Trying to get a job for the past few days has sort of open my eyes to a whole new world I never knew existed. Scouting and hunting for jobs has also allowed me to gain many insights to the jobs available in the market and many…well companies I never knew existed before in a building that I normally frequent. Like for instance, do you know that on level 10 of takashimaya has the Burberry company and an Autodesk company? Obviously I was more interested in the fact that Burberry was there. Simply standing outside the company is already so exciting. I wonder what is it like inside..anyway, if I ever enter that place, I will probably start a brand new “Ugly Betty” series of my own. Haha, surprisingly NOT everyone was dressed very glamorously there. Perhaps that is the difference between American companies and their dotted line companies.
I was heading down to Recruit Express to sign my contract with a company and as I was looking at everyone in the overcrowded train, it suddenly struck me as to wonder what kind of jobs do each of them own? Do they like the job? Do they know what kind of challenge lies ahead of them each day as they enter the office? Or are their jobs mundane and dull, like y’know toilet cleaners where the only challenge I see is what lies in the toilet bowl they are about to clean. EeKs!
And then I wonder, what kind of job would I want next time? I have thought of a few, but I am not exactly affirmative that they are the right jobs for me. If I have the privilege to choose my dream job, I would like a job that is
- challenging (as in there are assignments in terms of projects or organising events),
- interactive (I need to socialise. No way can I have a job that just sits behind the desk doing paperwork. Its fun to do secretary work la but not for a living please.)
- good pay (need I add this? Even idiots expect that)
- good working environment (I think this one is really up to your character and attitude as well…oh and luck)
Basically, hard work and long working hours do not exactly frightens me, in fact I prefer hard work then slack jobs. Yes, I know I am queer but I like to have that ‘queer’ sense of accomplishment when I produce a satisfactory job that was so difficult to complete. So anyway, I was thinking along the lines of public relations and mass comm. or teaching (hmmm 50 50) or speech therapy (surprisingly this option is on third priority cos the pay factor..erm..heh heh ;) )
Somehow the public relation is most enticing. Especially if I can work in a hotel. Perhaps because I can mix with big shots? Learn more? Haha. I DON’T KNOW! Haha. . we will see...we shall see..10 years from now, where will I be...

hmmm...wow neetha...thanks for that..i guess you really meant it when you said you were gonna flood my guestbook huh? btw, do you think that ms kwok will kill me if i go ask her if she is still able to book last min seats for us for the play?? hee...tot it cud be fun to go with the others. but if my life is endangered becoz of my qn, den i guess you can ask her for me! hee...jk jk..but what do you think??
everything is coming to an end soon. there is this void in my heart that is gradually expanding as each paper passes.i suppose the worst paper so far (cos i haven sit for my physics paper 1) was chemistry paper 1. not because i dont know how to do the qn but rather, i wrote all my answers on the chem qn booklet itself. yep. pls dun ask what happen to the OAS okay...i lost track of time. and i have myself to blame for it no matter how reluctant i am to admit it.
i think its too late to realise this fact now, or rather, to realise the seriousness of this failing in me - i am atrociously bad at time management. i am not sure how big an impact this will have on my results, but we will see. and i am not optimistic about it. its really tough to know you can do it and still...
anw, working out my life now, like what i want to do, what i intend to do, what options are available for me at this juncture, etc. i actually have a few stuff on my mind, including some private intentions which hopefully i do not have to resort to. my mind is whirling now cos i cant see the bigger picture. perhaps i am the only one (or not) that feels as if there is something really different about this exam. i mean in secondary school, when i sat for O levels, i had a clear vision of where i wanted to go and my next step in life. but now, i dun even know which path to take to lead me to where i want to be. i mean i saw a few courses on the uni website and all said the same thing "good A level results". i mean, hello? can you be more specific. i know this kinda stuff is like subjected to discretion depending on the nation's performance and sort, but i mean, O level entries were also subjected to discretion but at least there was a rough (even if it is super way off approximation) guide to get into the school or faculty. of course, then you probably argue that i have to consider the responsibility that the university is committed to when they place these requirements cos there are always some people who will feel indignant that they did not get into the course of their choice when they met the specific criterias. so i guess who are we to blame but ourselves? because of the past generation indignance, i have to suffer. but if the university contd to put up these "minimum requirements" so that i (or people like me) will not suffer, then there will always be people who will be arguing about their inability to get into the course and the university will suffer. so instead of letting themselves suffer, they let people like me suffer. link to the theme of "survival of the fittest" - its a jungle out here, i tell ya
in my desperations, i recently even resorted to tarot card reading. i know i know, some of you will say "why let cards decide your life?" or "eh...these things can be quite dangerous..like what happens if for the position of "near future", you got the DEATH card?" well, put it more optimistically, at least there is one way in my life?? anw, the more depressing thing is that i got THE FOOL for my near future can? so i dunno...i give up. i needed advice for my life, as in education and i was produced with THE LOVERS card...HELLO?! is anyone even listening? i want advice on education and careers. NOT LOVE! ugh....no wonder they say life is a game of cards. you dun neccessarily get the advice you need at the right time or get the correct card your want all the time.
i going to jog now.
see you all. i hope.

as grace and i like to term this, the half time is here. well, to a certain extent, not exactly. to be more precise, "psuedo half time" would definitely be a more appropriate term.
i guess currently, the idea is to clear all the papers and do your best in each one of them, regardless of how you fared for the past papers or how you are gonna survive thru the next few papers. its one of those statements that is easier to type it out than to work it out. at least in my case. many thoughts past thru my mind while i was studying and the burning question would be: how will i fare for this final lap? i seriously do not know. i knew i was gonna be a worry-wart for the next few weeks and probably till the result day itself, i never expect the worry to take its toll on me so soon. too soon. even as i am sitting for another paper, or studying for it, i would subconsciously think of negative thoughts and ...well
anw,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SHIYI...

its a shame to have your birthday in the midst of the As. such a gloomy occasion, i know. but as they say,

every grey cloud has a silver lining

and i hope your birthday has been that silver lining for you throughout your mugging and studying.

ending off here.
didnt do much today.
expected.
watched 2 hrs of tv.
BAH!
time to hit the sack.
*yawns*
snores....