGHTRY was booted out from American Idol. america is blind. i feel like being a politician and go up to the stage and say: "america, the world has died coz YOU voted for TAYLOR in the competition instead of CHRIS. mourn america for the world is blind" . but that wud prob make into the top of the top crappiest politician speech. so maybe George Bush shud say on behalf of me..hee..oOpS..shall stop being political if not i will have to register my blog as well..

wheeee....drama night is finally over. all the pple who viewed it were like saying we can get "gold and above" for SYF..my gawd...if that is true...WHOA!!!!!!!!! yesss man...i guess i still cannot slip away from drama coz we have a LOT of work to prepare for SYF partly coz the t-shirts are stained with blood and hence we hafta go get another set of costumes for them.
today woke up at 4 am to start on GPP. realised that i didn't receive the P.I. peng tian sent me. sigh. waited from 4.....to ......7 am. den he woke up and sent me again.
i got a feeling that i am really overloaded myself with too many things. first is the drama that is taking up like 1/2 of my life. den with the 1/2 i have left, i have skool so that is half of the 1/2. den the 1/8, i haf to do my PW, study, revise, sleep, eat, shit, and wad else..
teenagers tend to complain that their parents dun understand wad they want exactly. all the crap abt parents making money, giving materialistic stuff only when they require attention too. and here my parents are like at home, waiting for me to come home to spend time with them but i always come home arnd 12 am. i feel digusted with myself.
they even took off juz to see my drama play. vanessa u noe u suck don't u?
and i hardly tok to my frenz animore. not becoz i dun want to. but i dun have time. coz if i tok to my frenz, something have to stall and it is always wanted in the next 5 min or so. and someone will blame me for it. esp. if it is drama. i mean the teachers are nice and all and the seniors are nice but sometimes went things are like rushing...everyone seem to get so stressed up and they will look for the ICs to vent it out. and i am one of the ICs. k. actually, to be fair, my frenz get a fair share of it too. but of coz there will always be some who will always remain nice.
k...i vent out wadeva i am feeling oredy. i feel betta. juz wanna say a big big thank you to all my frenz and family for being there for me..ya..

time now is 1:01am acc to my monitor clock...there is
Maths test
GP test
Physics test
today in juz a few hours time. nothing is checked in my homework checklist. i juz got home from drama. from 1 pm to 10 pm. drama for today is oso starting at 1 pm but ending at twelve. same for the day after today juz that maybe the starting time is at 10 am in the morning. i am so screwed. i need to study but it is one in the morning and i have been sleeping for <4 hrs everyday.
so..nightmare. dun dream. live it.

*~vanessa~* OUT!