i've been listening to this particular song for the past 2 days continuously. seems that apparently, this song does have a therapeutic effect on me and my life. its like after listening to the song, i don't feel so guilt stricken about my actions, depressed over my feelings, troubled and affected by my current problem anymore. sometimes, i find myself even foolishly trying to attempt real hard in finding that inner voice the song is talking abt.

perhaps its due to desperation (you may say), but sometimes, i feel like i really do feel something. something within me that is telling me to stay strong because that person within me understands what i am going through - the pain and that feeling that i dont even have any idea what is it. the feeling that stifles and cuts right through you, that leaves you crying on the outside and bleeding on the inside. yet this person has the ability to tell you with an assurance that you can pull through, even if it is by means of crawling, she will make sure you leave this situation unharmed.

she forces you to grit your teeth and increases your pride to stop that flow of tears that is so threatening to drop. a friend told me today, "if a friend judges you base on your actions, that is not a true friend." if its so, then this voice should be a very true friend because she listens and understands, without judging, and sometimes, i dont even have to try so hard to explain things to her. cos she can read me. so i guess, i really can listen to her. and whats even better is that i wont go wrong.

thanks stinky winky, A, and C. i feel less suffocated now. -love-

"Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall"