today is the first day of examination. general paper. i can gradually feel its effect taking upon me. its always the same few steps. first i see the qn, second i get stumped, third i panic, next i scramble to recollect my tots and alas, i have to rush thru.
sigh. i studied so hard for sports topic and not a single pathetic one came out. nvm. at least i cud write some words out from my pen during the exam regarding the topic i chosen. but whether it is crap or not, i dare not ponder.
den the comprehension. sigh. nvm. dun wanna dwell.
actually i didn't really noe how to decribe the overall performance at all..i mean after the exam, i wud like noe like oh..."aiya...die la"...or like "hmm..errr" ...or like at least "i got to finish it" (happened only for Social Studies and the higher chinese paper)
i think i shud classify this under the "hmm..err" category.
i tot i looked okay with my hair pushed up with hairbands today. apparently not to the others i guess. or only a few. was paranoid abt it for two mins then i decided to juz forget it. its time i do things i like for once.

1 BAD THING THAT HAPPENED THIS WEEK
I LENT MY COUSIN PLAY WITH MY PHONE..yeapz...and he decided to fiddle-doodle a little and sent stupid stuff to practically HALF of my contact list...so if U...anyone happen to receive any stupid sms from me to you...IT IS NOT ME! okay?! get the POINT!! it is NOT ME!! period. i was in malaysia la...though stuck in the hotel rm watching soccer with my laptop..but i did give permission in the end to allow him to send juz a few more to chua, charmaine and kai ling and basically the CHIJ girls..oh and pui yoke..hee...but the rest...i dunno who got it...so ya..sorry k. this is the main purpose of this entry. yupz. tryin to clear a lil up...but i have to admit..the joke was quite funny...haha..TO A CERTAIN EXTENT...but the humor stops when the sms was sent to the drama president and vice president...i wonder did he send to any teachers...oh man..that tot juz crossed my puny brain

*PS. actually this was suppose to be published into the previous entry. however, the smart me forgot that my background is black now (actually the previous template is oso black) and i changed the font colour to black. so obviously u all cudn't see ANYTHING..i am damn smart.

5 GOOD THINGS THAT HAPPENED THIS WEEK
1. BECKHAM is made the man of the match for the TRINIDAD vs. ENGLAND match (anyone who knows me well enuff will noe how impt this fact is to me:) )
2. ENGLAND is at the top of their group beating SWEDEN.
3. CHRISTIANO RONALDO scored! need i say anymore?
4. PORTUGAL won...yea...obvious in pt. 3...but it is more of the point that i will get to see C.R. more..lol
5. BRAZIL is in the winning streak too....means more of RONALDINHO...yes.yes.yes.yes

yes...the weight issue is BACK again to haunt our pathetic lives. i think that it is quite sad that everyone is saying that ronaldo is overweight. i mean NOT christiano ronaldo (he is like super hot la!). but the one in brazil. yea..i mean...can u imagine..u are like playing ur heart out for ur country and all the world do is to keep saying u are fat...oh manz. actually, i dun find him overweight. but after everyone arnd me keep saying that...i am starting to presume there is something wrong with my eyes. haha..still it is not right to keep targetting him la..besides, this is his last WORLD CUP...cant u let him leave with glory??
and the other day, becks family actually came to support him during the match against trinidad. and de newspaper commented abt how much victoria beckham actually paid to hire a private jet (approx 60,000 pounds) to reach germany and watch him play. i mean...yea..i noe the sum is big. its like enuff to sustain me till my late 40s . but the point is that they cant help it if they are rich ya? i mean...for goodness sake, becks earning per game is twice the sum of the private jet! ahaha...i bet u didnt noe tt... oh yea..did i mention? they called becks sister "fat ham"...pls tell me is this mean? or am i being over-sensitive regardin this issue? sigh..sad

well well...with the world cup heating up, i dun really expect myself to get much sleep anymore. in fact, i only got two hours of sleep since last night...or shud i say this morning at 5:00am and woke up at eight....wait ..that is 3 hrs...k. my folly.. but..nonetheless, my staying up did not go to waste cos...BRAZIL WON 1 - 0 against croatia..*nodz*..a guy name KAKA scored it...whoo...i heard his girlfrien is a model..heh heh..and she is darn gorgeous. (click link to see her photo : http://rds.yahoo.com/_ylt=A0Je5xb2QpBE0yQBhMujzbkF;_ylu=X3oDMTA4NDgyNWN0BHNlYwNwcm9m/SIG=12c56fl9v/EXP=1150391414/**http%3a//x05.xanga.com/5fbb06322273227977043/b19649901.jpg
her is caroline cecilo if i am not wrong. shall tell ah wong that later..haha AND i also realised that i did not watch the game played by portugal on sunday...ARGH!...there was apparently coverage of christiano ronaldo on news 5 the other night regarding the match. NEARLY broke into tears. how can i ever forget. and the match commenced at 3 am. and i slept at 2 am. BAH! and my dad didn't even bother telling me...sigh... okiez. tonight i have absolutely no intention of watching ANY of the match coz i NEED sleep and heh heh, the PLUS PLUS factor is that ENGLAND is gonna play tml. so i need to build up sleep and conserve energy to stay up late tml night. muahaha.. today i was taking a train to novena and while i was squashed amidst the morning rush hour, i saw all the tired faces of the office workers with the eye bags. haha. i am glad i take after my father genes...we dun get eye bags no matter how late or how little we sleep. whoo hooo.. but the voice change..and mine is quite pitchy now.

*grumble grumble* why muz i change my blog layout...its so troublesome to have to find a nice looking layout and i tot this was quite cute..yea...and it aint THAT long eh? and u still have to transfer EVERYTHING over...its because of this layout that caused me to lose all my contacts in the first place...no no..i wun change..unless..someone will provide me THEIR links..i might consider :) thx kai ling...silence is consent. (btw, u cant ans. coz there is no question..its a statement. get it? hee..nvm if u dun..juz let me copy ur contacts) good..den audrey wun nag too..good good.
YES! ENGLAND WON THE FIRST MATCH! MUAHAHAHAHA...ferdinand, beckham and lampard are still as hot as ever la...oh yea...and their playing for this game was not bad either. but the ref is seriously bias la...coz the opponent is a south american team and i checked...the REFEREE IS OSO FROM SOUTH AMERICA...i noe there is a rule that u cannot have a ref from the same country...they shud make the rule that no ref is allowed to referee the game so long as the team is from the same continent. that shud be fairer. and poor crouch (one of the england striker) he kept being targetted by the bias ref. lucky that *toot* *TOOOT* *toot* didn't try to be FARNIE arnd beckham..argh..nvm. he's prob gonna be assasinated by the england fans anyhow. imagine..even under bias circumstances, ENGLAND managed to fight their way to VICTORY. shows their strength..haha. stupid ref...nanny nanny poo poo.. insufferable...

MESSAGE IN A BOTTLE
to kelsey: omg hi KELSEY WONG!! argh! its been so long since i last heard from u lar! how are things going on there? have u developed an accent? haha or are u still as crappy as ever! muahaha..miss u and all ur nonsense. will always rmb u as the exam buddy manz! coz u nvr fail to add on to my stress during those studying periods with ur incessant talking and more talking with ..oh yes..that elsie doong! haha.my idol..whoohoo..as u can see..i am still the same me..haha..hope u will get to reach this msg..(^_^)..miss ya...LOADS! haha..oh yea! i hope u have managed to catch X MEN oredy..chua and i went to watch it juz yesterday!

end of msg

yeapz.. that is juz one of my crazy frenz from IJ TP..gone to a faraway land...and has kindly visited this musuem...so sweet.
haha.. i have finally managed to watch my X MEN! YEEEESSSSSSSSSS!!! storm is soo cooool! haha..she is always cool and cyclops is still so romantic...haha the irony was that he died under the one he wud die for..get it? he loved her so much he is willing to sacrifice his life for her..but she killed him in the end. yeapz..and in the end she got killed by another guy who is willing to die for her as well..oh wellz..tok abt irony..
dere was A LOT of death in the whole story but somehow, prof. X was one of them...which made chua cried. haha..it was damn sad lar..i teared a drop or two. haha..but chua was seriously depressed. i think i wud have bawled if storm died instead. BUT ALAS! of coz..good things ought NEVER to come to an end..coz X MEN IV is still coming ..hence at the end of the movie, they showed PROF X lying in the hospital bed and when the nurse walked in, he greeted her and she was so shocked. so that means there is part four and that means MORE OF STORM! WHOOOHOOO!!..yes yes yes yes...haha..i think X MEN, LORD OF THE RINGS, STAR WARS are the only three movies that i wud even bother chasing after their sequels. okay..and any movies starring matt damon. no question abt that.

ARGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!! as the days goes by, i am slowly driven mad by the torturing fact that i haveb watched X-MEN III yet when the entire planet have watched it oredy. i mean, not that i have asked the entire planet or anything..but ya..u get the point. i bet if this show is starred in other planets, the aliens wud have oso watched it by now. yet i dunno when will i ever get to watch. sigh. first it was the busy schedule..den it was the sleepover for chua.. den i was sick..and now...the only excuse i can take comfort in is that i am STILL sick and need time to recuperate. bo hoo hoo.. i wanna watch X MEN! U HEARD ME CHUA??!!! ME WANNA WATCH X MEN...NOW!
aniwaez, i think that the only reason why humans will try their very best to prevent this show from starring in other planets is becoz we are afraid that the aliens will be inspired by that excellent show and try to go to war with us as well..coz we keep poking our noses into their lives...sending rockets and wadeva over. hahaha..
aniwaez, i realise that i have been falling ill VERY often this yr. isit the fengshui? or izit becoz i haven been falling ill as often as i ought to for the past few yrs so now the diseases are all catching up on me due to my increasing age..(ugh..yes..i am ageing)..but i tot falling ill is like sleeping..once u miss ur chance to fall ill..u cannot grab it back..argh...i am not making sense.
Toy Story is hilarious...the commercial is over. i gonna watch..cya!
PS (to chua): my blog long long ago no tagboard liaoz. this shows how long u nvr visit my blog..my dearest good fren(-_-")...i noe my blog is ancient..but even musuems ought to attract a decent no. of viewers k..so as a good friend..pls be a loyal visitor to THIS Musuem! XD

yepz the june hols is here. although everyone of us students noe that these hols is juz "holiday" for the name sake coz we still have to go back to school...attend some junk called "holiday lectures and tutorials" and do some garbage called 'holiday assignments" and so on, i am still super-duper-yipppeeee-duper glad tat the hols are here. in the beginning of the week, i managed to get only six hours of sleep within two days. and now, i got 20 hrs of sleep within two days. and i think i overslept. coz i am very tired. *yawnz* well..call me a pig if u want to. but i am really tired.
plus. i sprained my ankle. well done. that was one of the horrid things that happened to me this week. i think 3 bad things happened to me this week. well, all bad things have to come to an end. at least i hope. i actually smsed chua that i was very sad and when she reply "why?!" i was very busy at that moment. so i didn't reply in the end. i think i shall call her soon. and disturb her...muahahaa
ooo...there is gonna be BBQ tml with my OGLs. sooo exciting...i hope my leg is betta by then. i muz muz rmb to bring my camera this time.
and i juz check the guesbook and saw some retard wrote there 'teen sex'. well done. i haven reached that stage where i need to go to such websites to de-stress myself yet. if i need to, i will let u (the retard) noe k? den u can prob show me other links as well.
k. going off. i wanna watch x-men. soon. when? i dunno.

"do what you want unto others as you want others to do unto you"

this is one of the most prominent phrases from the Catholic world for me and i have often used this theory to judge my actions. if others have done it to me before, then i think it shud be alritey to do it back to them unless it is like immoral like backstabbing or murder (which i wil probably be dead aniweaz) or sumpthin like that. however, this theory has been proven wrong recently.
1. people do unto others what they do not want others to do unto them
2. if others do that to you, it does not mean they will accept it if you return them the very same action, even if the action is less impactful. it might not be condone.
so this theory, as for the contemporary world today, is wrong. maybe in the past, this theory still exist. i guess i am still an old fashion for the biblical stuff.
therefore, becoz of this upset in the balance of the equaton

you do to others = others do to you

the world is so much very unfair now. therefore, i think wing yan and carine is right. we shud all stop holding grudges against people. I SHUD STOP AS WELL. if u hold grudges, well, there is simply too many to hold and it is very tiring. besides, the thought that there are more to come in the future will simply turns you off abt holding grudges. too many grudges, too little storage space in the brain. maybe if there is a win zip for the brain one day, or the thumb drive, then wud i think there may be KB to store one or two grudges.

therefore, next time, if becoz u read something abt someone who have said sumthing concerning or not concerning you that u aint happy abt, dun hold the grudge. juz laugh it off and who knows? that person may juz turn out to be one of ur greatest frenz on earth! its true. it happened for me. she is greatest pal of mine now. for all u know, the person, by writing, is only trying to releasing his/her grudge. which is good. and u go pick up the grudge he/she release..isnt that downright dumb? yupz..thats juz my food for thought.

dun blame me.

i am only trying to release a grudge.

a grudge abt the world.

okiex...i have seriously no mood of updating my links ever since i deleted them all away. too bad. i am so tired i barely have strength to type. haha..but seriously, i am freakin worn out. in fact, i almost woke up late for today's pw lesson. and i hafta rush out the maths solution before grace comes back with hers. i am so so so so so so disorganised. and i tot i shall do the work PT told me to do but apparently, the file have not been sent so well..i will wait.
oh yes. and i finally bought my mother's day gift with wing yan. haha...she is those kinda mother's darling girl so i think wadeva she thinks is nice shud be good for my mom. yes. actually, i quite like it too. i didn't choose the pink coin pouch though. i chose the beige on instead. :)
i keep thinking of tonight's show i am gonna watch with my mom. MISSION IMPOSSIBLE III. now..pls dun get the wrong idea. I DUN LIKE TOM CRUISE, IN FACT, I CAN SAFELY SAY THAT HE HAS NEVER FAILED TO MAKE INTO THE TOP 5 MOST HORRID-WOOD ACTORS. and it is no exception this year. but i lurve the show he is starring. dun ask me why..i cannot even ans that question myself. actually, i think he has a lot of nice shows to act for such an undeserving, male egoistic actor like him..but oh wellz..THE LAST SAMURAI is also my fav show. sigh.

0626 BBQ '06 juz ended 2 hrs ago. though it had been rainin the whole day, and stupid showers during the party itself, nothing really spoilt our fun. come to think of it, i didnt exactly eat at all coz i was too busy with the camera. took in a plate of bee hoon juz now. yupz..dinner at 11:30pm..haha..
i guess it is the case for everything class whether u are in secondary skool or JC, Raffles or Nanyang..when u have BBQ, u always tend to 'overbuy'. it happened for 4/2 '06 chalet...and it happened today. guess who took the rest home?? yupz..grace and me. but grace took the chips and i took the drinks. so much sugar. sure put on weight one..then sigh i am so irritated abt that. actually, i hate people to comment abt my appearance yet i keep asking them abt it..wads the pt? i think i allow my close frenz to tell me...provided i ask. am i a wierdo??
haha and after most went home after the BBQ, shi min, henry, phan shei n grace came to my hse for a drink. henry commented my hse was big...whoo hooo..wonder wad he will say if he goes to a bungalow, or a terrace, or a semi-D.. to be honest, i can never decipher the diff betw the 3 of them. i think i ever heard my daddy mention abt semi D having a lawn and terrace not having one. but terrace sounds so much grander...*scratch head*
also, shi min says that my hse gave him a feeling that he is finally home oredy..haha.. cool..how often do u get pple saying that? haha and that worried phan shei coz both are scholars and they needed to reach back to the hostel by 11:00 and it was oredy 10:30 pm. aniwaez, and the boys tot my rm got too many toys..say i cannot grow up. thankfully when they said that, it was when there were more girls, so the girls were like "no lor...this is a typical girl rm" haha...
and when grace and i walked the 3 boys to take the MRT and the bus, henry decided to walk me and grace back to our hse after we walked him to the bus stop. get it? so it was like a walk for nothing? coz we walked him there and he walked us back...and when he saw shi min sent grace and me an sms thanking us for today, he sent us one each too thanking me for the lemon barley i gave him at my hse..link?haha madness!
oh yea, and after they went home, i decided to watch a sad show "A WALK TO REMEMBER" and i cried my heard out. to think wing yan, pt and carine are still askin me to watch Korean drama. i think i will cry myself blind. i scared tml i will do PW with them halfway den start crying suddenly. yea..sorta did that after i watch ROMEO AND JULIET and they will think i am crazy. sigh.
k. my eyes is gonna POP soon. good bye! luv ya loads 0626! luv ya loads IJ pals!

CHRIS DAUGHTRY was booted out from American Idol. america is blind. i feel like being a politician and go up to the stage and say: "america, the world has died coz YOU voted for TAYLOR in the competition instead of CHRIS. mourn america for the world is blind" . but that wud prob make into the top of the top crappiest politician speech. so maybe George Bush shud say on behalf of me..hee..oOpS..shall stop being political if not i will have to register my blog as well..

wheeee....drama night is finally over. all the pple who viewed it were like saying we can get "gold and above" for SYF..my gawd...if that is true...WHOA!!!!!!!!! yesss man...i guess i still cannot slip away from drama coz we have a LOT of work to prepare for SYF partly coz the t-shirts are stained with blood and hence we hafta go get another set of costumes for them.
today woke up at 4 am to start on GPP. realised that i didn't receive the P.I. peng tian sent me. sigh. waited from 4.....to ......7 am. den he woke up and sent me again.
i got a feeling that i am really overloaded myself with too many things. first is the drama that is taking up like 1/2 of my life. den with the 1/2 i have left, i have skool so that is half of the 1/2. den the 1/8, i haf to do my PW, study, revise, sleep, eat, shit, and wad else..
teenagers tend to complain that their parents dun understand wad they want exactly. all the crap abt parents making money, giving materialistic stuff only when they require attention too. and here my parents are like at home, waiting for me to come home to spend time with them but i always come home arnd 12 am. i feel digusted with myself.
they even took off juz to see my drama play. vanessa u noe u suck don't u?
and i hardly tok to my frenz animore. not becoz i dun want to. but i dun have time. coz if i tok to my frenz, something have to stall and it is always wanted in the next 5 min or so. and someone will blame me for it. esp. if it is drama. i mean the teachers are nice and all and the seniors are nice but sometimes went things are like rushing...everyone seem to get so stressed up and they will look for the ICs to vent it out. and i am one of the ICs. k. actually, to be fair, my frenz get a fair share of it too. but of coz there will always be some who will always remain nice.
k...i vent out wadeva i am feeling oredy. i feel betta. juz wanna say a big big thank you to all my frenz and family for being there for me..ya..

time now is 1:01am acc to my monitor clock...there is
Maths test
GP test
Physics test
today in juz a few hours time. nothing is checked in my homework checklist. i juz got home from drama. from 1 pm to 10 pm. drama for today is oso starting at 1 pm but ending at twelve. same for the day after today juz that maybe the starting time is at 10 am in the morning. i am so screwed. i need to study but it is one in the morning and i have been sleeping for <4 hrs everyday.
so..nightmare. dun dream. live it.

*~vanessa~* OUT!

some people say that before u enter JC, the life u are living is like the “earthly heaven” den, when u enter the JC, u get a free sneak preview of the “earthly hell”. and after that, need I still elaborate? I think after reflectin back, I guess there is an element of truth in this saying. yeapz..in less than 5 months, I guess I have seen enuff of some things to make me speechless, angered, hurt, revulsion. but now I noe, there is more. There is always more. And the most challenging thing is that some of ur closest buddies have ventured to other JCs leaving u with few to consult. In my case, I guess I am left with one. Actually, no matter where you go, there will always be politics. Juz that some places are more evident of its presence than others. I think I shud count myself lucky for my class is actually rather caring and nice. So maybe I have not even seen the total sneak preview of politics in JC. Lol. Oh dear…
with the upcoming election 2006, the country is buzzing more abt politics. Heard that the opposition is contesting for 47 seats this round, causing PM Lee to publicly appeal to the mass to vote for them or something like that…actually, I saw some of the candidates on channel 5 the other time. I kinda like one of the female candidates from the PAP side. I think her name is..errrm…umm…tum di da ti tum…nvm. I will rap-a-tap-tap my brain for the name again. aniwaez, her speakin in so darn solid la..sigh..speaking of solid speeches, my GP tutorial was a total bum yesterday. I think I juz embarrassed myself totally la. wadeva. was suppose to do a discussion on “integrity” and due to my laziness, nvr prepare, den have to crap up some things last min. oh manz. But my GP tutor is SO gorgeous la..i feel so weird w/o marianne or chua to tok abt this kinda cheeko-pek stuff. haha..oh wellz. yesterday the boys were saying that grace and I are les. cause we stick to each other constantly. I guess that is how the world evolves. if u stick to close to someone, if it is a boy, u two are a couple; if it is a girl, you are les. I guess that sounds loads betta than being called boy crazy. So I will accept that. hmmmz..feelin sad for grace. I think she rather remain on the pH 7 scale. haha. btw, juz a tot: so if u are constanly arnd boy and girl, are u bisexual? Oh..or iz that consider friendly now? haha.

*OH YES! THE POLITICIAN NAME IS GRACE FU! yes!

haha...its seems that my classmates are starting to visit my blog too. haha. ok ...i betta link the rest of the people to my links first if not tt audrey will nag again. hahaz

~*vanessa*~

yes! it is friday! i noe it will be gone in a flash but i am still glad that it is friday. today, drama did not end at 10pm as planned. we ended as early as 6:45 pm. it is good too since i am so tired i can hardly think straight. right. and also, for once, i dun hafta gulp down jars of coffee to stay awake as i rush thru my last min hw after coming home from drama. tonight, i will sleep after typin finish this entry.
i guess this is the first time i feel that i manage to bond with the girls in the classes i have been. during the first three months, although girls formed majority amonst the class, i stuck to grace solely and vice versa. recently, someone even commented that we WERE anti social. but things have changed! the evolution has taken place. the DOT-KA DOT gang is in full domination. yea! wooooooo! haha...lurve my class loads!
our class is having the angel and mortal game. hmm...well..cannot tok much abt my mortal in case he chance upon this blog. oOpS! and he will noe..but i think i am gonna need to do serious brainstorming to figure out wad am i gonna buy for him!! argh! give wad to a boy? a boy like him? wad will he want? shall ask my godbro or my cousin to go out with me one day.
sigh..see la..one god bro married then only got one to consult...lolz..

also, i got my grp allocation for the pw. can say that i am rather elated with my members. yeapz. definitely looking forward to conquer this together with them. haha...however, all the grps in our class have 5 members and we are the only grp with 4 members. lucky all are competent members. i dare say all are worriers..haha..oh dear...we are the gan cheong grp. btw, there is 3 girls and 1 boy (who is our CT rep) ahaha..we juz told him today that he is our jie mei. haha..he looked totally tortured and bummed out..haha..but as u can see, he is slowly accepting the reality. oOpS!
to add on, my ct rep suffered a relapse on his illness today..juz before his tournament. saw him being supported out of the canteen. he looked quite bad. felt worried for him ..think i will go ask how is he...told u..my grp is all the gan cheong king and queens
well, today is rather an eventful day considering drama and voting elections for councils all happened today. aniwaez, b4 i end off, juz a food for tot: during GP tutorial, i notice all the articles i read, i find the last sentences of each article rather amusin. isit becoz it is really amusing? or is it that i am juz happy to read finish the article? lolz

People are talking, talking 'bout people
I hear them whisper, you won't believe it
They think we're lovers, kept under covers
I just ignore it, but they keep saying
We laugh just a little too loud
We stand just a little too close
We stare just a little too long
Maybe they're seeing something we dont, Darlin.

Lets give them something to talk about
Lets give them something to talk about
Lets give them something to talk about
How about love, love, love, love?

I feel so foolish, I never noticed
You'd act so nervous,
Could you be falling for me?
It took a rumor to make me wonder
Now I'm convinced I'm going under
Thinking 'bout you every day
Dreaming 'bout you every night
Hoping that you feel the same way
Now that we know it, lets really show it, Darlin.

Lets give them something to talk about
A little mystery to figure out
Lets give them something to talk about
How about love, love, love, love? (x2)

oh manz..juz reached home from drama and am super super tired. today was really a "shop till we drop" day as we rummage through piles of vintage cloths in bugis, browse through rows and rows of shophouses, travelled from serangoon to bugis, from bugis to kovan, in search of the perfect outfits for the cast. sigh. someone mentioned to me today, (to selfishly put it), she dun even noe why i am putting so much effort to do this when no one will even find out that i helped to make these outfits perfect. and whether it is ugly or not, i am not the one wearing it anyways. lol. BUT to me, along with selfishness comes irresponsibility; along with generousity comes pride and perfection. hence i chose the unselfish path not becoz i am generous, but becoz i want to be deemed perfect.
besides shopping for the clothings today, i came home with a bunch of receipts in hand, waiting for me to sort them out and start doin the accounting. as i type this entry, the receipts still laying quietly and patiently for me to tackle them later. ugh. screwed. i hate accounting. i juz tried awhile and realised i am in debt of $1.10 which flew to i dunno where.. got an earful from my ever-so-perfect-in-accounting daddy on how money is such an impt issue. "wads the point of having a special bag to place the money when u will lose it anyways? u are sooooo lucky that this is only a small amt lost. some people can even lose up to hundreds. take this as a lesson for you"
right. sigh. well..at least he meant well..hee..he paid the $1.10 for me in the end.
being the in-charge of one of drama's department is so stressful. but i wud say it is accomplishing though. however, it drains all ur energy away from u. so much that u dun even have much time for leisure unless u choose to chuck drama aside. chua has been constantly asking me to go out with her sometime around this week or next but i simply cannot find a time to spare with drama meetings three to four times a week. i feel darn shitty for not seeing her for sooo long..and being in the crew, u have to be on the go on when u need to get the set done, wad u need to prepare, wad plot have they decided to change, how are they gonna change it, are the characters still the same etc. and u have to plan accordingly. if u miss the meeting, then high chance u wun noe wad to expect next meeting. yupz. and i heard next friday, drama crew is gonna stay in school till 10pm at night. siaoz. so ya chua..i am so so so so sorry. i will try to see when i am free and so on and will let u noe k? sorry sorry. miss ya loads too..
the worst thing of all i guess is that my drama performance falls on the bday of my ah-ma. however, i need to be there with the drama crew. so tongues will wag. things will spread and without asking, i noe exactly wad is said...my ahma will prob think i have absolutely no respect for her and for chinese new year next year, i will prob receive $1 red packet from her. haha..ok..maybe fifty cents...no? ok..ten cents
sigh. i am so tired now but i still need to stuggle with my PI and my accounts. dun even noe why i am wasting my time to write this entry. cranky behaviour. k. gonna start work. gonna get another cup of coffee (the 4th of the day). gonna get four hrs of sleep only. yippee...

*yawns* sigh so tired. for the past few days, actually for this whole week, i have been sleeping past 12 midnight for wadeva reasons i am still tryin to figure out. hmmz...aniwaez, yesterday i met up with my ex-tuition fren who is currently now in AJC studyin. watched a movie called INSIDE MAN..by judie foster and that densel washington guy. *thumbs up* its not bad at all! in fact i kinda enjoyed the movie. quite chim though at some point but overall, its money well spent. actually i have to admit that the older generation of HOLLYWOOD actors and actress do act a lot betta as compared to the current batch of green horns. or maybe its becoz all the gd gd producers and directors only get them to act..haha. aniwaez, i won't complain. coz i cannot act.
speaking of which, NYJC drama club is putting up a act at LT4 on the 5th and 6th of may. it is open to everyone from other JCs and Sec skool and Pri skool and Kindergarten skool and Uni as well. and the working world of coz. tickets are priced at $8 so if any of u guys wanna come..call me k? haha...chua alr. said she is gonna come..hope she dun change her mind halfway.
hmmz..as u can see, i have added this entry only for the sake of adding coz my hand is itchin to type. so i am squeezing out as many brain juice as possible to keep me typing continuously. hmm...wad else to tok? oh yeah...today is one of my classmates' bdae. so happy bday to xiu xuan. i doubt she will ever read this msg aniwaez, so i think i can safely tell u guys that there is a surprise for her tonight. coz we are gonna meet for dinner to celebrate with her. but she doesn't noe. she thinks it is only with a few of her close buds. hee. actually, i think surprises for bdae are reallu nice. i mean nice surprises though. yeaz. but i notice that the past few times whenever someone attempts to plan a surprise for me, i hafta spoil it by finding out...unintentionally..then i hafta act surprise. haha...
k i going for lunch now. bye!

out of the blue yesterday, i went to delete 2 of my recent entries coz i felt stupid writing those entries. i oso dunno why i feel that way but it suddenly hit me. yeaps. two nights ago, i had a dream that it was kai ling b'dae. and i forgot. or i didn't noe. but i was at this building that vaguely resemble the IJ skool and chua was walking with anisha..rmb anisha? pri 5 and 6 that girl that went cedar..yea and they apparently was going to look for kai ling to celebrate her b'dae. and when i ask wad day it was, chua apparently had the day written in green chinese words "SUNDAY" slightly below her neck region and she showed me the day... then the next thing i knew, i was being chased by chua, anisha, kai ling and many more..coz i was running home to find kai ling's present...
i dunno wad kind of dream is that..but i noe that this means kai ling's b'dae is coming soon.
kai ling are u honoured?! i dreamt of ur b'dae.
*~vanessa~*

hey everyone..its been a hectic week for me these few days coz my grandma went on holiday and the cooking is sorta left to the maid. so mom and i need to go marketing as well. apart from that, there are also the OGL activities that has been keeping me back from doing wad i want and suppose to do and i feel really bad. anywaez, saw fiona the other day at the church during the eleven o clock service. haha. she overslept. i guess God knew i really missed her a lot. haha. so destiny and fate planned a surprise for me to see her in church as she usually attends the nine o clock service.
btw, saw the class i was in charge of for the O2 orientation. oh manz..gosh! weren't the boys RUDE! yes...R-U-D-E! how rude i will not care to explain but lets juz say two of the boys alr. hit off the wrong note with me. and my another OGL. boy...they are gonna get it tough from both of us..lol
aniwaez, i hope all my friends are havin a blast in their individual skools ya? charmaine? kai ling? hopefully chua? iz everything getting along well for u? hee..

PS: marianne..stop calling me that name will u? i hate it and its really really horrid. juz once and for all CUT IT OUT. juz stop it.

right now, i am in the midst of typing out a horrid encounter i had durin the march hols with kai ling ...i mean not not of kai ling..but errr...how to put it..like she and i had met the horrid encounter while we were out..decided not to type out in case the person will chance upon my blog or something since he/she got my full name.
but at the same time, i have this itch to update the blog yet that incident dominate the 90% of my life..ok.. here goes nothin.
u noe, sometimes when u have nothin to write yet want to write something, u wud start to reflect and topics i tend to reflect majorly evolves arnd my friends. i think that this whole blog is mainly read by my IJ friends and maybe a few of the new frenz in NYJC but that is like 1% population. or perhaps there is like this person who is constantly peeking into my entry to see if there is any update abt her juz becoz she caught me mentioning once abt her. no..not u charmaine.shan't tease u any longer...THAT PERSON SHUD NOE WHO IS SHE...
well..i haven't got a chance to ask anyone if they actually found a few frenz they can hit off in their JC apart from the IJ peeps. well, i have. i mean, of coz it ain't gonna be that tight of a bonding like the IJ people...eg chua (6 yrs of friendship)..eg charmaine (10 yrs of friendship)..kai ling (4 yrs of friendship)..marianne (4 yrs of friendship)..min ser (10 yrs of frienship)..grace (4 yrs of friendship) ..but considering we can actually hit off like in a few mnths, i guess it is really more than i can ask for. at first, i had one other fren like that too, yun qian, but now that she has left to go poly, i am left with this special friend of mine. special coz it is not everytime u get a friend u can sit for hours and talk to her..ok..mostly comprises of suaning...but wadeva. oh yeah, and in the incident tt i mentioned at the top, she did help me alot too coz i was really worried at that point in time when i was suppose to meet that person and she had been there with me. actually, i didn't ask her to accompany me. i juz happened to bump into her on my way there. i suppose this is wad pple call fate betw. friends. and she stopped wadeva she was doing to help me. which was fabulous her. yea. thanks alot to u reading.
haha...i figured that pple who aren't aware of wad happened to me and kai ling will be clueless abt wad happened to me..but no matter, the entries of the incident will be published the min. all this is over. juz need to get over it first. yeapz. but if u wanna noe real bad..haha juz ask me or kai ling..haha

dear diary,
today i got to experience the wonders of friendship again. you know, in life, sometimes u will have turns of up and down tide in emotions esp. settling down in new skool, environment etc and today i guess was the sudden turn of the downside. i guess is that i feel that i am slightly being distanced away from one good friend of mine. i dun really noe how to explain this tot and probably u may think i am being paranoid of sumpthin like that but i suppose sometimes, no matter how close frenz are, u will need to sometimes shun away from that person jux so to have some breathing space for urself. and i respect that, coz sometimes i do have this need too. what more is that this friendship perhaps has not gotten to that stage where u are really ready to be with that fren for tt long a period of time. so u can prob. say that our closeness exceeds the capability of friendship. and that is not a sin either. jux that, perhaps it is regret i feel that our friendship has not advanced to that stage.
so as that friend have chosen to go along with another of our friend, i decided to carry on with my OGL duties and that was when i bump into one friend i have managed to meet in NYJC. she managed to brighten up my whole day, i can proudly say that and i am actually quite grateful to her coz she was there for me. yes, i admit we aren't that close and perhaps are only normal friends but i guess that is the miracle of friendship. u dun have to be a super close friend to cheer a friend up. it all comes from within. needless to say, my day was perfect after that. and it got betta...:)
dear diary, i think it is little incidents like this that remind us constantly that not only close friendships are actually worth cherishing. even ok-ok friends must be cherished. coz u dunno when u will need them. or when they will need u. and who knows? this ok-ok friend may juz step up one level in to a good friend.

*waves* hey..i'm back. yea. left this blog to disintegrate for a few wks. apparently, it is surviving still.. quite well in fact. that's why pple say nvr look down on technology.
well, right now, i guess there is nothin much going on arnd in my life. i mean not that it is boring but that ..it is like when pple ask is there any thing that happened in the past few wks, many memories will being flashin back, but i will say "nothin much". yeap. somethin is seriously wrong wif my english expression.
aniwaez, i guess the most significant event that has happened is that i met up with kai ling, chua and charmaine. we went pool. and we made fools outta ourselves. but the bottom line is that we had fun. not juz fun..but undescribable fun..those kind that even if paid me a thousand to trade memories, i wudn't. becoz that had been simply that happiest moment i had since 2006. and no one is gonna take that away from me. period. *sticks out tongue* nanny nanny poo poo
also, my hp sorta "shut down" juz after kai ling left for her P.E. coz chua wanted to see my msgs and she accidentally turn off my hp and i gave her my wrong password and so on. then i got worried. but that is not the point. the point is that chua help me call the singtel and helped me restore the hp, get the PUK code, talk to the operator which i wud have nvr been able to. and charmaine had been there to assure me (coz i was scared my parents wud try to contact me) and she helped me record the code and did the procedures for me. yeps. come to think of it, i was kinda helpless den. lol. yeah. but that is not the point as well. wad is the point? the point is that, i was so sure that had i been wif any other frenz of mine that i have made this yr, i can literary see the helpless expression they are abt to give me and i wud in the end still call these few frenz to help me get out of the situation. ok..unless i am wif yun qian. haha.. so thanks guys...u all rocks! (i noe charmaine is reading this)
yeap..i guess i still miss the my IJ frenz. sigh. no escaping.

went surfing round the net and i rmb one of the stupid pick-up lines chua told me juz for laughes the other day at a food outlet. it was damn cheesy but it was kinda funny.
Boy: "i am 2 words to say to you"
Girl: "oh yeah? and wads that"
Boy: "i love you"
Girl: *scratch head* "but that is 3 words"
Boy: "becoz you and i are one"
Girl: "..."
i suppose if that was used on anyone, i think the person has a high chance of bursting out laughing..lol.coz i wud. but then again, haha, i dun think anyone wud say that to me. lol.
so curiousity pushed me onto find somemore weird pick-up lines and i manage to find a collection of it. wanna noe? scroll down!
1. "What's your sign?"
The epitome of cheese, this line, which has been around since the Beatles came to America, ranks as the very worst line in dating history. The fact that it's still in use says a lot about the decay of our society's standards and the glaring desperation of some singles.

2. "Pardon me, I seem to have lost my phone number, can I borrow yours?"
Maybe this was funny around 1910 or 1915 — back when the telephone was a novel appliance. It does not inspire smiles now, only scared and doomed looks.

3. "You must be a broom because you're sweeping me off my feet."
Maybe your dad used this one on your mom and for nostalgia's sake, you're bringing it out again. Nostalgia does not get you dates, only pity. "I actually had a guy say this to me during happy hour," says Kim, a vivacious flight attendant who gets her share of pick-up lines. "I didn't hold it against him because I don't know how much he'd had to drink and he was cute. But if he hadn't been cute, I would have dodged him."

4. "Do you have a license? Because you're driving me crazy."
Caution! Watching too many stupid teen movies impairs your judgement. This probably sounded clever to the person who swiped it from an Annette and Frankie beach party flick.

5. "I gotta thirst and baby, you look like my Gatorade."
Generally, comparing potential dates to food or drinks is not a winning move. "I had a guy use this one on me and I rolled my eyes and walked way," says Susan, a marketing representative who doesn't usually go for lines. "But a couple of weeks later, I saw this hot guy at the gym and I used that same line and it worked! I guess there are gender preferences when it comes to lines. He was really flattered, where I was insulted when it was used on me."

6. "Are you lost? Because heaven's a long way from here."
Maybe angels like this one, real women don't.

7. "Are you religious? Because you're the answer to all my prayers."
Prayer is something that anyone who uses this tacky line desperately needs.

8. "Can I take your picture? I want Santa to know exactly what I want for Christmas."
This line is popular with both men and women who think references to Santa are cute and charming, which are qualities that they never possess personally.

9. "Do you believe in love at first sight or should I walk by again?"
"A stunning woman I had been staring at used this on me," says Mark, a tawny-haired, gregarious copywriter. "I know it's an old one but it took guts to say it. I'm afraid I happily fell for it."

10. "Well, here I am. What are your other two wishes?"
A personal favorite, this one takes a certain amount of arrogance, as well as delusion, to pull off.

actually, comparing to all these pick-up lines, chua's wasn't so bad after all. in fact, it sounded quite adorable. lol. i mean, comparing to these.

good morning singapore. although the results have officially been released, i still feel as if i am stoning and floating arnd life. i suppose after receiving my results, i wud be rather glad to have the results i have, but on the contrary, i was not. not that i am unhappy or wad, but juz u noe, nonchalent. yea..i guess kinda disappointed to a certain extent. dunno y. sigh. maybe its wid the sciences.
also, i actually realised that although my parents didn't exactly spell it out for me, they were actually worried that i wud go commit suicide if my marks were bad. i mean, they didn't like tell me straight into the face "I THINK U ARE GONNA KILL YOURSELF" or wad but they took a half day off each. like my dad in the morning, my mum in the afternoon and then both in the night. so i am like watched like a hawk 24/7. they were like taking shifts to look after me! maybe i looked really mentally depressed.
then my mom took me to watch FUN WITH DICK AND JANE. well, it didn't turned out as horrid as wad kai ling described and on the contrary, i actually enjoyed the good laugh, though there was this guy who kept sitting closer and closer to me and there was even a time when he, well, sorta..ya..my leg when he crossed over to his seat. yea. then my mom changed places wif me.
altogether, i have received calls from: (in random order)
linus gor gor
third aunt
first aunt
julian
tuition teacher for science
compo teacher for chinese
second aunt
kimmy
aunty mary
yo who else?
the list is still rollin (keep rollin rollin rollin rollin)
right now, i juz dun wanna hear anymore abt the results and i certainly have enuff of pple asking. juz gonna shut myself up for a few days of quietness to reflect...ok...maybe i will call on a few close frenz..like kai ling or chua..ya.

time is close to 12 : 30 in the wee morning of wednesday. juz finish my GPproject. actually felt a sense of accomplishment after decorating, typing, designing and blah blah blah..good. at least i have the confidence to show it to others. confidence is key!
tml, or shud i say today there is gonna be P.E. and this is juz gr8 coz that leaves me wif less than 6hrs of sleep and i am still pretty much awake. weird.
today, or shud i say, yesterday, was the day i finally got locked out of the house. yupz..coz from the whole bunch of frenz i have so far, they all managed to get locked out of the hse at least once e.g. kai ling who came to my hse during Os and there was grace who oso got locked out of the hse a few times, longest record time she said was 45 mins. i guess i beat her to it today. i got locked outta the hse for more than 4 hrs. parents were out. stupidly, both of their phones were off. maid ain't at home (went for medical check-up) and then no soul at home. yet i cannot call my grandma coz she is gonna kick up a big fuss and then everything will be disastrous. thankfully, god gave us a gift called friends. grace decided to be so super-dee-whooper sweet and accompanied me at my block downstairs till past 5:30. during that time, we decided to do maths and chem. actually, i think it is a good thing i got locked out i guess if not, my hw wudn't be so much completed and i wudn't have the time to spare for my project. then grace had to get ready for her tuition so she invited me to her home for a while. was a lil pai seh but nonetheless, eternally grateful. lol. i think i owe grace alot this week. haha...first was the pencil case and then the calculator and then now the house ... ya..4-got to bring pencil case to skool and calculator as well on the same day. lol. might as well dun come.
so thanks grace. for being there.
k. i think i will go get some rest now. cyz people. IJ lives on!

haiz...there is so much work i juz realised that hafta to be completed but somehow, my brain is juz not strong enuff to overpower every single muscle in my body to move to the study table and get it on, especially the heart. coz it has juz been officially confirmed over the radio that the results are released on friday!!!!!!!!!!!
ugh.
NY principal said on friday no need to come. sigh..gd, at least i can stay at home and prevent any unneccessary mental collapse..aniwaez, who wud listen on that day? i wudn't..i can't..
as the day draws nearer, i keep feelin my whole soul floating more and more instead of walking.. sigh...

juz came home from my relative, or specifically, my third aunt place. rushin thru the hw and notes for tml. sigh. i am struggling to rap-a-tap-tap my brain to recall who was the stupid person who told me that the 1st 3 mths is a slacker. then again, i suppose there are many guilty pple. aniwaez, managed to sleepily finished my physics prac. and now juz realised there is GP proj. k..at least that can drag for awhile.
gd nite.

juz got onto the MSN messenger and the few outstanding msgs that greet my eyes were "results are coming out". sigh. cannot escape the fate of this cruel torture. for the past one week, every lecture, every teacher, everybody, every senior, every tutorial, there wud nvr fail to have some mention of the gruesome topic and even now, at home, in front of my com, i am not spared.
so wad goes round, i suppose comes round...i shall not spare the readers of the pain either! muahaha....i am Super worried abt the results coming out too. sigh. altogether, i had alr. abt 4 dreams or shud i say some are nightmares abt the results i have 'virtually' received and ugh...so not worth mentioning.
also, during these past few days, the popping question in front of me lately is if i am gonna change skool if my results are betta (or for the worse). well i tot that my mind had been like 99% made up that i shud like to stick to NYJC..but after telling that decision to one of my uncle, he decided to sit down and gave me a one-to-one pep talk on how i shud always aim to go for the best. and i actually found myself being swayed a lil by his speech..man..and to think he didn't become the next vivian balakrishnan. he also mentioned that singapore is a society that wud prob. give more considerations for those who comes and graduates from the betta skools which i found to a certain extent, a truth in it all. well, we'll see. maybe right now, the best thing is not to think which JC i shud go but whether NYJC will still want me arnd.
another thing that has kept me paranoid for weeks is the stupid rumour that has been passing arnd on whether u have received the letter from MOE on becoming a teacher. yupz. that one. does that realli mean that u have got 11-17 pts for Os to receive that letter? or was it u got 15 pts. and above to receive tt letter? it is really creepy k? and i wish the MOE wud like be juz a lil considerate and come out to the media and explain and clear the rumours. its always like this...ugh.
hopefully, perhaps someone from MOE wud read this entry and decide to do us a favour and do something. but then, it is like a few days to the results, so they may juz as well think: wads a few more days of worry for these pests?

elloz everyone! today was CCA day and we had ODAC training too..oh boy and did we have it tough! we sprint round the school (which was big) and did 30 spider push-ups, 30 split jumps, 30 crunches, 30 tiger push ups, 30 normal push ups and 30 squatters. that was considered as one set. we did more than ten times in total.
oh yeah, and did i mention, we walk-run from nan yang to khatib forest on saturday. that took five hours in total. yeap, though it had been very tiring but nonetheless, it was really fun when we recalled, coz we weren't doing it invidually. we did it as a team. that made the whole outing fun. and then we went to explore the khatib forest. whee..i was glad that i worn my old pair of school shoes instead of my adidas shoes coz the whole damn place was sticky, muddy, wet and sloppy. so as you plunge each feet into the terrifying mud, u can literally hear your shoes squeak out in pain and abhorrence and "squish"
there, we had outdoor cooking. yeap. we had it. not like the one in guides but rather really with the stickes, pebbles, wood, no oil, juz me and the team. of coz some grps had it rather and some was not bad. heheh..i wud like to classify my team under the latter category since we won the best food award. muahahaha. as for the rather unsuccessfully cooked food, which were mainly raw, the leaders gave us ten minutes and each of us were suppose to gobble two mouthfuls of it each so as to not waste it. haha. was telling kai ling the other night, suppose we do this for the guides in ij...haha the parents wud long ago complain. thats the best thing anyone noe how to do these days. but then again, i think they won't coz the guides wudn't even make it during the walk to khatib forest. ok. i am mean.
aniwaez, today was like sports cca day coz i hafta run 7 rounds during P.E. too before the gruelling ODAC but ok, it was aiight...manageable. but OMG, the guys were all like rockets and they juz kept "whooosshhh!" past us. freaky..

today was the madd-iest day of the week. it was unending lessons scheduled for the PCME students and though it is still never as hectic as the lives in secondary skool, well, it was more crazy when u compare it to other days. BUT! there is P.E. tml. shucks. i heard we hafta run EI8HT rounds! well..at least CJC had to run 12 runs. muaha. muahaha. muahahahaha...
we had CCA bazaar today so came home like arnd 5 plus. i am pleased to say that i have signed up for the ODAC as well as DRAMA. tot working as backstage for the drama was kinda cool. aniwaez, there is gonna be a camp this sat for ODAC. part of me, i guess, is rather looking forward. i hope i make frenz. these two weeks have been frenzy making friends week.
the highlight of the day is i have finally met one nasty teacher in the skool. and guess wad? she is teaching maths. sobz sobz. it was like the first day of the lecture for maths and i have assignments to do LIAOZ!!! waahaaa...boo hoo hoo. and i have to read-up some things too. all for that subject. did i mention there were even notes given alr.?! and after nagging, scolding, reprimanding, she concluded "i hope you all will feel extremely welcomed in NYJC coz u made the right choice!" sure.
haiz. still kinda miss IJ. miss those times where we shared the crappiest jokes and laughed together..miss those times where no one cares if we ate rudely or uncouthly..miss those days where we were even nasty or having a bad day but the frenz were still so sensitive and sweet. i suppose it's in the blood. once an IJ gal, forever an IJ gal.

so far this few days have indeed been a gruelling time for me. apparently orientation was more tiring than i ever tot it wud be. nonetheless, i had lotsa fun here there everywhere though i am still not very used to the fact that there are actually boys in my school now as well as chua, kai ling, charmaing, marianne, etc are no longer wif me too. but then again, i suppose i will nvr get used to it coz such friends are hard to forget. well, at least i am glad that i nvr complained abt CHIJ when i in there but rather, chose to be contented and enjoyed every moment of it coz rite now, i seriously need a strong dose of the IJ SPIRIT and juz the enter the skool again to feel "LIFE".
throughout these few days in skool, i muz say that one of the few things i am very impressed with is that they are extremely organised. so far, i dun think there is a school that lets you off at 5:00pm sharp when they state it in the booklet (yeap. there is EVEN A BOOKLET) and nanyang did it. also, the pple there, especially my orientation leaders, are very nice and sweet. haha. wanna hear a joke? i am nominated to represent my grp for disco night queen. muahahaha. funny rite?! nvm. the real joke will come when u see me dance! ugh. but i guess i will try to be sporting. yes. true essence of a girl guides. whoo hoo
i seriously think tt i have a nerd face. the guai guai look. everyone tends to tell me to relax and says that i have a worried expression wif me all the time. i think i am juz looking like that lah..haha. the only way my face is gonna relax is when it melts.so yupz.
so far, i am pleased wif my JC. getting along well wif both girls and guys on the whole. but that doesn't mean that i don't miss IJ.

in less than two days time, we will all be heading back to school...except that this time, it is to different JCs and all. recieved a call from a guy called Julian juz a few days back and was told to bring like $20/- for some things we hafta pay. from wad i suspect, we are actually gonna pay them to dirty us! sanity truly driven to the edge!
aniwaez, was kinda toking to chua yesterday and when we were abt to put down the phone, i suppose the realization has suddenly, and finally, struck me that all my friends are really going seperate ways. it was like "...oh ok den...you have fun k? see yo..." i suddenly didn't noe wad i was suppose to say...see you? oh my god..when will that be? juz thinking back all the memories that i have made in CHIJ...for like ten years?!...with all these friends that are with me...and den realizing that the next two gruelling yrs they will not be there anymore to partake in your stressload, burden etc...think i'm gonna breakdown...
well, chua have juz decided not to watch the amtyville horror with me this year anymore. she says that we shall leave that till next yr so that at least there is a reason for us to meet and so on. tot that was cool. well...so shall i say.."see you next yr chua!"?
as for a few friends like marianne w., and fiona goh i suppose there will be less heartache coz we will get to see each other in church every sunday. and angie lives above me! thank god. these make parting less unbearable.
but den i seriously dunno when i will get to see kailing and charmaine tay again...i suppose charmaine will forever be that cheeky monkey that goes round secretly reading others blog as usual, right charmaine? when we go diff. JCs, pls. remember to leave some msgs on my blog sometime too ya?!
sigh...maybe we will all meet again...in east coast one day...

the furthest place is not the end of the world, but rather the ability to reach out to the hearts of the people beside you.

today is a lazy-dazy day for me, maybe its due to the fats that are i am piling on at a horrendous rate.yeaps. it has gotta be...ugh
met kailing, angie and chua today to watch the chronicles of narnia. not bad. not bad at all. heard that charmaine watched the pirated version of it so she didn't join us. hmm...before the commencing of the movie, a short film of the pirated version of the show was shown to once again tell us that piracy is bad. kinda reminded me of charmaine. i mean the pirated version looked real bad, and i mean real bad. it wud be a pity if she had to watch like that. but then again, i guess not. these cinema people always tend to show the worst of the worst pirated version.
chua and angie gave me a bracelet today as christmas gift. altogether, i received two bracelets for christmas and they are all super beautiful. my mom says that i shud stop having so many bracelets since i only got two hands. oh wells. she has more than fifteen necklaces but there is only ONE neck...besides, i still want to have more bracelets...
aiight..i am really exhuasted now though i dunno why...i sleep eat play all day and yet i feel tired...lifestyle of a sloth..yippee

in a flash and christmas is arnd the corner. juz checked my christmas to-do list and i guess everything is almost done.
christmas cards bought
christmas cards sent
christmas tree fixed and decorated
christmas presents bought
christmas presents given
and are you broke? yes. wid a big hole in my pocket.
come to think of it, i juz realise that my primary skool close friends are gonna meet up arnd christmas time too, which means my christmas shopping is not exactly done altogether. ugh. k. i will have to rack-a-tap-tap my exhausted brain to think of some more christmas gifts.
for the past few days, i exhauasted myself and the dvd player watchin MARS (zhan shen) by vic zhou and da s. i watched this show twice within this hols liaoz and the second time i wid angie. thx to her i have been woken up twice like super early juz to watch the vcd wid her and the marathon is still gruelling on. so far i guess zai zai and da s are one of the best on screen and off screen couple. lets hope it wudn't turn out to be like the stupid britney-justin relationship. also, i heard that zai zai is gonna act with li yu chun aka supergirl (dunno who the blue hell is that). i was thinking no matter how i pronounce the name, doesn't it sound like fishing village (yu chun(1st sound)) or stupidity (yu chun(3rd sound))? nvm. angie has this "huge" worry that zai zai will fall for that yu chun person after acting the show wif her coz he looks like those kind who mixes up his emotions on screen and off screen. ok...i suppose he is a lil like that but oh wellz, the fishing village girl betta look gd then. besides the actual roles for the show is not exactly appointed yet. producers are currently debating whether to star zai zai or zhang zheng. of coz angie will vote for zhang zheng in fear of zai zai being robbed away from da s.
juz visited zai zai fan club website. saw someone posted this message saying "da s is a bitch. how dare she steal my zai zai away from me! zai zai will be too good for her". personally i think that this is one of the lowest maturity and intellectual level a fan can ever stoop to declare how much she likes this idol. i think it is basically okay to comment on their relationship. after all evryone is entitled to their own opinion. but for heaven's sake dun say farnie stuff like stealing zai zai away from me coz he was nvr urs to begin with. and i suppose this person is having the hallucination that zai zai wud fall for her if da s wasn't there?! hahaha...thats a gd joke.

today is mummy's birthday so *happy birthday to you*. juz finished watching The Rainbow Connection. wah...they dance damn nice lah...i miss the dance except for jeanette aw and her partner dancing. so graceful...whoo hoo...
actually what i am more attracted is the background music that they danced to. trying to find the title of that piece. sigh...can anyone help? sighz...no soundtrack, no name, no tune...dun even noe wher to begin...

ok...practically the whole of 2/2 is having a world of their time now....swimming, tanning, cycling and me? pathetically sitting in front of my com. gawking at the computer screen. i think i have finally foind sumpthin i hate more than injections...MEDICINE! TABLETS! pui! i am practically reeked with the stinking smell of medicine and this morning, diahorrea juz cannot stand NOT laying its nasty hands on me.
but i suppose last night was worse than this morning. at least i am able to walk about this morning. last night, my temp decided it was not high enuff so it flew to a temp of 38.3C. actually it was more than that but i took the thermometer out before it cud record any higher. digusted. i cud barely move and was laid on the couch like a zombie plainly watching tv. i managed to drag my dead carcass in front of the tv to watch tiramisu coz i found out through last week episode that there was a rather erm...above average looking guy acting. lol. so like me. nvm.
mum juz rented a few horror shows to watch wif me...i think one is called amtyville. so nice of her to rent horror movies for me though she is scared to death of these movies. now she is gonna watch it with me. heh heh. some good is coming out from all this idiotic - ness afterall.

dear bloggie,
currently, i am having a stupid illness called fever. and because of this idiot, i cannot go watch movie "Perhaps Love" with my friends, kailing, chua and charmaine which i had been looking so forward to do so. SHUCKS!
come to think of it, i think there are several possibilities that cud have caused me to have this.
1. the east coast outing....had a tan, refuse to drink ample supply of water
2. lack of water
3. late nights early mornings
4. there was this stupid guy that was seated behind me in a SBS bus. he kept coughing, sneezing and my brain didn't even think once of moving away.
so my conclusion is that i am suffering becoz of nobody or anyone but myself. sigh.
tomorrow there is a class outing to sentosa with class 2/2. i hope i can make it there. i promised chua to teach her cycling. SHUCKS! DOUBLE SHUCKS!
nothing is confirmed yet. my temperature is fluctuating. 37.4C, 37.7C, 37.2C, 36.7C, 36.8C...whats the next no. pattern?

recently, i have found myself settling in the worst of the worst "holiday hobbies" - idolising.
thanks to the TV..i have started a superb humongous craze over luo zhi xiang...going madness whenever i see 100% entertainment at 5:00pm .. AND DEN stayin up till 12:30am - 2:00am (depending on the time the show is aired) to see the repeated episode. so altogether, i watch the show twice. and i think if they were to air the show anytime, i wud watch it for another time. haiz. i hope this kinda craze wears out soon. i do not have stamina for such things. but arrrghhhh...he is sooooo cuuute!!!! and he got a cold and a sore throat and a cough today. i hope he gets will soon. sigh.
and then, thanks to 100% entertainment, i have gotten the craze for nicholas tse as well...oh man...y are some stars juz sooooo goood-looking..haiz...and i realise he behavedifferently too (for the better)...wonder is it really true or is my craze acting up again. so i went to the vcd shop and rented ALL the shows he acted in and now i am stayin up from dusk till dawn (yep no mistake) watching all his shows...laughing incessantly and turning insane. of coz, i stop watching during the time 100% entertainment is aired...other than that...its feeding the dvd player!!!!!!!
ok...my dad says give the dvd player five mins rest...its five mins is up. i shall cont'd watching. cya!

YIPPPEEEE!!! *sings* i noe how to cycle! i noe how to cycle! *sings* okay...i bet tons of people do lar but at least now i am one of them...finally.
so yesterday kai ling..charmaine..grace..jacynth and me went to east coast park to play and eat. yupz...burn the fats then pile them up again... we met at the bus interchange at tp. i was THE FIRST TO ARRIVE! saw jaycynth coming so decided to wave to her...she walked towards me...i cont'd to wave...she walked past me... - -"
charmaine had intelligently brought only herself...wearing NICE shoes and so on so she cudnt swim with us...jacynth was either nice or she juz oso didnt wanna get wet too coz she accompanied charmaine. then we went to sun tan.

Outcome
i got sun burnt
charmaine turned into a lobster
grace got a tan
kai ling had long hit saturation point so there is no point sun taning..get the point?
jacynth got erm...i didn't think she got a tan...i dunno...erm....she still looked the same.

so i dunno who was worst...charmaine or me
then we ate at some japanese outlet. kai ling and charmaine nvr fail to get into a bicker over the diff betw. food center and food court...i think one was suppose to be bigger than the other. nvr mind.
then me being the junior in cycling, i created lotsa havoc...numerous...sigh but everyone remained safe and sound except me so logically speaking i created lotsa havoc for myself only. i suppose everyone was smart and experienced enuff to dodge. and some people had to stand in the middle of the road while i was cycling and i sorta freaked out. so i said "wah! they think the road their grandfather open izit?!". THEN!!! *drum roll* charmaine said "how can? then wud their grandfather name be called "east coast"?" sighz..
yupz...so it was a fun fun fun fun fun, splendid day! thats all. oh yeah did i mention...we met mari chang. yep.

hey guys...i realised i have been bloggin lots lately even if there is nothin special goin on in my stupid life. i guess the boring after exams days have finally taken its toll on me. boo hoo hoo. nonetheless...i shall juz keep blogging till i am sick of bloggin then i will find myself ANOTHER boring hobby.
so today my mum and i went for lunch at some place called PARISS...ya. it was buffet lunch and wah!!!! shiok! they got abalone...sharks fin...sushi...black pepper crab... crayfish ...oysters...salad bars... whoa sai...u want wad they got wad. so we came at abt twelve. and there were two ladies that were oredy there. one was wearing a pair of clogs that u can hear when she is coming back from picking food or where she is walking coz it was simply that loud. its like u r drinkin soup and then behind u, u hear the clogs go "(to the east) clack clack clack....(then to the west) clack clack clack clack...."
and also, there were a family who didn't know where the dishes were placed. so when the five-year-old saw me holding a plate, she practically got so excited that she tripped on the way towards me. i never seen someone got so excited to see a porcelien object. then she hollered at me : WHERE DID YOU FIND THE PLATES? to be honest, i was quite stunned. so i merely pointed to the hole below me (at her eye-level) and she screamed in delight at the white stationery porcelien dishes. amazing.
went to swensons to eat ice cream after going to the Hello Singtel shop to get my new sim card. my mom keeps callin it the hello kitty shop (unintentionally). i dun see a lot of link betw. the two. but oh wellz...nvr mind.
i am quite happy today overall coz i finally bought my BIG BIG pencil case. YIPPEE!!!
muaha... muahaha... muahahaha...

today kai ling and i went back to skool to check out the guides. OMG...everything was so sssslllloooowwww-moooooviinnggg. when i reach the skool, the coy was mooovvving the poles for sunning. so i decided not to disturb them and like u noe, give them space to do work. becoz when i was in their situation, i absolutely detested the seniors who stared at us with their gold-fish looking eyes while we do our work as if hoping someone wud make a mistake. so it was only after they moved on to do some marching did kai ling and i took a look at the poles. uh...they kept it. they moved the poles out for barely 5 mins and then they kept it. its that called sunning? thats barely warming. so a concern crossed me. if this is what they call sunning, i am a lil worried how they dry their clothes in the sun. 10 mins? oh man....i noe global warming is increasing but the earth has not become that hot as to dry things in 5 MINS!!!!
but aniwaez, i am only a senior. so i will shut up. the only liberty i have extends to the limits of this blog.
then we met chua, grace, yu fang, angie, geok hian at K box. seriously, this is my first time entering that place i had absolutely no idea it was located in toa payoh. think it took over the old Popular location. i tot it was somewhere in jurong west.
so we sang. sang. sigh. wished yvonne and huay shan was here. haha. no one wud certainly stop them. chua and i wanted to watch exorsism today but apparently she forgot to call me after her interview. haha. so maybe we will go on wed...unless we both forget. sigh. its tough to be old.

recently, despite the exams being over and done with, i have been feeling rather angsty. i suppose friendship is the word. to all of u people reading this entry rite now, do u think it is rite to juz chuck a friend aside juz because you two are heading to different schools? and despite her supposedly being ur gd friend, u r like nvr asked to write any of her guestbook because simply with a lame excuse that u two will be seeing each other weekly so there is no way (even if she wanted to) she can forget u? yet ironically, the thing is that she ask those people who are actually going to the same skool to write her guestbook. truthfully, i am not hurt or wadsoever in the midst of all this but rather a lil puzzled and angered.
even on prom night, when u request to juz take one photo with her, she reasons with you that there is no need to take so soon when we have 6 hrs more to slowly take them. however, to my surprise, 5 mins later prior to wad she said, when another friend calls her and me to take pic, she did not reject and in my opinion, she was extremely enthusiastic.
i have done self-reflections on my part to recall if i did her any wrong. in fact, there were one or two times when i blatently asked her point blank in her face if i did any wrong or angered her in anyways. she said no. so perhaps the time has come for me to take the back seat and let her ponder (which she will never bother anyways) why is she acting like an eccentric.
my dear friend, if you happen to chance upon this entry, which you prob. won't coz u simply wud not have ANY time to visit my blog (only) and perhaps think that u have the rest of ur life to do so, i wud actually be very glad. becoz i seldom make my feelings this clear. and even if u were to lament it to all our other close friends, it wouldn't matter even becoz u and i wud be going seperate ways for good. but if u want my advice, stop acting pathetic. nobody cares.
on this note, i wud end my entry and i have two special request that i wud make known to u in due time and hopefully, u wudn't think it is (again) alright NOT to change it coz it is pissing me off.

*normally, after i rant abt someone, i wud make some changes so as to deliver my msg across in the softest and slightest blow i can manage but i guess i now simply dun care!

HEY EVERYONE! ITS SINGAPORE'S 40TH NATIONAL DAY!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

tee-hee...that shud be enthu enuff...alright so today had been a rather unfruitful day for me...i mean when will it ever be fruitful...had a bad sleep last night...dreamt of the English O'level oral...ccheez...and this morning had tuition test while all my frenz are sleeping like logs in their warm cozy bed....grrr... and just to make my life mre miserable, i took the 2 tests in the classroom filled with giggling girls that kept singing the national day theme song. so it went something like "reach out...heeeh heeeeh ...for ...the hahahahahaha SKKKKIEEEESSSSSSSS. *mumble mumble mumble* can ...ACHEIIIIVVVEEEEEEE!!!!! heeh ehehahahaha"

haha. very funny.

Your element is Fire. Like fire, you have a hot
temper and you can be warm and loving as well
and angry and wild. It all really comes down to
what you are feeling. You have a lot of close
friends who you are very protective over, and
with your temper probably some enemies too. You
are not Miss Popular in school since you are
your own person and don't want to be forced
into behaving this or that way. You are the
untamed wild horse, the kind that everyone
wants to catch. But you don't want to be tied
down for the moment and just keep going with
your little crushes. Your will is strong and if
you set your mind to do something, you will
most likely succeed. But beware, your friends
may not always accept your mood-swinging
behaviour. Even if you don't mean to be mean,
they can still feel hurt. You just need to
start thinking some things through before you
do them, and not always jump in with so much
courage. One day you may be hurt because of
that, but then again, your element isn't fire
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