After experiencing what happened to me today, i tink it finally further affirms my puzzle regarding how capable i m of defennding myself no matter under what circumstances. How many a times have i stood up for myself in bravery when someone disrespects me? One, who is close to me, would have thought that its betta not to get on tha bad side of me and i have shown my courageous side of me as many times as the people in china (the population is 1.2 billion by the way). but i guess after today, there is still a vunerable side of me that still needs the assistance of, to the extent, a stranger when i m in a shitty situation...
i was at the value-dollar shop buying some cups with ah wong. while queueing up, one insane guy who was in front of me said in a matter-of-fact manner:"give your one dollar to the cashier."
wtf?
What happen next? Just like what the commentary suggests, i backed out. though i refuse to hand over my dollar to him, i failed to yell at him. to a certain extent, i was embarrassed!!! i cannot help feeling that elevating the number of such cliche situation will eventually label me as a "coward". On the other hand, an Indian lady came to my rescue and said :" Y GIVE HIM THE MONEY? YOU GOT ALOT OF MONEY IZIT? U ONLY STUDENT!!" and then she went on to tell the cashier that he ought to report this situation to the manager and not overlook it. i took it as a hint from her to get out of the situation. thus, i grabbed my stuff and went along. in the process, i saw a smirk at the corner of the cashier boy's mouth. i overlooked it once again. ah wong saw the entire situation but was confused. but ironically, i was more. it was very rich in my tradition that there and then i wud blow up... but i over looked NOT ONLY the insane guy behaviour but also the cashier boy's ignorant attitude.
Maybe I am missing a bigger perspective here or perhaps it was becoz i knew it was a mad guy... but how do u explain for the cashier boy? maybe i was in my school uni. i guess if i wanna make up excuses, i can come up wif plenty but one fact remains.... Meanwhile, I will stay disillusioned.

tribute to the blackout...lolx
i had the craziest dream last night... sighz, wun tok abt it... too sucky... even ah wong tot i was nuts... imagine! a nutty person tinking someone else is more nutty!!! how bad can it be?!!!!

autumn